A new throbbing moment experienced - knowing things and facing it are the same, but yet different.

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Hi mind, stop it.

Weekend is here again, but no rest for me as usual.

Right, so the question of the day is, who understands me?

I thought my morning was pretty fine, went to school had breakfast and all. Presentation later on was abit cui due to the interview, so abit sian. And after that the rest of the day just sucked.

Everywhere also stress. At home, at work, at school, whatever you can think of. And ridiculous incidents always happen, and more ridiculously at the wrong timing.

Blisters everywhere now, whole body is so stiff and aching and so damn deprived of sleep. What else can get worse.

Hahaha, Napfa cui!!! Really old liao, cannot run. After 3 years of no exercise, 2.4km cmi! Lol, surprised that my pull up got improve hahaha. But whatever it is, at least that lame stupid napfa test is over. Waste my time only, for the sake of attendance and whatever rules they forced us to.

Preparing to stomach pain, leg pain & whole body pain tmr after napfa test! =\

Exam timetable is out. Haha, time to get stressed and study like siaooo! But for the meantime, rushing projects and clearing presentations and test comes first -.-

Commitments at large.

There are things I don't see, things I don't hear, and things I cannot change. There are things I have to accept, things I have to go with, and things I have to understand. If I have done it before, and I am still doing it, I know I can do so always.

Sometimes I feel like I'm wasting my school fees :\

Life has been really busy and tiring for me, but I guess it's worth all the time i'm inputting and using.

Some people are just so unreliable and only know to talk but no action.

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I hope at the end of the day what I do will be worth it.

One week to napfa, UGRH.

I'm so tired and so so tired. Sometimes it's so hard because when you have constrains it obstructs you from doing what you want to. I think I'm not a good student anymore :\

There is a thin line between being concerned and overdoing it.

Sometimes I'm just so nice, I give so much.

I think I wanna stop blogging soon.

It just takes one person to make or break your day.

People out there are taking time to practise for their lab tests, what am I doing? :\

I guess I really don't look like how I am perceived to be, lol.

This pain in my back jaw is still there, sigh so worrying and sian.

I love myself for being myself, even though sometimes I can't understand myself.

Tests are coming up, especially lab tests = needs practise = die -.-

I guess I'm not really a good school/classmate sometimes.

Oh, ticketing lesson was crappy today. I hope I don't forget the things I learnt today, if not test will die until very pathetic. I think sometimes guys are better than girls in the way that they more willing to teach your peers. Grateful to the three guys who helped me today when I got restless.

So many things to do but so little time!!!

Urgh, what a day.

School work is freaking stress, but nobody really gives a shit.

Firstly we have parents talking about the same old issue over and over again. Secondly we are living in a social circle with competitive people and people who just don't bother to make an effort. Lastly for people like me who is living like some superwoman is still trying to work hard in life.

I'm so tired I could sleep all day :\

Editing is the worst thing anyone could do in a project actually. But ironically if I don't do it I will feel very uneasy so...yeah -_-"

Finally the week has ended! So so tiring for me until eyebags gave birth -.- But well, very fruitful and eventful week I guess...although there are opportunity costs involved. But anyway, I love my work and what I'm doing :)

Finished 1 project, ended off with presentation today. Lol, I thought I did well but I guess a 'group' grade is always not based on individual efforts. So I guess I could just can laugh about it. 3 more projects left and only halfway going. Sigh, school is so boring and stressful and busy.

Eyebags are appearing, oh no :( Maybe in the near future also will like that already lol.

I swear i've never "worked myself" so much before man. For sleeping beauty like me who are getting so minimum sleep is so rare, haha. I guess those days are no longer existing lol.

Hello, my middle name is panda o_o

Haven't finish mice project editing I'm not going to sleep, boohoo.

This week is really going to be madness. I am already and still going to be very lack of sleep, very busy and rushing for time against projects.

As much as I would I'm always trying to give and do the best I can.

"If you don't like the way things are like, change it. If you can't, change the way you think about it."

Not something easy!

Sometimes, nice words doesn't really mean they are good things...? Iono.

Btw, it sucks when you are trying to be nice but the other party on the stupid phone is just being so rude and unfriendly. Tsk, so uncouth. To think that they work under the education sector but still...ugh. Seriously in need of some phone etiquettes.

School has been unlike school this week for me, ha-ha. But ya, I'm still trying very hard to be a good student. Mr Tai was so funny today btw, must share with somebody someday.

July's Resolution:

Balance school life and work life!