Back to school tmr! Super sian to the maximum. I've already almost forgotten how to do ticketing lol. & I have loads of notes to print but no ink and no paper, and lazy to go get :\

Projects are still not here not there, time to really rush them all out. The next three months gonna be mad tensed due to tests and examinations. Hope to faster finish all the projects then can focus on the modules.

Church for the whole entire morning, good job to my team for the kick-off event :) Baby Ruth came to me to carry her, so cute! Totally made my morning, haha.

I think being able to make others happy is something worth to spend time and effort for.

To love is to give in something in exchange for something that even though you may not like but at the best way out.

Chao ta today -_-"

Totally not in the mood for school to reopen looking at the amount of school work :\

2 in 1.

Everyday i'm controlling a self within a self.

Time...time to really get it through.

So many things happening until I've lost track of myself. Everything feels so crappy.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

Silent tears, lonely soul.

So this was how it ended after the whole entire long day of my time, efforts, company and love.

I didn't know how it feels like to not know where to go but to roam around. I didn't know how it feels like when your needs and thoughts are not being considered of. I didn't know how it feels like to be left behind alone on the streets.

But today, I knew.

Kao, stupid report.

Self-control is an art.

So, the week has ended. Good times passes by ever so quickly. Time to get back to the usuals :\

Last week left before school starts as well, so dreadful.

Time fliesss.

Just like any other people, I am also taking a "break" this week. Working much lesser and slower with school work. Hahaha. Feels good but sadly cannot put aside forever :(

Always hungry but only have small appetite. Weird.

Projects and more projects, zzz. After tomorrow I'm going to chiong my individual report 'cause it's bugging my mind all day long :(

Honestly, I'm not very looking forward to internship. Feels like cheap labour :\

I'm in love with mushroom soup.

Listening is a skill. So many things to digest over these two days :\

Dear human,

I think you did just as well as you always do today.

From,

Heart.

Ok. I shall control even more and beyond limits no matter how tough things get. A facade is all it takes.

Sigh.

I've got accepted :) After a 3 hour interview -_-" Draggy to the max. And then I had to say so much "nice to hear things" and sell myself lol. But anyway, really good to know that I have secured a placement. No need to worry about sip anymore! Off my to-do list, awesome. Met many potential course mates there as well actually, but in any case still happy that this huge thing can be off my mind for now. Until 14 Sept!

It's really tough but I'm trying my best.

Being defensive and protective of myself is just but a way out. And perhaps the only way out.

Had a shock of my life when I was chatting with my mum when I was having dinner in the living room when a pigeon flew right into my house! Omg I was screaming like crap and I ran into the kitchen and closed the sliding door in case it flies towards me lol. My mum was happily talking to the pigeon and asking it to find its way out to the window -.- Quite a cute scene actually but I was too horrified to laugh lol. Then when it finally "found its way" out it still stayed at the edge of my windows and refused to go. Xia si ren le!

Ought to give myself a mini break before I start working on school work :)

Photoshoot was funny today but I thought it was quite a good way to save on cost since we have people who are willing to help. Haha. Anyway, dotdot was exceptionally friendly to me today! Ehehe, so adorable.

Yay, end of tests! Mid-sem break is here ^^ So happy there's no mid-sem exams, hehe. Thank god I've got the 'easier' paper today for FB test, doable! & Now it's time to chiong projects!

To numb so there's no room for emotions. It ceases the need for 'how would I feel'.

Beginning of June wasn't good, wonder how am I going to survive the whole month like that. My daoness have to surface pretty much.

The question doesn't lie with why you don't have a boyfriend, the question is with will you ever be a girlfriend.

I'm so tired lately until I don't have much mood to care about anything, hurhur. School and work and church, no time to breathe :\

Busy with life, bye~

Bad morning! Grr.

I woke up so damn early to prepare for interview and then when I got there I waited like a fool for them when finally some lady came to bring me in, I was told there was no interview today. Joke or what -.- Then she came to tell me that she freaking changed the interview date!!! & I didn't know about it!!! She thought she called me. Ugh, she THOUGHT. So there, I'm going back there again next monday -.-" Man, wasted my sleep and my time and my energy and my poor toes which are hurting from my heels. Don't know which magical number she thought she called leh -.-

So now I'm back at home, going out soon to go to school for one class, wahpiangz.

First ticketing test over, yay. That was like 30% man. Thank god I went to school earlier today to practise abit before the test, so many people were also there too. Haha, it was fine I guess :) Happy, left with one more test this week.

Interview tmr~! Kinda sian, I heard that alot of people actually applied for it also, zzz. Hope it ends early so I can be on time for class :( I'm taking it easy btw! Lol.

Last week of school to go before term break! Wanna get over all the tests and interview. Seems so near but yet so far. Mundane arrr.

Do you think it's more often for people to change or yourself?

I was so bored today at home alone T_T Feeling very nua-ish and just feel like resting my day away. But apparently I was trying to force myself to study for ticketing (and F&B which I haven't started). Thank god ticketing test is open book so I don't have to worry THAT much 'cause I think I have paid enough attention in class trying to listen to what my china teacher was trying to deliver -_-" But having said that it also means that open book test are not that easy, hmm.

Oh well, only can study hard for now. A job as a student is so pathetic, we have to work 24/7 :(

Cold calling requires much self-discipline and motivation :\

Had a rushy brushy morning, really dread travelling to school when i'm running late and stuffs. Sometimes I really wonder why on earth did I even choose TP.

But anyway, I love it when tutorials end early *grins*

So much for the week! Gonna be really busy over the weekend & I aim to finish a whole lot of stuffs in the next two days. Two more tests to go before term break!

Hello world, I've got no time to breathe.

Sometimes I feel like I make people feel threatened :\ Oh well.

-

Anyway, I've been feeling very tired and still am. Can't wait for the weekend so I can rest a little more. Nothing's new, life's the same.

Yay, I'm finally almost recovered.

I think...

To a classmate I'm a slacker,

To a group mate I'm a chiongster,

To a teacher I'm a quiet girl,

To a friend I'm a daoster,

To a closer friend I'm a busy woman,

I wonder what am I to some others...lol.

I'm trying my best not to dread ticketing now, lol. It's so draining you can't even spare that few seconds stoning or rest. Ugh, and she's going so fast and it's so xin ku to hear her speak because she is always trying to force words out, sigh.

Three tests ahead :(

& Now i know, 半功半读 not easy leh!

Screw school.

:( x 100

How often do people cherish their first chances?

Quite a normal day, nothing interesting. Getting pretty restless about the things going on.

Stressful as the week begins, so many things to do i'm going to explode. Tests are coming up and i have to prepare for interviews and chiong projects too. No need to sleep already -.-

Royal Caribbean is now closed for internship, shitz. Now I gotta think of another company to apply...sian leh.

Well anyway, I'm feeling much better now I guess. Fever's gone now, left with all the little bits here and there. So gan dong when my dad came over to my room this morning and asked how was I. Haha, he must have had a shock that morning when I just fell flat on his bed, lol.

I'm starting to get busy with projects already but here comes all the tests that we need to study for also. So many things to do. Seriously can't wait for june to come.

Had a food party with my class this evening, stupid pizza delivery sent wrong order, made me order twice which wasted so much time -.- But thank god everything still went smoothly. Kids these days are equally as stressed up I guess. Haha, what is wrong with the singapore education system man.

Hope time can pass by slower...zzz.

Throat infection and high fever is no joke man, so xin ku :(

Sigh, had to skip school...good thing nothing much today, just that feeling very out of place 'cause I missed out on project consultation as well, tsk. Chiongster like me can't afford to lose out things like that. I guess this what they call "forced rest" bah. Had been just resting the entire day and received a few calls from friends. Sian, dread eating medicine also. The antibiotics so big! o_o

Shall take the weekend to study and chiong projects. Next week busy week!

Super duper long day...like some superwoman already. Really 1001 things to do. Gotta save as much time as I can over the next week and be really productive in my works.

Today was rather fine, just that the pain I had this morning was sucky. I think I spent like my whole day with my group members, I think we've bonded quite much? Lol. Field trip after that was very boring, so like the entire day was just killing time away for school purposes but nothing effective. Hurhur.

Ugh, I hope this is the last time I'm having nightmares 'cause it sucks to wake up exceptionally early and feeling so emo-ish. Ya apparently I know it is 'just a dream' and I shouldn't think of bad stuffs but I also never think -.- Hmph, whatever.

Today had been really tiring, and i hate the weather. I should really get more rest before I fall sick but I don't think I have the chance to :( Sigh, life's so pathetic.

So shiok to sleep for 12 hours, hehe. But felt bad cos I could have used the time to do my school work and study...mmm.

Went for individual field trip with three friends. Weather was so freaking hot! We covered literally the entire marina bay area lol (except sands). Met joo's cousins...cute little boys. Made me feel very young because all my cousins are already working adults, and I know I'm also a very young aunt because I have 5 nieces/nephews in total & sadly only 2 of them my existence -_-"

Going to have to start studying for tests and chiong projects. Always a headache whether to study first or do project first...but I guess now better to do both. Chiongster all the way (Y)

I need 48 hours a day!

Parents are back from Penang! Mum bought back some weird stuff for me though -_-" Don't know to laugh or what.

So anyway, life is getting pretty busy...just kinda dreading internship interviews haha. Need to motivate myself more.

Lol, alot of people say I have the "study-face" when I told them I'm not really the "study-type". Cannot judge book by cover!!! I love to learn la, but I hate exams.

Grrr, so angry just now. So frustrated in the midst of rushing for time. No cabs, then had to take the train, then some stupid lady driver drove the wrong freaking route, wasted a hell lot of my time. And she still had the cheek to give that sheepish smile -.- I can't be bothered. I think even I know the route better than her a million times. So angry leh...how can afford to make such a careless mistake? Luckily the round back is not THAT long, can you imagine if someone is rushing to school or smth? Tsk, so unprofessional please.

I woke up tired and hungry. I went to school feeling tired and hungry. I went home feeling tired and hungry. Somehow or another I am feeling tired and hungry the entire day. Lol a pig like me feels so weak recently.

Hungry & Tired.

So many things on my mind to do...sigh hope I have enough time to study for all the tests. The problem with poly is that they always start you off with so much project work and at the same time telling you that we have class testsss -.- Miserable school life.

I was so hungry today I could eat a cow. So basically I had a very early dinner, at like 4plus? I bought two big meals back home. I feet like a pig, lol.

Life's busy with projects and reports now, so sian. School's making me very tired everyday.

So sad my beautiful slippers kena scratched by .. :(

Haha, and I have another new fetish now too! Hehe.

You know, sometimes I really don't know how to feel.

Don't know why I'm so tired...zzz.

Singapore...singapore.

My twitter was flooded with everyone's comments about the defeat of Aljunied GRC. Man, I wonder what were the Singaporeans thinking. I think George Yeo is a great man, I respect him with all my heart. Time for them to repent for 5 years!

The WP supporters are all very rowdy....even the ones at the s11 opposite my place shouted so lout, even louder than watching a soccer match or world cup -.- I think after this season alot of students would go for studies in politics, haha.

But other than that, PAP still manage to secure the rest, though votes are just a little bit higher. This better be a wake up call for them too! How interesting was this year's election...for a moment there was some sort of Singapore-involvement and identity. Lol.

"Time passes. Memories fade. Feelings change. People leave. But hearts never forget."

Projects are starting, getting busy busy. Gonna dread the weekend man...so many things to do and monday is a sian day because I have school while other people don't, zzz.

"When we are into our career, we often tend to put aside our personal life." Apel lessons are boring, teachers are just telling us the "default" approach in life and education. So sick of hearing all those stuff. Maybe because I'm just not interested bah.

I wonder who will win tmr...I hope PAP won't lose if not I'll be quite disappointed :( Mum was telling me all about the past stuffs and how irritated she got when she heard opposition supporters getting other people to vote as well. My five years of future down the road will depend on tommorrow! Lol.

This SIP thing is getting all over my mind now, because we have very kiasu people around in my course -.-" But anyway, I hope I can still get a place before someone else takes it! Am still yet to let sip comm to vet. So troublesome man, internship.

School's pretty settled and up running, time to kick-off with projects and all the craps. I am motivating myself because in one months' time would be the break! Hehe, how awesome. Although end sem would be crazy but the present is more important now, haha!

Polling Day in two days! Excited or what.

Still very tired even though I slept early last night, sigh. This always happens when school is ongoing. Believe it or not but during introduction today in class I actually said I am sick of studying already, lol. SIP Companies lists are out, headache thinking of where to intern because nothing there interests me :( But bo bian, have to do it for twenty weeks...sian.

Gosh, so tiring.

One tutorial and two lectures really can kill. School's normal, nothing interesting. Tell you a secret, I can't wait for mid sem break to arrive! :)

Half day gone when I woke up today, totally nuaness. I think I can't really do without something to do.

Just saw nicole's rally...hmm i must say she is really very bold man. This election is going to be very very competitive...one of its kind. I wonder who will singaporeans vote for, 'cause it seemed like nsp has quite a number of supporters as well. And anyway i don't think this issue would come to an end so soon even if the final results are out. Feels like some kinda revolution going on lol. Hmm....what will be the future of Singapore?

Neutralised.

Whichever way that makes you feel better - like not taking things personally. Tell yourself, "don't matter."

Service today was somewhat different...conviction caught hold of me. Sigh, that battle between the flesh and spirit. That makes humanity a torment.

Gonna finish up what I have to do for CC project really soon, 'cause I don't really want anything to clash with my school work and stuffs. Glad that I'm almost done with the 2 videos, even more glad that the main comm loved my first video :)

I'm starting on my "eat-lesser" plan now, hahaha. Hopefully I don't feel fat soon!

Another day of rest tmr before reality resumes.

May's Resolutions:

1. Do well for school work

2. Eat lesser

3. Finish my part for cc project

4. Start on projects

I still think this is better :)

This is reality.

Anyway, was just thinking about what he told me again. Haha, that was so epic. To be honest, I have only 1 serious crush on someone before when I was 17. Crushes are totally not the thing for me man. But whatever it is, I think he guessed that way due to some crappy reasons. Ha, I'm like already so normal until the optimum already please. Don't like people who say things like that actually...but whatever, I'm not bothered le, bleh.

Gonna use the weekend to do as much school work as possible. Sometimes it's just better not to care so much, being more work-minded and head-driven. Byebye!

Apel lesson is just lame man. Week 1 of school is like no school like that lol.

I must say, it's quite a pity when misunderstandings happen. And it just sucks when people think otherwise of you. Oh well.

So many changes today also...hmm shall settle down to school mode soon!

Long day at work, I feel like I've not really started to go back school actually haha. But well, this is like the last "course-day" for me alr I guess.

So tired ah. Dreading the stupid pre sip launch talk tmr night in school -.-

Sua!

Hate this hypocritical environment. Once not enough, now come again. In the first place don't promise if you can't assure it. Empty words only, you think very nice is it? -.-

But whatever, not like as if i can't do without. It's just bobian must go according to the rules. Doesn't matter what or who comes my way anymore, just have to get through it eventually.

Selfish people are just not worth your time and energy.

Nothing different.

So last night, my back tooth was hurting(I suspect it's the wisdom tooth), so I kinda freaked out 'cause I hate the dentist, I hate plucking out my teeth and whatever else that is related. So I was feeling very sian over it during dinner. But the pain was gone today, I hope it doesn't ever come back again.

Managed to read some of the projects for this sem and the individual assessments. Very "year 3" haha, madness luh totally. Gonna be a very busy and stressful time I guess.

Fred's cat is so nua and fluffy, haha so amusing to see his angry face.

Yes, finally back to my own lovely bed! Haven't been sleeping that well I guess.

School just started and I'm not really settled down yet. But I'm gonna be a chiongster this sem! No need to care how others look at me as long as work is done lol.

First day of Year 3.

I think I'm more tired than anyone else. Physically and mentally.

My first day of school was like a joke man, seriously. Cannot describe any better. I think my class are with all the very studious and hardworking people (like me lol :P) Just that the guys are abit more cheeky, that's all. But doesn't matter 'cause anyway I'm not really gonna "make friends" or anything of that sort.

First I had a time of listening to my tutor who had a cheena slang. Then had a lecturer who is so amusing and with her malaysian accent. My ears had a tiring day man. Don't know why some people are excited about school, or rather the start of school. Nothing interesting to me leh.

Poly life is simply hypocritical, in every way. I've come to encounter too many times of the selfishness of people and its related stuffs. People depend on what they see only- sight-driven. Oh well, I won't speak about it too much here. Anyway I'm not really affected, more of just disgusted with how things are appearing to be.

It may not be a very smooth-sailing semester (not being pessimistic, just being not too-overconfident), but I guess we just have to get over with it. Last year already so could just better off with it as soon as possible. I'm fine with what I'm doing. I don't need to "belong" as long as I'm happy. Perhaps it was because of the scarred past but I guess I just don't wanna commit to any form of "expectations" from the social network.

Week 1 is awesome, I have 3 days off the week! Haha!

Yawn, feeling very tired. Had been having this headache for the whole day; I think it's either due to not enough sleep or too-cold environment :( But nevertheless still had an eventful day. Had breakfast with HJ, I feel so paiseh sometimes 'cause I eat so slow, ahhh. Travelled around town to find a gift after church with a few of them (long journey) but finally found something :)

School is starting tomorrow!!! Sian to the max. Totally not excited at all. I think I might get doubly tired than usual...hmm but it's fine I guess, i am nu qiang ren lol.

Rotted my weekend away.

I'm going to lose weight when school starts. I think over the holidays I have been eating quite alot lol. I feel fat lehhhhh.

Anyway, random but I feel that big sized people are usually quite funny. Whether is it amusingly funny, irritably funny or naturally funny. They're mostly just funny, haha.

Still feeling the blues over the starting of school though, boohoo. I think I've never felt excited about school before, lol. Oh, primary school have.

Timetable was out yesterday, I think it is still not that bad as compared to all the timetables I had so far. So technically speaking year 3 is not that jialat I assume? Haha.

Met up with the two ladies last night for dinner, I think I sounded pessimistic to them. Haha! Nawwww, not pessimistic, it's called moving on and tired of it :) No point.

Hiii, I love myself so much for being sucha hardworking soul last night in finishing up mountain works! Hehe. Although I was feeling kinda zombieish today but still proud of myself.

My dad couldn't understand what I was trying to say today until the point I just decided to speak canto instead. Then they started laughing at me over and over -.- Not funny right. So anyway, my parents were still trying to console me over the fact that I wasn't happy about my mum's friends coming to singapore for a holiday and gonna stay in my room. Yeah I am selfish about such things but too bad lor, I am possessive over my stuffs. I tell you, if they gonna complain or whatever, then they are better off alone man. I don't like rich people who are stucked up.

I love it when it rains and I can snuggle in bed :D

One of those days I dread.

I guess it's better sometimes to harden feelings like I used to, and maybe not so heart-driven.

Oh well, my day was just draining, tiring and what not. I'm too sian to think and care about anything already.

Classes are out, and I have no freaking friend whom I really know so I guess it's another semester of no life AGAIN, just like sem 2.1. This time I'm not gonna try to make the effort 'cause I've lost that faith and trust. I'm always the one taking initiatives and making the efforts. Always. I'm tired of investing into something which I ended up feeling cheated of. Really.

Maybe I'm not easy to understand...but i think...might as well understand others instead.

Heavy eyes :(

Time to prepare for school once again, sian.

Too much chicken today, must stop chickening already!

I went back to CC3 today to do videoing with the p2 class. Saw the teachers there and they were glad to see me! Haha, so much for working with them for the last year, very heartwarming to be "back" there again. Saw a p4 playing the drums in children's church also, so impressed! So anyway, filming with the p2 wasn't complete due to shortage of time but I'll just try to work with what I have bah.

Last week left to go before year 3 starts! Time flies.

Mad day of rushing everywhere.

Home > Bishan > Funan > Sunshine > Bishan > Church > Serangoon > Home.

So tired by now.

Lesson was fine, but I thought it could be better. Maybe too long didn't teach alr, hahaha.

No time to blog! Byebye!

Stony and sian. Wait and wait and wait was my day.

Had a haircut, feels different now although it looks about the same. Actually I don't like haircuts, it makes me feels very edgy sometimes but no choice :( And my hairdresser kena scolded by a customer because of me, sigh feels so bad.

Someone idiotic made me rushed my lunch but in the end put airplane -.- Grr, no sense of responsibility one such adults.

Someone mean kept bullying and teasing me also! Urgh -.-

Long day tmr too, I hope it doesn't rain!

As much as I can I'll try not to dread internship coming in August. & Faster get over with life in school! Lol...nobody really cares about you in poly one, like seriously.

-

Tired everyday! Actually sometimes I think I very no life and very boring. But whatever lah, I love it. At least I do meaningful and purposeful stuffs. I think I totally don't belong to the youth circle, lol. I don't really do what youths normally and commonly would do...I don't look for boyfriends, I don't hang out late and go drink and club, I don't go watch movies with friends all the time and do shopping, I don't go to the ktv lounge to sing anymore after sec, I don't engage myself in sports, I don't go after the media crazily- in fact I don't even know what's up with all the artists and celebrities, I don't know man...lol.

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Feel like eating ice creams.

Bad dreams start your day in a not so nice manner and affects your morning :(

-

Feel like eating cakes!!!

Can't imagine when school starts and I'm gonna be so distant from work T_T

Glad that I managed to finish most of the stuffs that I was supposed to do...like church related stuffs. Now left with the event project in church.

Also, feeling glad to have a friend back too! Although I'm quite sensitive to friendships now but having back a good old friend is still good anyway.

Accept, Give in, Live it. What's new.

Fucked up day.

1. Deprived of sleep 2. Frustrated with haircut appt 3. Quarreled with mum 4. Being rushed unreasonably 5. Rushing for time 6. Irritated by internet connection which is not working

Very sian, Very no mood.

7. Kena from someone bushuang 8. Felt very horrible when I met J 9. Felt bad for 'neglecting' her over lunch 'cause I was too into myself 10. No appetite

Totally feeling down and lousy.

-

I don't like moments when I have to cheer myself up. Who does? But sometimes...well maybe it's better. Sucks big time when you were looking forward to a day but it got screwed up.

-

Tommorrow would be better bah. Sigh sian.

Yesterday was a long & not-so-good day? Feeling tired and all plus was feeling very irritated by some things...rushy day and didn't feel good anyway either. But at least everything that was supposed to do and carry out was done, so that balances off quite abit.

What actually made my day better was that I passed my sup! :) Although I knew I would but still feels good to know the confirmed. So yup, two more weeks for me to "enjoy" haha.

Dinner with the usuals was good I guess, just that the waiting and delaying kinda "wasted" some time away. Don't know how often can we meet up like these next time but it's always good to always remain like that :)

Thank God It's Friday today! I hope I survive the day 'cause I slept for only 6 hours(horrible input), and my output for the day is 16hours! Gasp.

Sometimes it's just freaking better to do things on your own than to entrust it to others.

SERIOUSLY.

Busy, busy, very busy!

Don't like people whom despite of my good intentions and niceness, don't appreciate it and worse still take my words like nothing -.- Although you have more authority but doesn't mean what comes from me is insignificant to even take note. Disgusting.

& I also can't stand it when you want to cross the road, but the car infront is taking their own freaking sweet time to drive until the car behind is fast enough to catch up, and then you can't cross the bloody road -.- Annoying right?!?!? And worse when irritating cabs slow down soooo much 'cause they thought you gonna take a cab...zzz...hello, I would flag if I want to mah, ugh -.-

No idea when is the sup results coming out, hopefully soon 'cause school's starting in about twenty days too. Wonder who are my classmates this time.

I have a new fetish now, hehehehe!

Thumbs up for Edutorque! Another good kickstart for the course :) Sigh, very reluctant to leave what I'm doing now when school starts. I don't like the feeling of somebody else taking over my place and do what I have already did and stuffs, boohoo.

Actually I think I do have alot of "only-child" traits, lol. The only-want-it-to-be-me thing and those selectively-selfish habits. Hmm.

Well anyway, gonna be a fruitful and eventful week ahead! (Y)

Happy Birthday to my cousin! :) Got her a surprise cake and went for dinner, nothing magnificent but something significant. Life did get better with her around :)

Gonna be a busy week ahead with work! Jiayou jiayou~

Anywhere but home.

I'm so busy now till I go to other places more often than my own house -_-" First my workplace, and now my church, lol.

So tempted to have my own car after hanging out with Audrey and with her driving me around, hahaha. But need to know how to drive first (zzzzz) and $$$$$. COE just turns everyone off. Hope there'd be some economic crisis during the period when I wanna get one, haha!

April Resolutions:

1. Get a printer

2. Get a haircut

3. Complete important work

4. Cell worship

5. CC lesson

6. Cousin's birthday

7. Prepare for year 3!