I am but I am not.

I know you're not ready, not prepared, and don't wish to commit to anything. I've also said before that you can slowly take time to sort out your own feelings and emotions. You're confused I understand. I am as well. 

I guess I'm everything but just a friend. As of now, whatever it is I'm still just a friend. But I don't regret anything. I do what I wanna do and wanna give. Even if it's nothing out of it, I still give. 

At the end of the day, I only wish you will be happier than before. That's all that matters. 

I'm a wild shark.

Sharks are very sensitive and emotional creatures, different personalities and contrasting characters. Each of them are different, special, and unique. They have to keep moving to stay alive. Sharks do not care what people think of them or what they say about them. They are always their own.

People can say anything they want about us. No matter what we do, how they want to think is their problem. Curiosity is human nature, we can't control. No matter what people say or think, the reality remains anyway. It doesn't matter at all because knowing or not knowing, saying or not saying, or however people think, it's not going to change anything or does it make any significant difference. Does it matter? Is it important? Does it change anything? Fuck no.

They can say whatever they want, think however they want. It's none of their business, not their problem and even more so doesn't affect or involve anyone else. I really don't fucking care and I'm too sick and tired too. Talk about judging, the whole world judges. Nothing really matters except each his own.

But really, so what?

One day at a time.

I guess only you can help yourself to come out of it and walk out of it yourself eventually. As much as I want to help or do something, I know I can't change anything. I hate feeling helpless but I hope you will find the strength and courage to move on with time. Everything will pass, we all just need time.

Concluded.

I hope the big rock in your heart has been taken down - or at least, it seems so.

I guess we all have to move on from here, slowly and steadily.

It will all pass and time will heal. Although we don't know how long it will take. but I'm sure one day you will be free from this and able to start your life anew.

I will remember what you told me...that we'll just be friends and you don't want to be with me. I won't ask of anything, just hope you will be able to get over it with time and be happy. I will also try to move on.

Last page.

I hope when tomorrow comes, you will face yourself truthfully, bravely, courageously.

I know either way has its own pain, but you will come out of it eventually.

No matter what you choose and decide, I will tell myself to respect what you want, and also to deal with it in time.

I hope you don't settle for less. I hope you choose what makes you happier and better in the future.