It's so difficult to accept - even though nothing much really changes. The only difference is that now, I am alone facing the same things.

Like a dream, a very beautiful dream.

Everything...gone.

Sigh, so confused.

Sigh, why am I like that.

A fool's confession:

I thought I could be strong but I failed.

Everytime it hits me, it hit me even harder.

I'm too busy taking care of Evo and EduTorque now :')

A little further.

Recently while my dad was in the hospital, alot of things went through my mind. I started thinking further, a little beyond my adulthood. When we grow old and have to face illnesses and even death, how scary and fearful it is. Sigh, and going through it alone is even worse - will anyone take care of me and be there for me if i chose a path that is only on my own?

Not sure of my life anymore too, but I guess...at least I'm happy to be independent as of my status now.

So many things are changing as we grow older, sigh...phases of life.

For now I just wanna focus on what I'm doing and have a clear vision of where I'm heading to in life.

Doubt anyone's reading my blog now since it's so dead lol. Oh well. May be a good thing I guess.

Don't know if it's a good or bad thing but I'm just taking one step at a time now... :\

Being a woman is so tough sometimes.

The silent emptiness.

Sometimes you know it REALLY SUCKS but you are still in it. Dumb or what?

When something don't matter to you anymore, it means you have stopped caring. That's when things start to change. And before you know it, you may just find yourself changing...without you realizing it.

Am I starting to find that I am needing something more of which I cannot have? I think as time passes and life moves longer, the reality becomes closer, what I need becomes greater.

It's depressing to know that I cannot have what I am in need of and want in life. Is anything or anyone making me feel that all that I'm doing is worth? Are all the returns reflected to me what I deserve? What can make me at least a little happier? Who can?

The gap.

It doesn't quite feel good when everyone else has what you don't & cannot have... sigh :(

Physically, mentally and emotionally tiring :(

I think I should close down my blog really soon. IT'S DYING! Lol.

Anyway, life's been mundane - as the norm. Busy with work, and stress stress stress. 

The only exciting thing about my life right now is taking driving lessons, haha!!! 

Not sure if anyone is still reading my emo blog, but i guess some of my random friends still do. Hurhur, nothing new - still very emo lol.

After so much of what i've given and done...this is what i get?

I guess I've been trying really hard but I still do not see and feel it. So now, I will try even harder with the other alternative.

Life's been too busy and too boring for me to blog, hahaha.

The same crossroad.

What do people do when they're sad? Right, chocolates.

Can't believe i'm so foolish yet helpless. Of all kinds of lives I have to be living this one.

How to believe when people just have to break your faith? How to trust when many times people repeatedly do the same thing? How much time must I give to something that will never change?

Right, and not mentioning about being unable to see and realise and appreciate what others have done and given. Does insensitivity and ignorance conquers a true heart?

Is it so difficult to understand someone wholeheartedly?

Why am i still here?

Back from 8 days of overseas trip with yeejoo. Guess it wasn't really the right time as I was working half my time with business calls coming in and things like that. Oh well. Work is never ending for me I guess, even during school holidays, sigh.

Anyway, overseas to Taipei & Hong Kong was O-K, just that my whole face got dried up cos of the VERY cold weather -.- and of course, haven't had a good sleep for quite some time! Haha.

So now's back to work...the thought of "chasing" people is just so demotivating :'( Don't understand why such people are sooo inefficient.

Location now: Taipei.

The happy thing is: I'm out of home.

The saying goes, "What cannot break you makes you stronger".

But somehow in my life, everything that I try to strong about breaks me.