I think for the next few days i'm gonna die out of stress.

Haha studying never seems to be ending, crap man.

Churched today, woke up in the morning and stoned until i reached church.

Very bad right, i know.

After that went for lunch with some of them and eventually stoned some time away too.

Happened to eye a nice dress that i like...but the price also very nice :(

So anyway, still didn't have the mood to study hahaha im so deadzxz.

Glad that cya duty is ending next week until school starts in april :)))

Even more glad that at least my mondays will be free after next week.

Mwhaha, ♥♥♥

Only did socio online quiz today.

Didn't really use the textbook cos i can't find any answers so ended up decided to anyhow whack.

But at least not bad lar, didn't score that badly.

Went into the kitchen and tried making sushi today, heh.

Trying to destress myself also.

But apparently my rice didn't turn out that well la, tried twice but either too soft or a little hard.

Haha but not bad alr la, first time ok.

But still edible lah, hahaha.

I always feel sleepy on saturdays.

Sigh, sian ah so much to study for.

So not looking forward for the upcoming busy and stressful week ahead.

I am going to finish my socio quiz and start studying today.

You were always on my mind.

-

Longest day of my week.

Scammed by econs tutorial -.-

Made me wake up at like 6 plus, rushed to school, after 15min said end class after we handed in our project.

Wahhh cannot get over it leh, somemore relief tutor.

Goodness gracious.

So anyway, had lessons all the way till 1plus.

Went to lab and sat there and chiong for the stupid bcs web project until 6pm -.-

Ok it was very horrible cos we didn't know what to do, so was trying to do alot of things.

But at least with our smart brains we managed to crap out way out.

I totally had no knowledge of flash, so luckily vic was able to do smth out of it.

So finally after like 4.5 hours we finished the whole thing and handed up before deadline.

At least had a sense of accomplishment. Although i was so drained out and tired.

Rushed over to meet cell at vivo city -_-"

Yeah so it was like superbly far and i was quite late but well...at least they waited for me at the food court =)

Went to have my dinner(i was so hungry man), and so i talked to ps. km and ps. cx since the both of them were free and just beside me.

Had no idea why i can make ps. cx laugh so much...hmm but not a bad thing i guess, lol.

Proceeded with short lesson at the rooftop place(idk why hj suggested that place but i thought the night scenery was pretty nice).

And the lesson was really short compared with last week! (i like)

Haha well so that was about all.

At least destressed myself abit by taking in some fresh cooling air.

So now, time to start getting ready for presentations and tests!

I seriously need to start studying...gosh.

Next week's gonna be the most stressful week for me.

Ok time to sleep, extremely tired.

Ok, totally not my day either.

Had a day full of lessons and was feeling damn sian.

Apparently now left with one last project to complete.

All the rest submitting next week, 3 presentations next week and nearly everyday for the next week have tests.

What's best? I haven't studied for any of the three papers. Die.

My next week is totally packed and full and i don't like it at all.

And now still have to find time for presentation rehearsals, sigh.

Though i may not look stress but actually i am.

And you know what?

I didn't do one of my online psycho quiz, so there goes my 10 marks.

Ok i know i should be blaming myself but sigh.

Nobody told me the deadline was 24 jan!

Ah whatever, too bad for me then.

I think i've been eating alot lately man.

Ice creams especially.

I think i'm so going to live with stress until exams are over by march :(

Sigh.

Days haven't been better for god-knows-why.

My phone annoyingly went nuts and i had to go all the way to replace a sim card today morning.

Wasted so much of my time.

And because the name wasn't under me i had to call 1633 and it took me like so damn long.

So i had to contact my friends cos i didn't have any phone so i could meet up with them.

Then i had no coins and i don't know their numbers -.-

But luckily i was smart and lucky enough, eventually done with everything after the whole morning.

Western food in mensa canteen is not nice at all.

Wonder why are there so many people buying it.

Had a horrible time trying to rush and do web project.

Dreamweaver really sucks man, so troublesome.

Not like as if i'm going to be some web designer in the future also.

Still yet to be done with the whole thing.

Then totally was too sian and restless to pay attention in econs lec alr too.

So drained.

Wished time could pass slower sometimes.

Ok i should stop wasting time and get on with my miserable work, sobs.

SIAN.

phone died on me, can't read my sim card.

going to change the sim card tmr i guess.

argh sucks.

Two lessons of THREE stupid hours each today.

I thought my sec school days of four periods of amath is the worst but i was wrong.

Gosh. Was trying to do up dreamweaver during first lab class.

Asked tutor how to do the flash and he told me to find out myself -.-

Ok whatever.

Cs was even worst. No words can describe it.

Came home with the stupid hot weather.

Already so tired and boiling, there comes my mum with her ridiculous thinking -.-

She is just so not understanding.

How great can my day be right. So sian.

Projects projects projectsss.

P/s. Hope you're doing ok there, jiayou =)

Alright, had a long and busy day.

Time to decide where to go for education trip.

And i am just gonna stay here, meaning, go to singapore.

Save money, save time. I've got better plans =)

Gonna wait till twelve to fill up for the form -.-

Nuts.

In your presence is the best place I'd want to be.

Breakfast at tanglin mall today was tiring.

Who on earth eats roti prata with plastic fork and spoons right?

Grr the person provided me with that -_-"

But anyway, i still prefer the one i went to with qad.

So...did up dawn's present and gave it to her after service :)

I think everyone loves my ideas...mwhahah.

Service ended late today though, and time was kind of tight so was trying to rush my way through.

I think my stamina is failing...which means my napfa in year three is going to die miserably.

Hoho, dooming.

I love talking to qad :) (although sometimes i don't get any response)

But i guess i like to see his different smiles...which comes rarely wor!

Back's aching now :(

& Tmr is mondayyy!!! Siansation.

If life is like a roller coaster,

I'd always be there riding with you,

no matter how many rides it may take.

Back then, you were willing to lose a good friend because of somebody.

I was hurt but I don't even think you gave a damn.

But apparently now, I can't pretend that things never happened before.

I don't know why the sudden change in you when i thought we were not supposed to be friends anymore because you did not bother to salvage our friendship. I asked as I wanted to know why and is it because that somebody isn't there anymore. If this is the case, don't you think that you're making me feel like i'm so pathetic?

Like just someone who is a "reserved" person in your social circle.

If you had cherish the friendship, you wouldn't have cruelly and blindly ended the friendship without a word but only an apology.

Although i'm glad that at least you still have the courage to speak up, but maybe you should think about how others will feel.

However, i appreciated you for laying down your pride and realising the fact that talking to me now as if nothing happened was being ridiculous.

Oh well.

sometimes i feel so sian to the point where i really dun feel like bothering about anything.

like now. sigh.

"Just laugh about it"

I don't know about you, but I had a very long day.

I guess you did too.

Woke up super early today and got asked to help joo to so her econs articles -.-

Best right, so last minute of her.

But anyway, went to school and thought of submitting my socio essay but that malay lady was so late till we gave up waiting for her to open the room cos we had tutorial. Grr -.-

Had a really rushed presentation and role play during OB after that though...

Simply babbled some words and make my way through the whole thing.

Haha, but our role play was so funny.

Just when I thought at least things are getting better with school work,

Here comes another frustrating and sian issue - overseas educational trip.

Honestly, I find it ridiculous for us to pay money in exchange for our 15% coursework grade.

Yeah like whatever right, go there to study?!

Super sian over it, haiz. Totally spoilt my mood again.

These days uh, the school hasn't make me any happier at all man.

Sigh.

Went out with sansan in the afternoon for awhile to look at some stuffs in town.

Had a piece of cake before we left. Cheesecake rocks :)

Met up with my cell at tiong bahru, dinnered and headed back to church.

Had a long and intense cell lesson...wah i tell you my mind's already like so dead but yet i still had to think about so much things.

Hmm so ended pretty late, but luckily got people fetch.

Extremely tired until the maximum point.

Goodnight.

I think my group didn't really do well in our presentation of meeting this morning?

Oh well, seriously can't stand it lah.

She commented our meeting was fast, formal and serious.

Like hello, it's a formal meeting leh! -.-

Ah whatever, nobody can understand her anyway.

So i guess that pretty much affected all of our moods today, haha.

Everyone was so sian to the max.

Long day of lessons and lecture, super boring!

Only psycho tutorial was interesting, but i was like freezing, so don't like it also.

I think my mum thinks that i'm like super free and relaxed.

She don't know how busy i am and stressed up with upcoming exams and project deadlines.

Obviously i can't be still doing work at home wad...i don't have so much energy and motivation.

And because she saw me watching drama online doesn't mean i'm free ok.

That's just part of my break time once a week nia.

Poly life is life-changing man, i swear.

I don't know how JC life is but honestly i think both are equally hectic.

It's pathetic when young adults like us have to be so occupied with schwork -.-

Ok i think i should stop ranting. Should jiayou :)

So basically submitted my psycho project today and done with cs presentation.

Tmr will be submitting econs articles, socio's essay, cs's reflection journal and ob presentation.

Rehearsed tmr's meeting presentation and Friday's presentation & role play.

And these lasted for like almost half the day.

Went for lecture and this was my day.

Seemed kinda short but actually it was very long.

People are all getting stressed up around me.

But i actually feel very sian with so much work instead, haha.

Exams are all coming next month and for that i'd be stressed cos i haven't started on anything and i think i'm just going to die cos most of them i totally caught no ball -.-

Sigh.

Hmm anyway, recently there are quite a few of those people who haven't talked to me for a super long time came and talk to me suddenly.

Like so surprising loh...and somemore not only one, every day sure have one this week.

Funny huh?

zombiefied!

i'm too tired to do any work alr :(

did a bit of my cs reflection journal on the bus just now but cmi cos very rocky.

having supper now cos i'm super hungry.

my mind isn't functioning and i want to sleep!!!

duty today was rather good, met the tuesday crew people.

they are very friendly and nice to me :)

so different from my monday crew's atmosphere.

haha...audit was difficult but oh well! every week also like that, numb liao.

so yup that's all. goodnight soon!

currently at the airport now...waiting for time to do duty(sian).

sigh, what an occupied day.

there are so much things to do!!! rawr.

two presentations coming up and still got to hand in dunno how many assignments.

never seems to end one :(

spent the day in school meeting and discussing different projects.

can't wait for exams to be over and get back all my beauty rest during the holidays!

gonna be so lonely again later...dunno anyone leh, how sad.

hope time will pass faster so i can end my day sooner!

actually today's not a good day to do duty :(

gosh, i'm so tired that i can't even open my eyes.

now is only 7am but i can only reach home at 11pm!

gonna be really a long day!

This love...is something that keeps my heart smiling all the time :)

Ok, guess i'm cooled already.

Told myself don't bother thinking of all the you-de-mei-de.

There will another time like this, so doesn't matter.

Still have a future long. Just take it as some rubbish incident this time.

Shall cast away all the unnecessary feelings already.

Although i don't deny the fact of how i felt just now la.

Think i got so !@£$% until i forgot what i actually said.

Oh well.

And now, i'm going to school.

Go out take in some fresh air also not bad.

Byebye!

UGH.

ok right now i feel damn fooled and retarded and crappy.
i hate it. i hate the feeling of being told of something but end up being false.
a moment ago give me heaven. the next moment give me hell.
just because of some small things, last min make decisions.
hate it, damn sian.

FAN BU FAN DE AR?!!

thanks, i wake up so early for nothing.
thanks, for once i anticipated and expected and hope for nothing.
thanks, i feel so happy for nothing.
thanks, i feel so reluctant of not being the one there.
THANKS, MY MOOD IS SPOILT.

Happy Birthday to Ruby! :)

I've said my piece in sms and fb, so lazy to write anything more here now alr.

But anyway, still hope she'll happy with her life even as now.

Hmm well, going to church every sunday later than last year do feels weird,

but at least i can sleep longer so..haha!

Was fine as usual, just that my kids this year are SO quiet!

Maybe they're shy or smth(hope they are), cos i feel like talking to myself -_-"

After everything went for lunch, pestered jon to park at suntec cos the ladies are lazy to walk.

Hahaha, ended up having buffet somehow instead of our usual steak.

Had a nice time laughing cos dawn was super hilarious.

But i guess the idea of having a fund fair would be great la, i support :)

So blah blah, another week's here again!

Sleepy day

Even my weekends are boring this week.

It's just me, myself and school work.

How sian.

Finished my socio essay, did OB slides and psycho quiz.

Quite pathetic alr cos i still have much much more to do.

Extremely tired today though...maybe accumulated fatigue from the week?

Ended up napping for quite some time cos i didn't make alarm :O

Sigh, must complete more things tmr i hope.

Goodness gracious.

Faking out an essay which is not of personal experience is so brain cell-killing.

Dinner with sec clique last night and celebrated ruby, sl and yy's birthdays.

Either cos of mood or my headache didn't make my appetite good at all.

Andre apologized to me for the first time btw!

Ah, so nan de.

I'm disturbed last night.

Although i kept silent but doesn't mean i(or rather we) don't know anything.

I get the whole picture already.

If you really feel happier that way, i won't stop you from going ahead.

It's true that i won't like and approve of it but it's your life afterall.

I don't wish to see you being disguised or whatsoever.

You were not the you i saw.

Still feeling very tired, but i have to rush two essays.

Sigh.

Jiayou :)

I'll be here for you; I'll stand by you,

I will, always.

Yesterday had been a long day, super sian.

Wasted my two hours of time cos tutorial was cancelled.

And it pretty much sucks because we knew through her pasting some paper on the classroom's door to say no class -.-

Psycho tutorial wasn't any better, cos i was such a loner loh.

All my group project members were absent!!!

So during group consultation i told tutor my group is not here so i leave first.

So pathetic lah, but good in a way too i suppose?

But anyway, tutorial was kind of interesting...taught about stress and emotions and life.

Very thought provoking.

Finally went for psycho lecture after ages also. Interesting lecture as well.

Very tiring and busy rushing and doing school works :(

If i can use money to buy time i think i'll be very very very poor, haha.

Sian ar!

Tired and draining day man.

Econs lecture totally killed my brain cells.

& Tmr's gonna be such a sian day, sigh.

First time receiving a 'corrupted' sms.

Was kind of disturbed cos was wanting to know who was the person.

And who knows might be an important msg.

End up was andre -_-" But still, at least knew who was the person eventually lah.

Still yet to find time one day to go StarHub and ask some stuffs.

Mum went out today and spent alot on i-don't-know-what.

Should be some cushion or something.

When cabbing home she left one bag of stuffs either at the place or in the cab.

So when I came home mum and dad were quarreling cos my mum was blaming dad for not taking care of the stuffs and scolding him for not letting her know that there's still one more bag.

Dad got angry and said that she pushed her own responsibilities etc.

Don't like it cos when they quarrel it gets superbly loud.

Oh well, better not provoke her tonight although i can't stand it when she attitudes around like nobody's business.

Roses are red

Violets are blue

Truly and deeply

I'd been thinking about you

I love my successor top :)

Feeling very tired today...this week is getting pretty boring but busy.

Nothing's interesting except for more and more project works.

Can't stand three hours of lab just sitting there and stoning.

Oh, and my sunburnt face is peeling off! UGH.

It's the most detestable thing I'd ever want :(

Sian.

Hmm apparently duty was boring...came home late :(

Rested awhile and did some project touch ups since i still have 5% of energy left.

Shall continue tmr.

Surprised by the many owls i see online!

In school now...leaving for airport duty soon.
O's Results were out...elroy's gonna come tp!
Haha, he said he missed me.

Sian, gonna be home late.
Ok gtg bb!


But anyway, don't be disheartend k...cheer up... :)

If hugs were a second, I'd give you hours.

If a kiss was a raindrop, I'd give you showers.

If smiles were water, I'd give you a sea.

If love was a person, I'd give you me.

i am dead tired now...sigh deprived of sleep liao!

feeling kinda sian today though, went to church just for svc feels weird actually.

sian arrr so fast monday alr.

no motivation to do projects!!! :(

anyway, i think i better not skip psycho lectures anymore.

my online quizzes are horrible...so there goes my distinction.

better make sure i do well for project and exam le.

sian, feel like sleeping!

Burnt!

Too bad i guess.

What a long and happening day!

Today sort of my "relax" day...although not really supposed to but this is call getting some life.

Marina barrage to celebrate gideon's birthday in advance.

Birthday surprise succeeded again, hehe.

I think i realised i'm someone who likes to give surprises huh..ever since last year.

But not always la...got to see mood. So yeah, had our picnic and stuffs.

Some of them went to fly kite and i used gideon's dslr to take photos.

Haha, photography is pretty interesting actually.

Then had activities, sabo-ed gideon the whole time. Fun!

Hahaha all of were so entertained. But ok la, bonding session ma.

All of us got kinda burnt by the hot sun...especially aud and eun!

They are like sososo red...haha wasn't that bad for me this time though.

Just got like half burnt only. Dinnered after that at marina sq and home.

Feeling so nua now...haha.

Sleeping is still the best!

My heart's there,

withyoualways.

Ah yes, very long day. Super tired now.

Just came home from church not long ago.

Firstly, very sad over my econs results!

Sighhh...gonna mug hard for final year exam...although it's like twice as hard :(

But nvm, cos last sem my mid sem results for econs also not THAT good, haha.

Oh well, it's over!

But glad my other papers are still :)

So blah blah blah, waited for an hour for somebody *rawr*

Super sian ok...hope won't have such next time anymore.

But anyway had an awesome time together, love youuu! :)

Rushed to redhill, wasted my damn cab money, somemore it's peak hour.

Had dinner, then went for pnp in replacement of cell.

Was feeling sososo tired and my eyes were already closing.

Man, i'd better make sure my alternate fridays are filled with energy.

Will be out tmr!

But still thinking of work behind my mind.

Some things just can't be out of mind...just like you!

Hahaha!

Ok off for now. Byebye!

Super long day, very restless now alr.

Thank you jaslyn for accompanying me today morning k!

See, i'm still very nice afterall.

It was the start of poly open houses and you know what, the whole school was SO noisy!

Everywhere were cheers and more cheers -_-"

Well i know poly is supposed to be like that la, being bubbly and hyper etc,

but too bad uh i'm just not into these kinda stuffs. Sososo noisy leh.

Didn't manage to get back psycho results cos it was still under moderation.

Tutorial was fast cos it was group consultation and our group is almost done with it so yay :)

Skipped psycho lec again.

I think my online quizzes are gonna be screwed up.

Getting back two papers tmr!

Busy busy busy.

Clipped up my fringe today in school cos it's very long and i can't stand it.

So finally went to cut after school.

I waited for 20min and the cutting lasted only for like 20 secs -.-

I think everyone there was quite stunned. Like i just sat down a moment ago.

Didn't want to trim my back cos honestly i don't trust them...heh.

Wasn't the hairdresser whom i always go to so i not very willing to let them touch my hair.

Haha!

Heard that o's results are coming out on next monday.

Too bad i'm not free to drop by but i'll still support ya elroy :)

Maybe can get to see some of them if they're here for the open house at tp.

Hmmm time flies huh, seemed so long ago that i went to take my o level results.

Still can rmb how was it like over there in the hall.

And that was probably the first and last time i wore the 4g class shirt. Haha!

You know one thing i hate about poly is they never let you know your results.

Like i've taken exams last month or even longer but till now still nothing

I guess we're like just supposed to do and then not know our results -_-"

Dreamweaver is quite interesting but it's very very draining.

I think my BCS is just gonna die soon when exams come.

I don't even know what is the definition of a device loh!

(but nvm the whole class also don't know hehehe)

very very very very very long day last night...

and i'm like awake now so early...only a few hours of sleep!

sigh. but well yesterday was quite a happening night during duty.

like three times i got offered cash as a form of "thanking" me...haha!

but then again, can't accept la.

however, the joy of giving and making someone happy is fulfilled :)

gonna be a long and tiring week ahead though!

Super long day, tired like crrrap :(

Two svcs went well today i suppose, with the pressure within all of us.

Free breakfast for all of us though, so nice of gideon :)

Was out for the day with the rest for lunch and went to get our stuffs done.

Got quite restless halfway cos things got a lil' draggy and i was like so tired le.

But nonetheless still managed to get things done :)

I prefer weekends, so much more better than my weekdays.

Btw during lunch they were saying that never see my face get red before.

Hahaha of course la, i'm like always so calm mah.

But also probably they never seen before only, haha!

It's monday again...sianz.

Wishing time can pass slower!!!

I have lots and lots and lots of things to do.

Omgosh woke up at 630 am, very tired ahhh.

Had been quite a long time since i woke up this early,

the last time was probably when i was in sec 4?

Slept late last night too...was planning some stuffs.

Hmm ok gotta go soon.

Today will be better, BKs jiayou k!

Still have so much more to learn in church.

A lil' disappointment just now...but nvm rooms for improvements :)

Dinnered in town with the rest and shopped for things(not for myself).

Quite tiring one leh. Saw alan at ion's information counter desk.

Haha so omg, like some chauffeur.

That look.

Sian worrrrrr.

So much things to do.

Joshua couldn't understand me when i reply him in solid words everytime.

Influenced from qad lor!

sigh my anklet :(

My anklet :(

Resolutions for the new decade

Ah, how can i forget about my resolutions.

Resolutions for 2010:

• do well in my studies (try to maintain my gpa)
• survive through cya duty
• manage time and my schedule well
• make time for the people i love
• continue building a deepest of deepest quality relationship with people i love
• save more money
• change phone
• fulfill all my roles and responsibilities well in church
• see growth in the kids under me at children's church
• maintain good friendships
• go overseas..?
• embrace the beauty of turning 18 :D
• stay happy always
• giving my all and my best to people i love
• control emotions, not to be feeling insecure, and trust to the deepest*

P/s. Let's make the year a better and lovelier one together! :)

*will and must achieve

Slept for three hours and woke up.

Not really in the mood to blog now actually...but nevermind~

New year eve was awesome btw. Love it.

Caught the movie sherlock with the group, nice movie though.

Met up with gid and km after that, discussed about stuffs and had dinner.

Headed to G2 for watchnight and countdown.

And the msging server was jammed so i didn't reply everyone who sent me msgs, haha.

After midnight went to have supper at amk, damn hungry that time.

Toned for the night under an 'empty' roof from hj.

Bridging was damn funny anw. So yeah, blah blah blah till morning.

Breakfasted together and came home.

Not bad lar, nice way to usher the new year in.

Now now now, gotta chiong alot of work already.

One thing, i just need to be assured somehow.

Another thing, i can't really stand that idea of it that's why i got disturbed.

Next thing, i cannot help feeling that way sometimes so i told you.

Last thing, i will control and i will trust even deeper.

Hello earthlings i'm back home!

It's pretty amazing that i am awake and out for like 24 hours.

But anw i'm going to get a few hours of sleep.

Actually i'm quite awake now but my mind's kinda off so i need some sleep because i have lotsa things to do by today and tmr!

Blog later!