On mind, In heart.

Ultimately, who do you truly think of at the end of the day after everything?

i've just finished eating my dinner and i'm having hiccups.
shit, i hate it man, doesn't feel right when you keep *ulp*-ing -.-

and i feel very irritated when my mum speaks nonsense too.
who says assumptions are always correct?
i tell you no means no liao, if you still think yes then yes lor.
i've said my piece and that's it.

was talking to joshua on msn during noon,
me: ya i'm born in penang m'sia
joshua: oh my gf is from m'sia too
me: wah really!
joshua: yeah, m'sians are nicer, sg ladies CMI

and marina sq is superbly cold!
went there to have my supposedly lunch? at 3pm?
ha, then after i went home i had my dinner.
seriously, i am getting fat.

told ruby that during first day of poly she'll see me without a bag,
i'll just bring a pen and my phone and my wallet and my specs. HA.
me: then i'll borrow a piece of paper from you and make friends with you :D
ruby: no go away, you bagless person i'm not your friend -.-
TOTALLY HEARTLESS RIGHT?!
but i love to tease her, no wonder until now she don't really believe things i say cos most of the time i'm just jokingly bluffing her about things. HAHAHA.

jiani likes checkered blouses. haha i don't have any.
but anyway, i saw a nice top at deaigual!
hehe random.

my cash are all flying towards transportation, aw :(
why is the society being so unreasonable to charge adult fares for non working people?
it makes no sense, don't you think so?
oh well.

& first time saw rfriend getting so upset over a friend...
well although i haven't really seen it yet, but i guess such things does happen.
it's either up to her or up to us already.
afterall changes are changes right? you can't prevent them from happening you see.

branden: im so sry about yesterday, didnt know you were sleeping.
me: nvm but hello its midnight of course i'm sleeping?
very strange leh, i think guys sleep very very very late, do they?

'cause for me it's you.

always you & i always do.

it's the last day of march! :)
yeaaaah im so happy it's the end of march.
because seriously, march haven't been really that great at all.

and i guess i'm really in for tourism with ruby already, ha.
so yeah, have a different angle of what i'm going to work towards to now.
hmmmm.

April's Resolutions:
1. prepare lesson for cell
2. orientation days
3. start of poly
4. cell's shirt; cc church event
5. unconfirmed outings/meetups
6. tidy up hair before poly starts
7. make/see qad smile more :)

was very busy today morning,
stressing up and doing the design for my cell's shirt.
cos since i'm free to do so, then i'll just do it.
after april then probably you'll see me being inactive alr. ha!

then after emo-ing over my meigui i decided to nap since i've got nothing to do already.
ruby called over when i was msging her while i was like half asleep.
so eventually went to meet up with half the clique at wheelock.
didn't have intentions of eating but somehow since they count you in then no choice.
had sushi buffet, and each of them got me something for my portion while i was on way. ha!
so didn't do much except for eating?
can't really remember much of our conversation, except the smoking one.
bluffed ruby that i am actually a smoker and she said if i really was she wouldn't treat me as a friend anymore.
and she added even if it's true, mandy would be before me.
HAHAHA HEY GIRL LOOK, you're not guai at all, you believe me now? :D
passed weiqin her supposedly birthday present but end up being not one anymore. ahah.

& that group of people were so interested in redeeming that don't know what voucher,
and they were looking for that dumb counter.
i didn't quite believe in that thing la actually, but well, just walked around until they're satisfied.
and after some time shereen the hero saved the day(buay tahan alr),
i went to enquire and found out that it was only available during fri,sat&sun -.-
see see see?

&i went off first after that.
it sucks to take the transport after 6pm, peak hour.
everyone thinks that size doesn't matter.
and just look at the faces of the people, it's either stress or tiredness written on it.
all of those must be workaholics i guess.



if only conveniency wasn't a problem,
our life would probably be almost so perfect.
don't you think so? :)
a smile to start the day, a smile to end of the day.
that's what makes life better for you from me;
'cause to make you feel whole is what completes me.
feel it :)

sigh, wo de bai se mei gui ar.

wanted to nap but i couldn't get to sleep :(
i think i have nothing to do until my mind is always telling me to sleep sleep sleep now.
sigh, this is bad...must really find things to do already.
left like...almost two weeks to studying?
i guess after that my life will be opposite from now...maybe? maybe.

and guess how i killed time?
i chatted with my mum -.-
i was being so very honest and everything,
you know...in case she had the wrong thoughts of me in things.

although i can't change things for you,

but hope at least i'll make things better for you :)

understanding is a huge concept.
i don't know why but still i'm mighty glad i am one who always does so.
maybe i analyse and think about things more often.
and i'm quite self conscious about myself anyway.
but i guess it's hard to really read me just like that luh.
hurhur.

a very monotone day today.
some ang moh pastor came to preach, and i kinda like words he spoke,
very thought provoking...and makes alot of sense.
but although he wore pink, i still liked his sermon.

evan saw me loitering around at cheers after service,
and she told me i'm breathing in the petrol and it's not good.
ahaha she's still as caring as ever, if one day i get poisoned for too much intake of petrol gas she'd probably be the first the know why...or maybe the second. haha.

sigh i'm hungry...but no appetite.
it sucks to be lazy to go down and buy food sometimes.
but i really don't feel like eating cos i'm very sian of serangoon food lately.
and it's like raining now so that gives another good reason why i don't want to get out.
& naive mum thought i'm going on diet or being thrifty -.-

maybe it's true that i'm attracted to melancholy people,
but still i love to see people smile...but doesn't mean i make everyone smile.
very right, because i don't treat everyone equally...who does anyway?
and perhaps that's the reason for my existence with such people :)
yeah it's you i'm talking about. haha you, yes you.

oh yes, don't you think people who scold others for nothing suck?
yea they suck a whole hell lot of time.

hang in there, you'll get through with it.

& no matter what i'll always be there for you all the way.

sigh didnt sleep well last night.
it was so cold at night and when i woke up it was so warm -.-
and i guess sometimes it's difficult for me to stop suddenly when i start something...
i have high inertia.

oh yes, even best friends can become lovers.
ha? how rare, i've just known one last night.

actually i would prefer not eating than to eat alone sometimes.

pride...pride.
how much pride do guys have?
i've seen alot alot of them...good and the bad.
and how often do you see guys laying down pride because of someone?
i've yet to see someday, haha :)
but well everyone has pride la, its just at different areas and how you portray it.
mhmms.

&yes, the day passed :)

sigh im tired.
i want to sleep.

hohoho i survived today, but i'm feeling very very tired, and i dont know why!

mandy said probably i slept too much, but i still feel very tired :(

maybe it's true that when we have dreams we will wake up feeling tired?

oh well whatever the case...shall sleep more. haha.

anyway i forgot why but i remembered telling mandy "you scared me leh" for some reason,

and then just before that sentence someone accidentally knocked me and that guy thought i said that to him -.-

wth?! mandy was laughing like mad...nuts luh i won't say that kinda thing for goodness sake.

sigh, notebook caught my eye and i felt so depressed for a moment.

very motivated and provoked to get it but cant start with anything to do so -_-

mandy tried stopping me from going in but to no avail.

haha funny moment, and ended up she said i broke her heart cos she saw the ipod she wanted.

hahaha!

i don't think i really speak that softly do i?

why on earth does mandy have difficulty hearing me sometimes -.-

perhaps her earpieces blasted music too loud already.

and it's not soft, just being gentle. haha!

i miss the taste of coffeeeeee, damn i'm gonna have some next week.
and i have a sudden craving for ice cream! gonna have it next week too.

it's qing ming period now and my mum didn't go back penang cos she doesn't like to travel around for only like a few days,
cos it simple makes no sense to her so she asks her sisters to do it instead every year.
cousin is going back and yay, bed is all mine for awhile. WAHAHA.

it's very much often the last words that people end off with affects them the most.
and likewise, it's often the last moments that usually end off or makes someone's day.

i dont know what on earth was i doing the whole day outside today la.
was trying to kill time but apparently with the wrong person. ahah.
i didnt even do anything much and i'm so tired now. maybe due to waking up early i guess.
movied? i thought i was pretty amused by things but apparently i didnt laugh much.
and some annoying lady was sucha loner that she moved away when i sat beside her.
ha? like as if i care, sitting beside me is such an honour please. lol.
i suggested to catch some violent ones but i guess rather not afterall,
not with the right person, heh.
&bestfr was laughing so hard until she leaned on my shoulder o.o
i laughed not at the movie but at her at that moment. haha?

and i didnt realise i could be quite a dao person actually.
well i guess i am like that, especially to strangers...
so if you dont quite know me or dont even do, dont be surprised if im not as friendly.

was talking to bestfr about future stuffs, our plans, what we want to succeed in and all.
we are very different.
she's a typical shopaholic that work for branded goods,
i'm much simpler, i would work for my own desired living life.


very tired, goodnight world!
i'll just survive another tmr.

Hmm² .

ok apparently i'm like having flu in the mornings recently -.-

kinda annoying actually, oh well.

everyone's saying i sound sick,
mum's saying i'm like some hibernating bear locking myself at home playing game all the time,
elroy's saying he envies what i'm doing now -.-
what the heck?!

it's bad to feel too much sometimes, isn't it?

i hate it when my emotional side comes out. sigh damnit.
i live the moment but i cant seem to think for the moment sometimes.
er xin arrr.
oh well, but it's still just like that, so just like that then.
what to do? dui bu dui?

because life isn't fair, you need to have the best and the worst coming together.
overcoming it would result in perfect harmony.
how profound.

ah nevermind, whatever.
haha speechless.

however things may be for you, just know i'm always here with you.

HAHA OMG.

i took some quizzes on facebook,
and results are that:
I love cool and collected people that will make me laugh, I am sanguine and I am typically attracted to melancholies of the opposite sex.

LOL MY GOODNESS.
you see that word melancholies? (laughs)
according to dictionary.com,
1. sadness, dejection, despondency. 2. seriousness. 4. gloomy, despondent, blue, dispirited, sorrowful, dismal, doleful, glum, downcast. 6. serious.

okay right, i strongly believe for mine is applied to serious.
what an entertainment sia.


anyway, was looking at the video on dinali's blog,
omg it's so freaky. feel like pucking after seeing it -.-
a fish still swimming in the tank when its body is being cut to make salmon.
how disgusting can that be?!

a silent soul indeed, it's never wrong.
hahaha.

I guess the best thing I could do is to always stay by you :)

sososomuchsoforso.
expect the unexpected; you get hit big time.
just don't do it again if i really mean something to you.

stronger than anything;

Alvin says:
can afford to treat u
Alvin says:
means quite rich liao
Alvin says:
u eat so much
ﮒhereen Feel my concern. says:
LOL WEIII
ﮒhereen Feel my concern. says:
TREAT ME TO ME MEANS IS QUALITY GOOD FOOD OK


i like food.
i like to eat.
but i'm a picky food eater.
hahaha!


mum: you don't know your daughter has high expectations(of guys) one meh?
dad: ha?
mum: her standards very high one, but don't know why studies not like that.
me: HA.

maybe but maybe not anymore :)

i think i always get previews first before the real thing happens.
i really think so you know.
(omgarrr).

oh my gosh. oh my gosh. oh, my, gosh.

for a moment my heart skipped.
for a moment my pounding head stopped.
for a moment my pain ceased.
for the moment i could hardly breathe.

to think that i could actually respond...
that is so impossible to happen.
so impossible.
& no, you have no idea how i totally felt inside.

it's realer than any horror movie.
i swear.

that's it, that ended my day.
that's so very it.

pictures taken yesterday:

this was outside church; happy birthday judith

huijun always have problems taking pictures. ha!

-

-

anyway as usual it's always not everyone there,

it would maybe be a miracle if we ever have full attendance.

uhh headache now. crap, everywhere in me is not feeling well this morning.

oh yeah last night i was so glad cos i helped my junior to solve an amath qn.

hahaha although initially i really had to take out my notebooks to refer -.-

seriously those stuffs became so alienic to me suddenly.

sigh this is what memory work does to humans after many many months.

no wonder stm is sucha common thing nowadays.