Goodbye ms diana.
all of us will miss you.
you're a very nice teacher.
deadlines always extended to two weeks later.
even humans cant extend their death time.

and everyone looked so emo after it started to rain heavily.
and just bcos i laughed when mdm faridah said,
" next time can call your daughter aluminate"
i dunno why its not funny to the whole class.
but i laughed, so she said,
" right shereen, next time can call your daughter aluminate. "
what the hell -.- shes nuts sometimes.

im gonna be like so dumb tmr.
standing in the hall videoing the whole event.
hais, so unwilling lor. with like ruby and me one on each side,
and mandy running all over the place, and tat woman with us also.
argh whatever. its just one hour, shall get over with it.

tmr's 31st aug. 70!!!

i think my writing skills are getting faster.
lol although i dunno if thats good or bad, but at least i can finish up on time.
open-book tests are nice. cos you dont have to kill your brain cells :D

oh well, it seems like the whole school knows about my team getting into semi-finals in cca.
and that woman keeps saying she wants us to get into top 20.
hello? say easy lar mind you.
but if we dont get in, it'd be a disgrace though.
but if we get in, there will be problems like:
1. whole of sept week must go there for training, and its a whole day =(
2. no time to do holiday homework and studying
3. cannot go out
4. cannot sleep more
hais. whatever lar, shall see whether we get into the top 20 on monday or not.
all the best to me and my group bah :)

oh and during the midst of cca...
mr lim: heard that you guys got in huh? *grins*
me: hey how you know?!
mr lim: of course i know lah. whole school know alr *smiles*
me: oh...
mr lim: ya bye(walking out of the door)
me: bye
mr lim: *jiayou hand sign* to himself
LOL he's funny.

happened to have dinner with andre and shirly and mandy.
i keep thinking that shirly ate two pies. lol sorry lah.
and i mistook a whistle as a mp3 player.
gosh, im so blind sometimes.
anywhere i go, at anytime there'll surely be something that links back to you.
i really like your face on your ezlink card lor.
hahaha it can always make me smile :D


You may not be in my sight,
But you are always in my heart.
You may not be in my reach,
But you are always in my mind.


Without words you tell everything.
You know, sometimes a smile of yours is all that matters =)

for ruby:
happy birthday zax.
and you, stop calling me kuaikuai -.-

chem lesson in the dance room 0_o
even theres something wrong with teachers lately.
i guess sooner or later the whole world will turn upside down.
english was freaky. oral is scary.
im afraid i might be stumped during oral exam next week. zzz.
the class photos were out.
okay i think im like the most emo girl there.
somehow my fringe fell and covered half my eye. lol.
whateverrr.

i flunked my amath paper.
im feeling so sad.
its been so long since i failed.
now it comes back again. sigh.
i dont know if im feeling down or its moodswings,
but whatever the case it makes no difference still.

moodswings suck, seriously.


Every cloud has a silver lining:
If you say that every cloud has a silver lining, you mean that every sad or unpleasant situation has a positive side to it. If you talk about silver lining, you are talking about something positive that comes out of a sad or unpleasant situation.

i thought this proverb was quite enlightening.
can something positive comes out of a sad situation to me now,
or maybe in the next two months???


something real funny to recall:
just imagine you go into the staff room,
and you speak into the speaker thing,
and instead of saying "good afternoon teachers"
you accidentally said "good afternoon miss kodi".
hahaha, the whole staff would have heard that.

i dont know whats wrong with today.
or rather this week.
i got a feeling this week's gonna be dreadful.
lol although my prediction aint very true,
but still chances are not zero.

its a very shy thing to have ppl looking at you,
when you're just calling one person.
okay uh, im shereen if they dont know. lol.

saw tawan at j8, i went there to have lunch.
man he looked like as if he "shrinked".
whoa he must have been too stressed out huh.
okay nvm, shouldnt pity him.
hes so wanna see me in his state next year.
so cant show empathy to him. haaa.

went to buy some stuffs.
my precious highlighter died off last night.
how sad, it has been with me since like years already.
and i cant bear to throw it away like that also.
but sad thing is they dont have refills for it.
and what was crappy is that they wrote there " refillable, chargeable."
CHARGEABLE. hello since when highlighters can be charged?!?!!
ahh whatever. it's still in my pencil case.

and it hurts so much,
to have your head being knocked. ouch.
sigh, kangaroo says im down on luck.
nah, ive never been on bad luck anyway.
except for the first week of school jan this year.

oh anyway, big news.
my team for the dumb competition tat my cca have participated,
got into the semi-finals. yeah we actually got in.
oh my god. i didnt know i got such talent. LOL just kidding.
but seriously, nearly whole week of sept holidays are going to be spent going there,
doing the whole project thingy.
man, someone please shoot me.
this is totally crazy, plus some stuffs to attend for cca also.
i think cca would probably spoil my whole sept holidays.
oh well...congrats then. that woman must be so delighted. -.-

another church day.
so during cell lesson, the teaching was on blogging.
man, how coincident huh.
oh well... yeah it sounded abit harsh to me.
anyway it says to blog about what matters. (as in written on the paper)
yes, i always blog about things that i matter. hahaha.
i think almost the whole congregation turned emo today,
cos the sermon was about "too late" and death kinda stuffs.
by right a person lives up to 80 years, so :
1/4 of life you spent on studying,
1/2 of your life to live and find your happiness,
and the last 1/4 of your life feeling free and waste your time doing nothing but wait for death.
oh man, how tragic.

mum: test wad test, holidays are near you still wad test.
me : test lor.
mum : your teachers are crazy.
me : others also having prelims wad.
mum : thats even more crazy.
me : other schools also having prelim and ca2 leh.
mum : really meh?
me : i think youre the one crazy.
sometimes when my mum is in a good mood,
i must say, its pretty scary.


Good Luck for prelim! :)
and i hope you'll do the papers with ease.
if not, i know you'll persevere till the end.

4 more months to x`mas!
lol sounds abit insane, haha.
yeah i know its still long.
oh well. took one whole day to finish up english work.
my speed is like slower than an ant. lol.
boredness. totally.

westlife is recording their next album already!
hahaha so cool :)
if their new album releases at the end of the year,
its gonna such a nice thing for my xmas!
haha, oh im back to xmas again. (oops)

i didnt know that actually alot of people view my blog.
i realised it since yesterday.
oh man.

hope you had a pleasant today.
the only one day before tmr comes.
and just two more days.
perhaps it makes no difference what kind of day is it,
but every single day theres me.
study hard :)

oh im feeling so dead.
i slept for around five hours only. zzz.
finally the long day is over.
i simply just anyhow did physics lah,
first qn alr dunno how to do.
and for once i dropped my calculator. *ouch* sad.
then was having headache. i think when im stressed i'd have a bad headache.
chinese paper was abit difficult.
sadly first qn i also dunno how to do.
if i get a b4 i can go and bang wall.
seriously i dont know wads wrong mr hou nowadays.
yesterday he kept us for like so long and took our time,
then the guys were sent to ms ming office.
today he released us ten minutes earlier,
and the next moment, the whole class were sent to see ms ming.
hello??? we told him its not time yet, he ownself ask us to go one loh.
but it looked damn cool to have one whole class to be outside her office.
lol but still i think we're damn innocent lah.
amath paper killed all my brain cells.
again, first question alr wrong. oh well.
if i ever pass it'll all goes to luck already.
and im still feeling bad that i said so much things yesterday.
hopefully something gets into your head.

just go away and stay away from me can?
i dont wanna be in your life.

anyway,
mika has a very high pitch voice.
i miss someone whos always singing grace kelly. haha.



once im here for you, i'll always be :)

i feel so dead until i dont even have the mood to blog these days.
im going crazy currently.
three tests tmr all at one go. hais.
whatever. i'll just hope i will pass my phy and amath.
chinese will go by luck already.



its not that i dont want to.




im so gonna stay up late to study,
and hopefully something gets into my head.

its not just another ordinary day.


its today :)

a picture paints a thousand words.

points taken for today :
1. sometimes the eye spoils everything.
2. when you talk back at mr francis lim, he shuts up.
3. when you dont want mdm goh to come school tmr, you make her mad today.
4. chem test was not well done by the whole class.
this shows we dont really take pride in our chem.
5. although i looked relax, during eng presentation my voice actually shivered. lol.
6. its hard to call someone when you dont know how to pronounce the name.
7. i cant stand it when robin was presenting. i was totally freaked out by his voice -.-
8. huilian is very nice as in she wanted to give ruby the chocolates during geog.
9. when you're not lucky for that day, means you're not for the whole day.
10. the best way to scare people is to stand behind them and keep quiet.
11. calls that ask you to help them conduct surveys wastes alot of your time.
12. i shall try not to walk pass the foyer every morning anymore.

anchal was trying to strangle me with the school tie today morning.
lol eventually i made her feel like shes looked so foolish,
cos i didnt reacted and gave her a blank face back. haaa. (oops)
i miss mr lim changwei and his physics lesson!!!
i hope he'll teach us next year again.
days with mdm goh can really kill. her moodswings are horrible.
and i dont know why i can still laugh when shes scolding. lol.
so there was no upper sec assembly.
thank goodness time passed kinda fast after recess.
ms nai was talking about dating stuffs for moral education.
oh well, yeah yeah.
after school had some very dumb hongkong english test.
its a waste of time loh seriously,
and how could the people neglected our class.
theres no seats left for our class in the hall, so we went to class 2C.
its super boring lah the paper, i just simply did for the sake of doing.
oh, and for the first time, ms nai called me shereen! :D
and she actually wrote my name on the board lah,
although its spelled wrongly, but still im glad. hahaha!
okay whatever. shouldnt be obsessed over my name anyway.

i feel so dead.
im tired. im tired. im tired. im tired.
my mum said i looked like as if im dying.
lol ive got no energy to do anything.
amath very stress, i dunno how to do. damn.
and i havent study anything, when three tests are coming up on friday.

1. how do you go to school?
by foot.
2. what time do you usually arrive in school?
7 plus ?
3. what school do you go to?
look at my profile.
4. do you live near or far from your school?
not far.
5. how much is your tuition fee?
hundred plus.
6. how much is your monthly allowance?
around hundred.
7. favorite subject/s
used to be lit.
8. favorite teacher:
mr lim chang wei! :D
9. favorite classmate:
dunno, myself. lol
10. favorite spot in school?
how nice can all the spots in school be -.-
11. favorite hang-out after school?
mac.
12. favorite event held in school?
those half-day kinds. lol
14. where do you usually eat?
home.
15. you eat alone or wif friends?
depends loh.
16. crush in skool?
i dont have one and talk about me being crushed.
i alr got enough problems.
17. what do you do during breaktime?
listen to ruby crap.
18. hey!
whatever.
19. what time do you usually go home?
4pm.
20. do you do home alone?
yea.
21. you think schooling is easy?
no ?!
22. do you like ur uniform?
no.
24. what makes ur school beautiful?
nothing.
25. what makes you happy in your school?
friends lah :D

oh anyway,
today is the 7th day of the 7th month in the lunar calendar,
the Chinese Valentine's Day.

yeah.
although its 7th and 7th,
but i prefer 14th feb. lol.
cos im not very into chinese kinda thing.

but still, happy chinese valentines.

roses are red,
violets are blue.
although i didnt tell you,
but i do love you.

no cell today, so woke up late just to go for service.
dad thought what happened to me cos i woke up later then every sundays.
ha, okay so its been long since i took a bus to church.
oh, and i got attacked by a stupid dragonfly in the morning. 0_o

it had been still raining, no wonder my mood hasnt got any better.
i went home super early today, which is a very shocking thing to my mom.
wanted to sleep but mum asked me to go out for dinner.
so went to compasspoint, and asked cousin to go with us along.
had pizza hut for dinner :)
the iced mocha was nice anyway.
both of them didnt really eat, so they sat there and watched me.
in the end cant finish also, takeaway and treat it as supper.
then later bought my snoopy bottle :D
but still very that they dont have black or white,
so my mum said buy blue better, cos the rest suck. lol.
for once i listened to her. i think im too tired to care much alr.
and cousin bought me some chocolates and candy.
can perhaps keep me entertain when im dying from studying.
then went to take a look at cousin's house in sengkang.
i like the houses there, looks nice loh.
reached home kinda late.
and my mom nagged at me for listening to songs all the time.
cant help it, i think i will be like that until nov.
its not a bad thing anyway, is it ?

i gotta learn to multi-task already.
afterall im going 15.
time to have some self-actualization.

another week again.
hope it doesnt rains anymore.

i think match-making is not a very nice thing.
i pity my cousin, everyone's getting her to marry.
like hello? what generation is this already.
this kinda old method doesnt work out anymore.
just leave her alone, she has her own mind of life.

everyone seems to be having some sort of problems.
when nothing happens, nothing happens.
when one thing happens, everything happens.

i dreamt of someone for the whole of 12 hours last night.
time seems to be so long in the dream.
if i can choose, i would rather stay in the dream forever and never wake up.
its just all about you, its so nice compared to the reality now.

i guess the only thing i can look for is saturday.
can sleep for the whole day, and be alone with peace at home,
or go for a walk if im moody, and blast music like theres no tmr.
sometimes being free is not that good either.
cos when you got nothing better to do, your mind runs wild.

things to do to distract yourself :
1. watch tv
2. sleep
3. argue with someone

so far i havent done the last option. lol.


my emotions can go really unstable anytime now.
i dont know how anymore.
the struggle within.
my heart's in disguised.

1)Are you a male or female?
female.
2)What are you doing now?
listening to songs.
3)Pick your favorite number from 1 to 10.
7 :D
4)Who are you talking to on Messengers?
no one. i dun even feel like talking.
5)What did you eat for dinner?
dont intend to eat.
6)What music are you listening to right now?
behind these hazel eyes.
7)Where are you now?
home
8)What do you wanna eat right now?
nothing.
9)Where were you 4 hours ago?
in my room.
10)You wont leave home without?
my phone.
11)Do you have someone you hate?
nah.
12)Does your room have air-con?
nah its gone.
13)When did you last cried?
when watched movie.
14)Whats the the most memorable thing you have in ur room?
all my westlife albums :D
15)Whats the most useful thing in your room?
my pillow :D
16)The most amount of cash you had with you ever is?
no idea.
17)Do you Gamble?
nah.
18)Do you smoke?
never.
19)What chocolate you like?
ferrero and m&m's :D
20)Do you Blog?
its a part of my life.

1. what is your hair color?
black
2. where is your display picture taken?
currently no display pic.
3. what's your middle name?
-
4. what color do you hate most?
orange.
5. does your crush like you back?
i only have crushes last time.
6. what is your current mood?
unstable.
7. what color underwear are you wearing?
-.-
8. what makes you most happy?
dont feel like saying now.
9. look at a picture/poster in your room, who's on it?
westlife :D
10. if you could go back in time and change something, what you would change?
i dont know.
11. if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
puppy ? lol.
12. ever had a near death experience?
nah, im always very safe.
13. something you do a lot?
listen to songs.
14. the song stuck in your head?
jay chou - an jing
15. what is your desktop background?
scenery i took from perth, the beach place.
16. what are you wearing?
clothes duh.
17. when was the last time you cried?
when i watched secret.
18. have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
sec 1 .
19. if you could have one super power what would it be?
to read people's minds.
20. what's the first thing(s) you notice about the opposite sex?
eyes.
21. what do you usually order from Starbucks?
coffee ? lol
22. what's your biggest secret?
secrets are not meant to be told.
23. favorite color(s)?
black
24. is it sunny or raining?
raining =(
25. do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
none, only that one tv show im currently crazy over again.
26. what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
some disgusting things im being forced to eat.
27. do you speak any other language?
chinese? and cantonese(i speak only when i NEED to)
28. what's your favorite smell?
the breeze at the beach
29. if you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
unpredictable.
30. when was the last time you received a hug?
dont feel like answering.
31. have you ever kissed in the rain?
nah.
32. what/who are you thinking about right now?
something.
33. what should you be doing?
be happy.
34. what was the last thing that made you upset/angry?
that thing.
35. how often do you laugh?
daily.
36. do you like working in the yard?
nah.
37. what your fav name?
shereen xD
38. do you act differently around your crush/significant other?
no im still me.
39. name one song that reminds you of an ex?
because of you by kelly clarkson
40. who was the last person to make you cry?
movie counted ? if yes, then its jay chou.
if no, then its myself.

now is august.
i thought it wasnt suppose to be raining in this month.
today was cold anyway, heaven's crying.
oh well, i have been feeling the coldness recently .
the rain doesnt add much to it in anyway.
so was slacking throughout the day.
im so glad its finally a weekend.
im seriously very tired and weary.
so the bio students went off at 1pm to ngee ann poly.
so on the way there alot of things happened.
i was practically talking about my emotions and feelings to ruby.
yeah and i mean mostly what have been on my mind.
cant take it anymore, the moment i think of it everything goes wild.
and i dont know how i said until she cried.
man, alright i feel abit guilty for that,
but still, no worries, im still strong to at least hold on.
only emotionally unstable. lol.

ngee ann poly looks totally like some sort of hospital to me. hahas.
i dont think im interested in health sciences lah.
kinda boring and scary.
but i went for the sake of going only, since i got nothing better to do also.
abigale said she's so jealous of me.
indirectly i know whats shes trying to say.
come on, doesnt mean dont have is the worst thing.
and having doesnt mean is the bestest thing also. lol.
you'll have yours one day. haha.
and weiqin is scary enough to observe me on the bus.
she was like asking how was my sleep and why i was so quiet on the way back school.
this shows she's been noticing me. *hair stands* oh my god.

whatever others think is not my concern.
its just how you think, your words doesnt take control over me.
dont link your impressions of others and to me cos you think its related.
im already starting to stress over cca,
and sick of people harassing me since like dunno how long,
eoy coming like in two months' time,
plus the emotions and thoughts going through my mind..
im jaded too. oh well.
i may look okay, but do you know how it feels inside?



homework :
english presentation and drawbacks, amath ex 13.3 .
tests :
amath chpt 11-13, chinese chpt 20-22, physics 8-11
(all on next friday) O.o

imissyoursmile.

Libra - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully! You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out. You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person. Your negative traits: You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it. You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date... You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself. Your ideal partner: A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to. Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner. Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense. Your dating style: Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars. Your seduction style: Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own. Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough. Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love. Tips for the future: Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes. Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so. Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did. Best color to attract mate: Green Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

my thoughts are just as much as yours.

i dont know how.
im not that strong on the inside.



things change.
i know.

im very tired today.
until the point where i can just simply heck care everything.

cca is stressing me out.
got so pissed by her.
cant wait to get over with it once and for all.
Irritating. VERY.


and it spoils my mood, totally.



if my emotions got over me, thats it.

happy birthday anchal =)
now that you're fifteen be more mature!
hahaha and dont be so sick everytime lah. =x

i think english is way too scary.
presenting the oral thingy is like oh-my-god.
everyone damn scared loh.
and ms kodi gave us a quiz after that,
sadly i got 0. this shows how attentive i was. haaa.
no bio lesson today, yeah super cool.
two free periods, was slacking and crapping with ruby.
mrs pang was like smiling at me and ask me to do my work instead of talking.
i think she's got wrong facial expressions.
then later some teacher called mr teo came to take over.
he is one disturbing guy. was trying to listen to what me and ruby is talking about.
and he sleeps while sitting. extremely out of his mind.
PE was crazy lah. totally turns me off.
that francis was asking us to play floorball.
i think the reason is cos hes good at it -_-"
he was like teaching me how to play it properly.
mr lim: eh why you so weird one?
me: cos its just weird.
mr lim: whats wrong you tell me.
me : what ?
mr lim : your left hand should be below.
me: chey.
pe lessons are going to be dreadful every wed now.

cca was totally slacking today.
me, ruby, eunice and mandy did our compeitition project,
and after that we went home. wahahaha.
we went to the library for our discussion.
man the room is like so cold loh.
and the air is blowing right into my face. zzz.
and the instructor who came today was bitchy.
one look of her gave me her impression.
her attitude sucks. i hope i dont see her next week anymore.
luckily i didnt attend her teaching today, maybe i'll freak out completely.
so after that went to mac to do homework with mandy.
well of course, im the one whos doing lah. lol.
but i ate cake today. finally! although its not what i really like,
but still its a slice of cake! haha.
something ive been wanting to eat since like...3 weeks ago? yeah.

thats my cake :) - the first thing i ate today. oh well.

alright. chem test tmr.
if God is good, please let me do well.
amen.

I realised, i only get scolded during chemistry lessons. oh well.
mdm faridah is always asking me to keep quiet.
and she says im talkative. nah, wrong comment. lol =x
the buddy clock is amusing today.
its been like so long since we did that thing again.
last time was probably..around sec 1? yeah.
i simply just waited for people to come find me instead of me finding,
only towards the end i start to look for people,
cos i dont wana end up with no dates eventually. haha.
and eric called me when we're in class having lessons.
lol i felt my table vibrating but i thought my mind's gone wild.
didnt expect that he sent me two sms and a miss call. oooops.
he can just walk to my table and tell me right -.-
this is what i call weird.

sometimes i just cant stand people who irritates me.
and some people just cant get off my life.
sigh, poor thing right.

after school was being dragged all the way to hub,
cos ruby insisted that i should watch it.
okay so we went to watch secrets.
i dont know whats her problem lah, got so excited and crazy over that movie.
she was basically screaming when we were buying the tickets,
cos the movie already started. haha.
okay i must say we're like the noisiest people there,
cos this friend of mine keep screaming at me and telling me about _____.
i cant imagine if one day i happen to watch a 5566 movie with her.
oh my god, the whole cinema will be filled with her crazy voice. lol.
but its cool to see jay chou playing the piano.

time to study soon, no more movies anymore.
phone bill's coming in a few days'.
if ever my dad wana confiscate my phone, my life's so over.
but i dun think hes that mean anyway.

happy birthday clarence :D
dun always scold ppl for nothing lah.
lol and stop your craps so much also.
hahaha. best wishes and happy birthday :)

i feel like im back to my own, normal and usual routine again.

class photo-taking today.
MAN I TELL YOU, I CANT BELIEVE IT.
for so many years of my school life,
this year is the FIRST YEAR that I SAT IN THE FIRST ROW.
hello? and i mean FIRST row.
hey hey, im SHEREEN ya know, standing at 160cm.
gosh, and im there, SITTING in the first row.
all thanks to the photographer, who wanted the first rows to be all girls.
oh yeah, thanks a whole lot.
this shows that im actually counted as short in 3g.

ruby was totally insane during assembly.
she was so pissed off with ______ at his dumb actions or wadever you call that.
if i were a guy, probably i'll be scared out of my wits -_-"

alright, promised to change seat with niko from tmr onwards.
and for so many years in my life,
this is the first time i sit infront of a teacher, and first seat somemore.
lol based on my height, maybe im really short in that sense. ha.
no, or should i say my class people are way too tall.
so to sit there, it means :
1. cannot write so much of my stuffs anymore
2. gotta to concentrate more and pay attention,
cos teachers always tend to look at the person infront of them most
3. be careful if ever theres a need for me to sms anyone
4. speak softer to prevent teachers from eavesdropping
5. pair work gonna be with guanyang 0_o
6. cannot sing song aloud
7. try to stay awake and dont fall asleep
8. be extremely cautious of what i do and say during english lessons,
cos miss kodi will know every little thing based on what ive seen.
9. stop looking out of the classroom door cos its very distracting
10. no more celestine's answers in class
11. gotta be the row leader and be alert
12. try not to look at teacher's stuffs so often, i know i always observe dumb things
13. stop daydreaming, cos its super embarrassing to get caught by the teacher.

after school went to have lunch with two besties.
i finished my lunch fast today.
and ruby's lucky. she bought her 5566's new album,
and she went totally berserk after seeing it.
reflection : screams can be the worst sound in the world.
thought of walking back to serangoon, but no time.
lol it sounds abit mad, but still, hahaha.

almost vomitted cos of today's dinner.
being forced to eat so much, when my stomach is like so small.
i think one day i might just die out of a bloated stomach.
i realised i tend to sing when im feeling "not okay" when im doing hw.
and i keep extremely silent when im doing other things when feeling moody.
man, i didnt know i have such characteristics in me. (ha lame)

dont worry; its just my emotions.
not hurt, so theres no need any apologies, and theres no mistake or wadsoever.

its just the feel. my feel.

relatives gone back to their hometown.
yes, peace finally. and thanks for the good comments you gave me.
i dont think i actually deserve to be called sweet and guai and wadever,
but still, hope you enjoy my room for these few days.
its 11pm now, and im still online.
not really on-line, but currently rushing homework.
i was drowning in physics just now, and i couldnt get anything out of it anyway.
so forget it, at most only get out of the class tmr.
and then theres amath, argh. sigh how pathetic.
i havent pack my bag either.
i think my life style's back to the same again.

tmr's not gonna be a pleasant day.
cos its raining right now.
so its most likely to rain tmr morning.
and rainy days dont make me happy.
thats not the problem, but how am i going to go to school tmr if it rains ?!?!?!?
you know, and tmr's the first day of chinese ghost festival month.
which is like in one hour's time ? oh well whatever.


a promise.
wont tear after today.
3 months, im waiting for you to be over.

mum woke me up early in the morning to go for haircut.
yeah so was like everyone in the house were waking me up.
come on, whats the big deal. its just a haircut.
yea, as usual my mood is always affected when i go to the hairdresser.
but everyone said theres no difference -_- lol whatever lah.
another day rotted at home.
was trying to do homework, but sadly i havent even completed half. sigh.
watched tv to kill time :D the same old show i was so crazy over about last time.
hahaha.


one last day tommorow.

"Love will prevail."
surely will.

sometimes i wonder if holidays like today meant to be good or bad.
mum and relatives asked if i wana join them go out today.
nah, didnt go, dont feel like going either.
so rotted at home. was trying to finish homework,
and i tell you how pathetic i was. lol.
i took like the whole morning to afternoon just to complete a few pages of bio.
probably i was daydreaming alot. haaa.
den somehow took the whole night to just finish a dumb writeout.
im starting to think that im not a very on-task person. hahaha.
oh well, and i stopped when it comes to amath.
turned me off completely. lol~

and i realised, all the comments that i received in friendster,
is all saying that they saw me, they saw me and they saw me O_o
yeah and i mean a-l-l .
what exactly wrong with my friendster? lol, whatever lah.
i dun really care about friendster nowadays.

im going for a haircut tmr.
so, i dun think i'll be happy tmr.


i miss boyfriend. will be missing him even more soon.
im worried. will be worrying whenever you got study stress.
sigh, cant imagine the days man.
but still back to same conclusion eventually - i'll go through it with you, till the end.



you know, if i could wish for anything now,
i just want time to pass faster.



homework left : physics and amath.
i think im gonna suffer while doing.

happy birthday jerome ;
happy birthday celestine ;
and happy birthday singapore :)

may singapore continue to live and prosper well till i die,
and please dont renovate any more places,
in case its a memorial place to me,
and i thank you for having such great places like clarke quay :D
happy 42th birthday! hahaha.

oh well, was basically rotting at home.
no mood to study, only did abit of homework.
i cant help it, felt kinda bad inside me.
im worried, theres no doubt i'll miss him as days goes.
its sad, but still, it has to go on, and i'll always be there.
so asked ruby out last minute(which is quite abnormal of me)
actually morning wanted to ask mandy out to cycle, but dropped the idea.
so we went to marina to eat dinner only.
we ate until damn full lah, i was feeling so bloated until i can hardly walk.
i realised that i ate a huge feast today. haaa.
actually i was banned from going out today one.
during morning :
me : hey maybe im going out today.
mum : n-o, went out yesterday already still wan to go out.
me : maybe lah, i no mood to stay at home.
mum : no means no.
afternoon :
(mum came back just before i wana go out)
me : i go out eat dinner den i come back.
mum : i thought i tell you dun go out. *stares*
me : you ask me ownself settle dinner one wad...a while only la, with ruby.
mum : ruby ? or is it your boyfriend
me : ruby means ruby lah. (even if i want boyfriend also cannot)
me : i go out already (walking out of house)
mum : eat alr faster come back hor
first time i went out during last minute.
and its surprising that she let me out when its not early loh.
i think cos got relatives came, so she no time to entertain me. lol.
so went to meet ruby at 4plus. saw jason and some other ppl at the mrt.
den saw elwyn on the way back home.
hes still wearing the same old thing for like three days -_-
went home at about 7.30pm, expected some scolding but there wasnt any.
reached home:
mum : go out a while you also shuang.
me : yeah of course (ppl feeling moody wad)
and the next moment, my mum lost her wallet.
lol, and she concluded that she is most likely to have threw away together with the junks.
man, shes gonna get scolded by dad already. poor mum.

my house suddenly became so noisy.
got like three people here for a few days,
and they using my room lor. zzzzz !
good thing is my mum will not be bother about me so much,
bad thing is i cant have peace at home.

homework is nuts.




不管有多痛苦，
我都会陪你到最后。=)

national day celebration.
its super boring anyway.
congrats to dinali and kennard for winning the fashion show,
and mandy and elwyn too :)
and it sucks big time when our class is forever sitting at the back of the hall.
only ate minimelts after that. ha, for the fun of it.
then me and ruby went to do our own stuffs.
so for the rest of the morning was sitting at the foyer stairs with yingen, ming hui and one more girl.
celestine dont allow me to sit there loh.
whats the problem man, lol, teacher also never scold me.
wahahas =x (you can say that im rebellious for all you want lah)

went to watch ALONE with boyfriend.
someone say I AM BRAVE LOR. wahahaha.
first time i go watch horror for the sake of him.
he should feel honoured and appreciative loh.
so many people around me are screaming like theres no tmr,
but i spent the 95mins STAYING CALM man! xD
surprising right ? i didnt expected also.
haha, yes its finally over.
den went to clarke quay and walk around.
but too bad today's weather not nice, too warm.
i was like very abnormal during the mrt trip.
lol it wasnt mood swings, its just the thing that affected my emotions.
and that moment was so close to tears. oh well.
im not gonna ever take bus 70 in my life again.
that time waited for so damn long, today was worse.
waited for 35mins, and realised that the first bus will only come at 7.39.
which is like one hour more or so.
damn, we waited for nothing loh. stupid, irritating. arghs.
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid.
whatever, forget about it.

gonna cut my hair on saturday. my fringe's super long.
gonna study and do homework like a lunatic and rot at home already.
a few relatives coming over to singapore tmr. zzz.



its sad you know. but nvm, still have to go with it.
study well my dear, i'll always be behind supporting you :)

cross country today!
hahaha, i got pathetic position 42.
lol anyhow also can get into 50. how crappy.
i only jogged and walked loh.
this shows how lazy peicai people are in x country this year.
hahaha. oh well, the scenery there's nice lor.
its been so long since i went there already.
the air breeze is cool :D i think its best to camp there. lol.
and julia made something nice for ruby :
hahaha sensored. _______ love Ruby :D

after the whole thing end yingen and me went to pp, den vivo.
whats wrong with saying that im waiting for xmas ?
lol although its abit crazy to say it now,
but really wad, xmas is nice lor!
okay whatever.
den er, went to "see" people shop. xD
abigale and kristen helping elwyn to buy clothes for tmr.
hes one damn rich guy man. and abigale looks totally like some mummy.
and i saw westlife on tv in some shop.
its westlife leh, how can i not react. grew up with me from young de lor.
a part of my life already. and someone was sad bcos of this.
no worries lah, i want you i want you :D
hahaha, yeayea wad a long day.

tmr gonna watch alone with mickey.
ALONE leh.oh my god.
i promised to.
ahhhh horror leh. oh man.
bcos of mickey i go watch leh...
for the sake of boyfriend.
i will have nightmares after tmr for sure.
95 mins. (okay its just 95mins, relax shereen)
damn. ahhhhhhhhhhh.
oh noooo.
okay fine, its just a movie.

im gonna start bringing back my school diary back to school!
hahaha yeayea :)

felt kinda happy lah, me and mandy's plan carried out successfully.
i expected ruby to tear lor. but she didnt. hahah.
take good care of your bugs okay, and be reminded of us everytime =)

i think i need to start studying.
i dont understand what mdm goh is talking about loh. irritating.
and i dont know where the hell is my english tys.
hopefully its in my locker.
theres gonna be quite alot of homework during the next few days.
sian. i think im gonna be crazy soon.
and ruby called me a lunatic today. LOL.
hahaha!

tmr's cross country. boring.
nothing good can happen i guess. lol.

but something to be happy about: no school for one weeeek! :D
wahahah.

saw wilson after church.
ha, its been like half a year since i saw him.
and ruby went totally nuts after knowing. hahaha!
she made me so high after calling me lor.
cos shes dying to noe stuffs about him and all.
i cant stop laughing after talking to her lah.
i will keep her in suspense until tmr. hehe.
she's so very excited lah, got so crazy over him.
she will be going mental tmr for sure. wahahaa.

mickey bought me herbal tea.
i very guai lor, i drank it okay, but not all lah.
hahaha, but at least i finished half, and he lost it somehow. lol!
sad right, still got half havent finish.
spent alot of time finding seats in the stupid food court.
and its cool to see steam coming out of people's mouth. hahaha.
i was home late today, and surprisingly mum didnt scold.
im lucky today :D hahas.


i got a feeling tmr's lessons are going to be dreadful.

i woke up at 6am today.
last night was replying ruby's msg at 3.54am.
i seriously had a terrible time last night lor.
man, luckily im strong. lol.
thanks mandy for your bun. hahaha.
and thanks ruby for your panadol too. you didnt kill me with it. lol!
yeap, and so mr chia drove us to ny poly for our cca workshop.
haha his car damn cool lah, black one lor! i like it :D
if i ever happen to sit in mr lim's car i'll go high already. hahaha.
and the three of them bully me ask me go sit infront -.-
but anything lar, i no energy to fight with them also.
mr chia has got a cute rat and a cool ipod too.
he was like asking me to change songs if i want.
lol i dun even dare to touch his things lah.
nyp has got a super cool mac also. it looks totally like some sort of restaurant.
lol oh, and thanks mr chia for your hashbrown also.
so the whole thing lasted for like until 1pm.
we rejected the offer to be interviewed, cos dun wan us to be showed on tv mobile lah.
eventually mr chia was the one. haha hes gonna be famous next year.
lol, den he sent us back to school.
went to look for ms nai in school also. she looked really sick though.
hope she'll be alright by monday :)
then after that went to somewhere to buy something.
i saw one pair of mickey and minnie.
its the nicest softtoy ive ever seen loh. cos its brown in colour.
i fell in love with it lah somehow. hahas.
then later I SAW SNOOPY'S BOTTLE!!! :D
but sad thing they dont have white or black colour.
but still, its snoopy! hehee.
so then later clare called and said royston saw me.
stupid royston, see me never call me. lol.
den somehow they came and find me, just for like 10 secs. 0_o

congrats to boyfriend's uncle! hahaha.
may you live in happiness and blissfully forever :D
and boyfriend's brother is cute.
haha anyway, my dear boy, you can make me smile with your joy naturally ya know? xD

i miss the australia perth trip somehow.
the nice pillow on the plane going to perth,
the bus seats where me and ruby always talk and crap everytime.
the crazy things we used to do in hotel,
the night where me and julia talked for so long,
the apple juice and bacon for breakfast,
the days where i used to wear alot of layers cos its freezing cold,
the beautiful beach where i see the ocean and dolphins,
the moments when i was emo with ruby,
the shopping times, the chocolate factory which i love most,
the day i happened to be beside elroy looking at the kangaroo,
and somehow we get to know each other, and he called me shreen -.- ,
and was proclaiming his love for his dearest wife while we were there feeding it.
and almost changed placed with him on the plane on the last day but didnt. haha.
its not a bad thing going there afterall,
cos its through this that i met boyfriend through kangaroo. hahahas.

and it all started with just a reason, a song,
and the times we been through together when we were friends,
how close we seemed to be, the craps and funny things we do.
then the love that starts to bloom between me and you.

"cos hor, when you smile right, ppl will also automatically smile. den your smile looks like mickey lor, plus your eyes are very nice also :D "

if you say i lighted up your life,
den i'll say its all because you are the one who made me do so. =)

our group pic :)

my group and mr chia! yeah we're chiaro :)

Our friendship never ends! :D

well i dont seem to look sick.
but the fact is i was seriously feeling sick.
come on, for the sake of taking pictures, i cant possibly look dead.

1.Are you in a serious relationship now?
yeahhh =)
2. What is on your mouse pad?
mouse? -.-
3. What's your favourite fruit?
um honeydew?
4. Do u wish to be a pilot someday?
nah.
5. What is the colour of your pants rite now?
black.
6. Do u have a lot of admirers?
er..
7. Do u think about your love problems?
i dont have any now :D
8. Is your computer in your bedroom?
no.
9. Is your hair long or short?
long.
10. Do u like going to the supermarket with your parents?
yea, when im in a good mood. hahaha
11. How much is your allowance for one month?
aiya not much lah. i very poor one. lol xD
12. How long does it take for u to fix your hair?
i dont really fix my hair. 0.o but every morning depends on mood la.
13. Where did you last go?
confidential. hahaha!
14. What you had for breakfast this morning?
erm, bun? and milo.
15. What you had for dinner last night?
mum's cooking.
16. Do you sleep alone?
duh.
17. Who is beside u now?
no one.
18. What is the last thing u touched before u went on the comp?
my phone.
19. Whos the prettiest/hottest girl/guy you know?
hahaha.
20. The best friend feature of the girl/boy u like?
his smile! :D :D :D
21. The sweetest thing someone said to you?
(dont want write lah)
22. Something you want to tell him/her?
im always loving you :)
23. Why do u like him/her?
cos i just like him.
24. Inner/outer beauty?
both. :D
25. Ever had a dream come true?
nah all my dreams are weird.
26. Do u like the smell of durians?
no ?!
27. You ever wished you were royal?
nah.
28. what's the worst thing you've faced recently?
sickness.

1. WHAT'S YOUR SISTER'S NAME?
no sister.
2. WHAT WERE YOU DOING 10 MINUTES AGO?
this.
3. IF YOU WERE A COLOR, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
white.
4. MTV, V Channel, OR MYX:
erm, dont know.
5. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE RIGHT NOW, WHERE?
i want to stay at home. lol
6. NAME A PERSON WHO'S NAME STARTS WITH THE LETTER "s"?:
shereen ? lol
7. WHERE'S THE BEST PLACE TO EaT ICE CREAM?
where ? sentosa! lol
8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL?
i dont have one. chinese maybe. haha.
9. ARE YOU ATT?
wad is att ? attached ar ? yeah i am absolutely attached. lol.
10. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR PHONE?
blackkk :D
11. WHAT ARE YOU DOING TOMORROW?
go church, den later see how.
12. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU GOT DRUNK?
nah i dont drink.
13. YOU EASY TO GET ALONG WITH?
yeaaa :D
14. WHAT MOVIE DO YOU WANT TO SEE RIGHT NOW?
right now? nah, none.
15. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE "SCARY MOVIE" 1,2,3, OR 4?
none of the above.
16. WHO'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP AND WAD ARE YOU GONNA BUY FOR HIM OR HER?
celestine and jerome. lol see first lah =x
17. DO YOU THINK ANNA NICOLE SMITH KILLED HERSELF?
sorry i dunno whos she.
18. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU GOT MAD AT?
mum.
19. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
hahaha still early to talk about it lah.
20. HAVE YOU EVER LIED TO A FRIEND?
white lies counted?
21. ARE YOU JUDGMENTAL?
sometimes?
22. WHAT DO YOU HEAR AT THIS VERY MOMENT?
nothing. the sound of my keyboard.
23. WERE YOU A NERD IN 5TH GRADE??
no not really.
24. DO YOU KNOW ANYONE FROM ALASKA?
lol nuts.
25. ARE YOU A FAN OF BASKETBALL?
nah.
26. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON U COPY PASTE THIS FROM?
i dunno that person, from friendster anyway.

im not in the mood.
and i dont feel like talking either.

today is totally bad lah. even the blue sky turns to grey.
although i know i might seem to be kinda o-k-a-y.
i dont wana look so moody, if not people will think boyfriend bullied me.
plus morning had a slight headache.
physics practical i basically did the whole experiment super fast.
den for theory, tat mdm goh was saying me indirectly. stupid lah.
cant see whats on the screen and dont understand what she teaching also.
i think maybe cos i wasnt paying attention. lol.
next time cannot sit behind anymore without my specs.
chinese was cool. watched some movie for the entire day :D
at least there was peace. mr hou's a nice guy.
den was irritated for the later part of the day also.
after school went to relax myself abit, cos got no mood to go home.
yeah, den went home and sleep.
still rotting now. not in the mood to do anything.
i think im gonna sleep.
my flu aint getting any better. and im feeling sick. zzz.
theres still cca workshop to go tmr. so damn early. sigh, no choice.



early in the morning ppl say i bully him.
then later dont believe that i typed wrong msg.
next, just bcos i didnt walk faster when crossing you raised your voice at me.
and people dont even care when i said im sad.
maybe next time i shouldnt say how i feel anymore. lol.
so eventually i kept quiet in the canteen.
den ppl so fierce say me lame, and even 'scolded' me for the song played.
then later very bu shuang ask me walk first.
you know wads the best part? all the words i said in canteen were not responded.
and the last part, when walking up class, total irritation and frustration were vented on me.
scary right. but i was still trying to be normal. hahah.
oh well, i dont mind, if it makes him feel better.
nevermind, its okay. im fine. i know you didnt realise.
and i always understand you :)


i think i really have a super good temper. ha-ha-ha.


dont matter what it takes, cos i'll always be there for you.
through the good and the bad times =)

argh, i kept sneezing at home.
i think feng shui at home not good.
haha or maybe its just that my flu is getting worse.
and i think im not gonna do well for english test.
i wrote quite short lor, only one and half page,
while i see others write more than two pages. doomed lah.
miss diana lost her necklace today and got so depressed,
den said if anyone found it she'll get him/her a pair of free tickets.
i thought her boyfriend give one, but actually is she bought from italy one.
haha, and andy very lucky lah, found it on the floor.
man, and i broke my history record. 29/50 for chinese test.
damn. so sad lar, first time did so badly. many people failed though. sad case.
next week no tuition cos its national day. hahaha xD

and mickey's file and handbook are with me for the whole day.
hahaha so nice to hold in with me. lol.
but i'll return it anyway, its his precious things.

August Resolutions :
1. carry out plan with mandy
2. eat cake!
3. get more sleep
4. dont fall sick so i dont have to drink herbal tea
5. try not to be stubborn and be guai
6. try not to sleep during geog lessons
7. rmb timetable so i will know what books to take every morning
8. buy my black pillow(maybe)
9. dont answer some people's questions
10. dun care and dont bother about 'harassments'
11. still trying to make boyfriend touched until he tear. (almost did last month lor!!!)

shall blog tmr.
too tired today.

some people say 10th july leh.
disappointing right?
but nvm lah. Always Forgiven :)

im not in the mood to study right now.
cos its 10pm and i feel like sleeping. lol.
and im slacking cos im blogging at this time when im supposed to study.

erythrocytes - red blood cell
leukocytes - white blood cell
lymphocytes(antibodies) ; phagocytes(engulf bacteria)
arteriosclerosis - accumulation of fats in the coronary arteries.
thrombosis - blood clot in artery.
artery carries blood away from the heart.
veins carries blood towards the heart.
capillaries carries blood from small artery to small vein.
alright, i hope i wont forget the spellings.

dont think studying for chinese already.
im feeling so dead.

last day of july today. oh man.
was having a bad headache today morning.
but now alright already :) (some people dun believe me lor)

i have a sudden craving for cakes though. hmm.


well anw, i dont feel like blogging today.
theres bio and chinese test tmr.
and i seriously think im not gonna do well.
all shall go to my luck tmr already. haa.

alright. everything's done.
settled and peace.
really. :)