and im so in love with the song 专属天使 sang by tank.

damn it.
my com's infected -.-
this morning it says it has got infected, and stuffs.
sigh, you see, it always gets spoils or wrong when exam are coming.
is this meant to be ? lol how dumb loh.
so ive like have so much difficulty to even function my com.
and i'll go like damn depressed if my songs are gone,
if ever i had to reformat or whatever. zzz.
school's okay today, just that i got damn tired during last two periods.
3 more days to common test.
yea how fast can tat be man.
my mom was like screaming at me for not studying.
lol, shes always like that. so i just kept quiet and gave her the "sian' look.
ha, oh well. i always go last minute studying.
maybe gotta change abit this year onwards. hopefully. =\
and teacher's damn siao to give us two cao xie on two chinese chpts.
like wtf lor. write until hand can break leh -.-
upper sec teachers are getting so ridiculous nowadays.


i realise we actually has got alot in common.
we have the same thinking, only that its towards different people.
the link seem so near, but maybe it can never match.

scolding day for our class today. haa. but we dun really care.
morning our class didnt take newspapers, and whole school only us.
then like kodi was giving us the "damn it" look.
scolded us at the parade square and stuffs.
i thought mr noel koh was gonna scold also, but he was having sore throat.
haa, head of EL department. very cool. i like his voice. man, his slang rocks sia. lol
anyway, ms nai also scolded luh. so its like a continuous thing.
i failed my bio test by one mark ! holy crap. kinda sad loh. =\
alright, den back to english lesson, two periods of scolding from her again.
she was like shouting and nearly screamed. 0_o
she scolded quite a number of people, and when she took her bag,
i thought she was going to leave the class, but she stopped and scold again.
zzzz, and that lasted like so long, with her fierce face with all the chim words.
we all looked damn innocent la, until the bell rang, and she walked out of the class,
den after 3 sec immediately everyone got up and its like as if nth happened and went for recess.
LOL damn funny loh. wad a class.
and i think theres sth really very wrong with her. =\
den after that ms nai scolded again. lol ? kodi's sucha complain teacher.
so the week started off quite strangely luh.
and ive got like no time cos things are very packed this week and next week.
and i also have no time to even tell you ___.
maybe midyear bah. i dont know. or maybe never.
no time to think of this, cos theres not even any rush in letting you know,
since i know theres gonna be like nothing to you.

25. Least favorite place to be?
classroom.
26. Where would you like to go?
there.
27. Do you own slippers?
yes ? lol
28. What shirt are you wearing?
uniform.
30. Favorite color(s)?
black :D and white
31. Would you be a pirate?
lol siao.
32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink?
dun drink.
33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
dun sing.
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
lol duno leh. sth under my bed ? 0_o
35. What's in your pockets right now?
nothing -.-
36. Last thing that made you laugh?
cant rmb. did too much thinking.
37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
none. cos all i dun like one. lol!
38. Worst injury you've ever had?
a dumb long stretch of injury when i was p1.
40. How many TVs do you have?
2
41. Who is your loudest friend?
jia xin , niko . lol
42. Who is your most silent friend?
HUILIAN !
43. Does someone have a crush on you?
dunno lah.
44. Do you wish on shooting stars?
if ever i see one, yea. lol why not right ?
45. What is your favorite book?
pd.
46. What is your favorite candy?
m&m`s ! :D
47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
forever love :D
48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
uh. too young to think of this =x
49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
sleeping
50. What was the First thing you thought of when you woke up?
what day is today.

1. How tall are you barefoot?
160cm
2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
n0 ?
3. Do you own a gun?
nah. im not a policewoman -.-
4. Who's your best friend?
mandy and ruby :D
5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"?
nah. ive been always a guai student ! just tat my mom will nag
6. What do you think of hot dogs?
i used to like them when im young
7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
last christmas counted ? lol
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
milo
9. Can you do push ups?
yeah, but not very good at it. lol
10. Is your bathroom clean?
yeah although i dun clean it.
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
dun really use jewelry.
12. Do you like painkillers?
nah.
13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
... how i know.
14. Do you own a knife?
nah, but i got one in my drawer, dunno why also.
15. Do you have A.D.D.?
??!
16. Middle Name?
leung ? lol supposedly.
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
- im tired.
- sian.
- dunno wad im thinking about also
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought:
- watch
- sushi
- dunno liao.
19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
- water
- milo
- dunno liao.
20. What time did you wake up today?
just woke up -.- 5.45am
22. Current worry?
..... that.
23. Current hate?
dunno.
24. Favorite place to be?
cq.

happy birthday jingkai. :\

went to church today as usual.
it was kinda weird cos no one is standing in the mrt and im the only one.
lol, well but whatever. dun feel like sitting mah.
and so on so on. was kinda boring.
after that went to plaza. wanted to buy that guy one,
but thinking of it if other people buy me will have more value.
lol, so dropped the idea. went to buy food home to eat.
oh yea, and i went to buy a watch :D
for once theres no love shape in my watch. HA.
and i feel so bad bumping into a one year old kid.
i didnt notice wads infront of me, den suddenly i heard a sound.
den i look down, and he fell flat on the ground. omg.
i was so stunned until i froze, den said sorry luh.
felt so bad lahs ! haiyerr. and the grandma behind just lidat carry him away -.-
but well, go home time was raining and didnt got any umbrella.
yeah so got a lil wet luh. saw tat fu and people playing soccer.
0.o ? playing soccer on a rainy day ? lol.
feeling very tired lah. like almost half dead.
maths hw not done at all loh. how sad.
i dunno how to do anything sia. i should really start to worry now.
hurhurr. gotta start studying this week.

sian. i wanted to go out today =(
but in the end decided not to go.
so stayed at home whole day dunno doing what also.
from morning till now been staring at the maths hw.
lol i dunno how to do lah! help. =\
common test is like one more week.
pathetic, gotta start mugging liao.
my dad was very angry cos he went out buying breakfast for like one hour.
LOL and he came back scolding and all.
i was sleeping lah, but woke up by his voice -.-
i have like alot of things to buy, but no time to go out.
how sad. maybe i take this time to save up more and more :D

i dun wana go on anymore.
say so much also no use one.
cos i really dunno how to deal with this already.
let nature take its course bah.
let it pass as each day goes, perhaps things will be solved by then.
i hope one day you will understand how i really feel all these while.
and i wish this will come to an end, soon.
if only changes can be changed back.

i feel that im always wasting away my saturday doing nothing.

1) wht is your form teacher's full name?
ms nai chheu yee
2) ever been late for school?
yeah.
3) late for how many times?
once. during p5.
4) ever been punished?
of course luh. im naughty during primary 1-4. xD
6) detentions?
nah.
7) did anything to shame yourself ?
uh, no idea.
8) what is/was your principal's name?
mrs feng moh cheng -.-
9) do you always hand in your homeworks?
yea. but mostly is copied one.
10) ever been counselled in school?
nah. watse my time. lol!
11) my attitude towards some teachers
dun really give a damn actually.
12) did you top your whole class?
ha. chinese papers only luh -.-
13) what do you like in your classroom?
nothing. =\
14) what is the punishment for late comers?
detention
15) how is the food in the canteen?
so so loh.
16) what do you always buy in the canteen?
stall 8.
17) any CCAs you took part in?
computer club from pri sch to IT club in sec sch and to infocomm in upper sec.
18) how was ur CCA?
how good can it be ?
19) regret anything about ur CCA?
dun really care lah. go for the sake of going.
20) what do you miss the most?
the days.

saw wayne at the school gate there this morning.
lol was worried about how to pass him the paper,
but since we met each other at the gate then its fine.
hes so funny la, he was looking at me until i notice him -.-
den he was like grabbing his pants, like so afraid to ask me for it.
lol damn funny la, so i asked whether to give him or not.
den he looked so relieved. lol what a guy. but anw i think now he became a nicer boy.

i forgot to take physics books today 0_o
first time so blur.
luckily changwei quite good, if not gotta write tamil article. lol.
mr hou like 3 days nvr come school teach chinese liao.
dunno what happened to him sia.
well today ss test damn difficult loh.
i was like writing craps cos school's ending soon and all. haha.
oh yea. the canteen's food increased by a few cents.
so dumb lor. got so many coins.
maybe i shall consider not to eat anymore.
cos i have like a long list of things i wanna buy.
after school went to pei mandy go take pic for passport.
and i mistaken someone for my mom. LOL.
its kinda dumb la, cos its like the difference is so much. haha.
okay wadever. i love fridays :D

drifted ; the change ; you.

thank god i passed my geog test.
although it kinda suck. ha.
and also thank god that francis nvr come,
so theres no pe today! :D
ms nai told us that shes not gonna teach us anymore from mon onwards.
like how sad can tat be.
and she looked so sad. everyone's complaining.
if its ms kang my life's gonna be dead.
ms kodi so what one lor.
spelling i wrote american and british one she dun accept.
wad the heck man. -.-
oh yes. i went home damn early to sleep today.
slept like very late last night.
my mom was like so shock or something,
like as if im so weary out like tat.
but well, i really am lah. lol.

i wonder do you ever notice whats happening all along?
theres alot of things going around recently, and you seem cant to feel it.
so i can just remain silent.
theres something so wrong between our communication.
im so tired and sick of this.
if you cant even understand me, then you know, theres gonna be a gap existing.
i dont know whats wrong. perhaps you've changed.
the presence of closeness's drifting away.
we feel the same way. we dont say cos im totally speechless to this.
life sucks with this going on.

me : ms nai, ms kodi say you can always choose. dont go leh.
ms nai : ha. in life, not everything is up to you to choose one.

10 rounds of running seriously suck.
sometimes i really pity guys.
gotta run like twice as fast as me. oh how sad.
and too bad our teacher is a sexist. -.-"
guys are like so tortured by him. pathetic hur.
alright whatever.
didnt know had a bio test today.
yeah, gotta try my luck luh. and i dunno wad the heck is plasmolysed cell 0_o
and still got no hook on dumb logarithms.
yea. how sickening can it be, although im trying hard to be like so serious.
after school went for dumb cca.
yeah was rather boring luh.
and today was a very luan day -.-

and ive got no idea on WHY so MANY people come asking me the SAME question.
inside school outside school everywhere also.
today got like 3-4 ppl ask me ?!
and last few days one already like so cham.
and recently got some rumours assumed by some people.
and then today got 2 more pop out asking me same thing.
hello ? since when did i say ANYTHING ? lol.
ha. alright i didnt know such thing was so interesting -.-
okay nvm.
i wont tell lah. eventually this thing will end anyway right ?
so wads the big deal?

happy birthday xie zhi !!! :D
you rock man.
stay cool and shuai ! xD
love yaaa <33s

alright. went out with mandy,charmaine and charlene today.
to celebrate charmaine's birthday.
we went to vivo and watched movie.
the epic movie so sick sia. lol?
okay whatever. me and mandy went running the whole vivo,
lol just to get her a cake as a surprise and stuffs.
it was like damn tiring luh, cos we were trying not to see them and things like tat,
and the damn wind was so strong, cant manage to lit up the candles.
den still must avoid here avoid there. lol.
but afterall its quite fun lah. HA.
just tat the cake's a lil gross bcos it melted and all.
hahaha. but anyway, happy advanced birthday charmaine (:
oh yes. and i bought a lil pig for her.
then after movie went to hougang mall.
yeap, and i went home first. hurhur.
but in any ways, was quite fun today lahs. hah.

tmr's back to school again.
how boring can it be. i havent paid phy tys yet.
and havent collected em tys money also.
ms nai's gonna scold me for sure. sian.


somehow i realised you affect my mood and emotions.
oh damn it. how deep can this affection be?

went out with my family today.
we went to take the sentosa express :D its quite cool though, but i think its quite slow =x
my dad went to queue up for like 30mins?
lol cos got alot of ppl, and everyone's queuing up for the tickets.
alright but anyway we got onto the express and reached sentosa luh.
my mom was wanting to visit the sentosa flower 2007 thing.
yeah, and she was so glad when she saw the flowers. lmao.
oh yeah, and we took a picture there. =\
and later went around sentosa loh. nothing much really,
cos the weather's damn hot and my mom was like wanting to see the beach,
and when we got there she say theres nothing there. -_-
oh. and my dad bought me ice cream from ben and jerry :D
then somehow we got back to vivo and went to marina.
yeah, we went to pizza hut :D
it was kinda pathetic cos im the one eating and my mom was busy drinking lots of water cos shes coughing badly and my dad was there drinking a cup of coffee. -.-
afterall its not bad lah, just tat my parents dun like eating western stuffs.
but for the sake of me, they still pei me go lah. hahas xD
so after that went to the river hongbao, near the esplanade.
wanted to find the zodiac thingy but couldnt find it. so too bad luh.
and my mom went to the tree thingy. supposed to use a coin and aim at the bell below a card which got some new year wordings.
my mom took out a 50cent and aimed at the "da ji da li" sign.
ha, and it went "ding" so loud and clear that the ppl around her go "waaaah" -.-
alright. but i must say, my mom's good at that.
yeah, and we went home.
one thing good about going with family is that i get to eat what i want.
lol and thats all.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :D

to all my friends and family,
wishing everyone a very blessed and happy new year (:
thanks fick,wilson,deborah,evangeline and eric for your messages.
especially fick lah, send so many. lol but very nice messages lah.

today was super boring luh.
my mom didnt want to go out, so no choice stayed at home.
i was like very tired today lah, cos last night slept quite late,
but luckily justin msg me and we talked through the night. lol.
den until he buay tahan liao den we went to sleep.
but still, its after 12am luh. so was feeling very tired today morning.
then in the afternoon i went to sleep, cos i got nothing to do.
wanted to do homework one, but then dont feel like doing =x
slept for around 2 hours and i thought i heard xie zhi's voice from the living room.
so i went out and to my surprise i saw him on the tv !!!! LOL.
yeah, it started at 3pm, and i woke up at 3pm.
gees, not bad huhs :D yeah, so it kinda brighten up my day.

tmr if im NOT wrong im going to sentosa -.-
and im gonna have my PIZZA :D :D :D
but hopefully got open lah.
and i think we're going to the esplanade there after that.
man, i miss that place. heard that clarke quay is opening a new mall.
yeah, i miss that place more. lol.

Happy Birthday QingYang!
hope you wont be like so depressed over girls.
and stop being a dumb flirt anymore. =x
and dont be so vain for god's sake!
i wont forget you stole me mirror away. lol.
and thanks for the irritating times when you were sitting infront of me.
and those days when you bully me -.-
ha, and lastly, grow up ! LOL.
kay lah, but still, happy happy birthday to you (:

chinese new year eve!
wooot.
from 1pm to 5pm im gonna stay infront of my tv,
cos xie zhi will be on tv ! :D
hahaha. at least theres something i can do today.
my mom was super talkative today, for dunno wadever reason,
and my dad and i were just nodding our heads.
ha, very amusing.

today - staying at home watch tv.
tmr - new year! get angbaos and do homework and watch tv. =\
mon - going out with family.
tues - going out with friends.
this year chinese new year is so pathetic man.

im so scared of priya -.-
damn it. she always look for me for nothing,
and is always looking at me like wtf.
ruby said she likes me, and laughed the whole period.
zzz?! hello? freaking butch. i dont believe luh.
i think shes just trying to get attention,
and almost everyone hates her for her attitude.
esp anchal, was rumoured tat shes trying to be like her.
so far she hasnt gave me attitude, cos i cant be bothered with her =\

cny celebration was so bored can.
nothing interesting at all.
after that went back to yangzheng with mandy.
saw mr chua! haaaa. after like 2 years? cos last year i didnt went back.
saw alot of people. really changed alot.
chua said i look so different already.
of course luh. im not that "small" anymore -_-
and his hair dropped a whole lot i realised. =x
haha, but oh well, thats that lah.
finally its holiday! woooo. feeling so happy. :D
tmr's cny eve. must enjoy myself before i go back to hellgate.

homework for the days:
1. physics plot graph.
2. english newspaper article and summary.
good heavens theres no maths :D

today's total defence day.
and ruby didnt come to school -_-
last year also lidat, this year also lidat.
cos she overslept. diao.
yeah. was damn quiet today, and also bcos of some things lar.
early in the morning my mood was sorta spoilt.
tats why was like keeping to myself to the whole day.
but well, i was pretty okay after a while luh.
so actually im quite good at comforting myself hurr. ha.
for once im so glad during PE.
cos theres no running :D hahaha.
recess i went to the toilet and msg-ed ruby.
lol luckily i went to the one which has got hardly anyone.
if not people will think im crazy, stay inside there for so long 0.o
they had the biscuits and water for recess.
its so dumb loh. i didnt take it lah, cos i wont eat it anyway.
ms kodi know my name already ! oh my god.
all thanks to the journal. =\
i wrote quite alot, and she was asking why i like snoopy, why i find school boring and stuffs.
lol, if i feel like replying her then i reply luh.
and i bet im gonna be damn scared of her for the rest of my english lessons in school.
amaths suck luh. wad log thingy. logs sucks man.
i dun even get a shit of it. sian luh!

i was thinking of alot of things today in class.
and i rmb last time wad me and ruby used to do, and our dumb jokes.
and all of my past too..
haha. nice memories. how i wish i can have more of them, even until now. =\
blaah. just a thinking of mine.
my mom put the rose i got yesterday into her flower vase -.-
i thought it had gone missing loh. wth.


i still cant sort out my feelings.
afterall its still back to the origin isnt it.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY ! <3
may all couples on earth are blissful together.
especially my parents, xie zhi and xiao qin, and westlife!
hahah. :D

its pretty dumb tat i cant upload the pictures up here.
but well, its okay luh.
what i got for this year's valentine's day :
- necklace and cookies
- candies from alot of people, ferrero and m&ms.
- red rose, red heart shaped balloon
- angbao with sweet note inside
ha. although all are not from the one i wished it was,
but still, theyre all very sweet (:
after school pei ruby go mjr go meet alton and jiani.
if i'd known adrain is going with jiani i wont go liao lohs.
zzz ? yeah, so its like, wasted me and mandy's 3 hours.
cos we weren't talking to them, cos they're busy talking among themselevs.
so we talked to each other lo. =\
anyway we went to plaza. and ate pizza hut.
although didnt eat pizza, cos im eating it with my family :D
so ate pasta. me and mandy were having "silent communication"
cos we feel damn extra there lah.
then we walked around and went home loh.
came back serangoon and went to tiamo.
had cakes and shared drink. lol quite ex though, but v.day mah, nvm lorhs.
ah i saw sherman in the mrt today. he was calling me and said,
" look to your left." and the next moment i saw him. LOL.
ha.alright whatever. what a day.

tommorow's valentine's day.
and everyone around me like so excited about it.
yeah. like as if everyone's got a valentine. laughs.
okay but anyway, at least this year i got a few people who asked me out!
hahaha. but still, im going out with my girl-friends. -.-
hopefully tmr got no cca, cos its sports hearts day.
but even if there is, too bad lah. =x
pon once in a half year doesnt matter larh. lol!

i still cant make up my mind! arghs.
maybe yes ? maybe no ? i really dont know.
but usually people in this kinda cases are often belong to the yes one right.
oh no. i think im really surrendering this. soon?

i can never sleep at night and wake up at night.
cos my mom had a hard time waking me up.
hahaha, she was like so violent pulling my blankets and all,
but i was like "yeahyeah...im waking up." but in the end woke up after 10 mins.
gosh. im really gonna turn into a pig 0.o
my mom was giving me lots of all kinds of balls during dinner.
had the shock of my life. fishballs,meatballs,pork balls... x_x
i ate till i nearly cant talk properly.
okay i think im crapping. lol cos theres nothing to blog about today!

and im seriously not in any mood to study.
every lesson im like so dead and restless.
and i bet tmr the school's atmosphere will be like so high.
or rather, just mainly my class -_-
lol valentine valentine.
love really rules the world.

how i wish you can make up a part of my day tmr.
or at least, even a greeting from you is enough.

was kinda moody today.
why did i had such a best friend who sees through my heart.
she totally shot me straight in my heart with everything right.
without me even saying a word about it.
sometimes i wonder shes been hypnotized or sth.
why did i ever had such a best friend who knows wad im feeling without even telling her?
man, its pretty scary sometimes.

i got 11/20 for bio. fishhh.
how on earth am i gonna get my mom to sign for crying out loud.
urgh. sickening papers.
its good to have like 2 periods of free period for english.
ha, although we all looked innocent and all.
i think ms kodi's really too sarcastic in every way.
no lessons are better, cos im so not into the mood of studying now,or rather, for the entire week, until friday comes. =\
niko and jiaxin went like super hypo in class.
they can be 100% pure jokers. and im serious!
lol they're c-r-a-z-y.
after school boonping was eating wif us at mac.
dom saw us and thought we were together.
wtf ?! -_-

went for haircut during evening.
i never get satisfied each time i go for haircuts.
from the day i was born until now.
yeah, its like more layered than before. 0.o
and its shorter la duh. but... okay wadever.
its been done, and has to be done sooner or later.

and ive been listening to christian songs since i came home,
instead of listening to love songs and all.
im afraid i might get more emo. ha?
im gonna like suffer for like the rest of the week,
cos im having a f.o.c psychologist who asks me lots of questions and shoot everything tats on my mind and in my heart.
although i dont answer her. lol.

whatever it is, the outcome's gonna be the same.
i cant give definite answers right now. to everything, anything.
im in a very confused state, never had before.
i know i dont, and i wont, but i cant assure that.
okay. shall stop thinking.