Happy new year!(soon)

Bye 2010.

2010 have been a...long year.

Actually I'm not quite ready to leave the year yet...haha, oh well.

It had been a year of acceptance, patience, happiness and pain.

A very impactful and important year to remember for me.

I've definitely learnt alot from church, from cell, from school.

Really thankful and grateful for people in my life who've been there with me.

I guess I've grown much as well...growing to be a better leader, better friend, better daughter.

And also learnt to make decision for the best, learnt to think wisely, and learning to let go in life. Although some things are really very hard, but life still goes on...sigh.

I don't really expect much in the coming year, probably just for loved ones to be healthy and happy. Of course there will surely be more challenges ahead but i believe we get better as we learn so i'll look forward to the year ahead :)

Huat ah!

I've been a good girl today! :)

I kinda finished both my reports alr, yay.

Horrible time of brain torture, lol.

But at least individual assignments are completed *phew*.

Now got to chiong for projects and tests, sian!

I just came to realise that the second week of school there are two tests!

Oh man, and first week of school already have got two submissions -.-

Sigh, my jan is seriously gonna be crazyyy.

So yeah...have been occupying myself with school work today to kill time.

But then again i still prefer to sleep to pass time.

Talking about sleeping...i haven't been eating breakfasts recently cos when i woke up it's almost lunch time already, lol!

And my mum hadn't been cooking too so my lunches were also skipped :(

But i guess that gives me a few days of diet! Haha.

School's starting real soon so i'm back to eating again, tsktsk.

My heart surrenders.

My day was...half productive.

I had only half a day awake, stoned for half day, so actually only did work for a quarter day haha!

There was a "welcome party" over dinner for the new comers in our cell for next year.

8 were absent so it was rather a small one.

Next year's gonna have a big change so i guess really gotta prepare for it!

Gonna be a good girl and chiong my school work over the next two days alr.

Not going to go anywhere so don't ask me out! Haha.

Jiayou to me!

Wow, i didn't know the party last night had such huge impact on the cell.

Really very heartwarming to see all of us being so bonded after two years.

Although sad that everyone gotta move on, but i believe we will still keep in touch for life :)

Extremely long day...

Eoy cell party at night, was good though, everyone was happy :)

Guess it's also about the "last party" with all of us so gotta make it enjoyable.

Really love my cell for this year :) Awesome people to be with.

Right, so anyway it was a sad thing was that my mac adaptor died on me :(

Gave me such a huge shock cos if it doesn't work then no more activities.

But thank God there was an extra one that aud's sister managed to dig out, haha.

So anyway, it was good! Sweet memories for life.

Very tired by now alr...next few days gonna chiong all my school work before new year's eve hopefully. It's tough to play and work at the same time...very stress lol.

It's the last sunday of the year! So happening in CC today.

There was prize ceremony, graduating ceremony for my p6s and food party.

Hmm glad to see my kids growing up and moving on to the next stage :)

I feel older myself too when i see them grow, haha!

Lunched at killiney with a few of them and that ends my day lol.

So so fast. I think this week would really fly by unknowingly.

And i really hate it when my parents wrong me for nothing.

Tsk, hello can you please go and find out first before saying it's me?! -.-

Come on man, it's just a small matter for crying out loud.

Need to make such a big fuss or not? Wapiang.

Luckily my tolerance level high enough to withstand crap like throwing my things anywhere without putting it back and showing bad tempers when you feel like it.

So i'm now practicing forgiveness. It's a noble action, lol.

You happy...I happy.

Last week of the year left, time reeeally flies.

No time already, i really have to rush my school work asap lol.

Still having last two parties coming up...so busy.

Catching up with sec friends was good today, just that poor ruby wasn't feeling well.

Haha, i have crazy friends in poly, weird friends in sec, and nice friends in church.

Oh well, it does get nostalgic everytime when the year is ending.

Actually i don't really think a new year means a new beginning.

It is more of moving to the next year in doing better and greater things to me bah :)

Merry Christmas!

This year's christmas is dull.

I'm staying home on a christmas eve to do school work.

No life.

My heart is sooo yes but my head is sooo no.

Things are still hard.

Xmas celebration with poly friends was well :)

No rain so bbq went smoothly!

Just that i got pretty restless halfway through, was feeling quite bored.

But i had been a very good girl cos i didn't drink at all! Haha.

Poor kenneth was drunk and the guys kept disturbing him, tsktsk.

& YJ caught me another big xmas snoopy & woodstock! Yay she's awesome! ^^

Hope today's weather will be good!

& everything else too.

Project meetup was a failure today as well, hmm.

Only me and the guys were present so didn't do anything at all.

So thereee, wasted my day doing nothing.

Went to shop around with joo before she went for her class.

She accidentally broke something and the whole process was so interesting.

I think we're so cool lah cos we were so calm, hehehe.

But then again, i tried "negotiating" with that malay girl cos apparently the glass ball was already detached from the figure so it dropped off without us knowing.

Well and the ball was supposed to be attached to the figure!

It's very much the shop's problem cos they shouldn't put a spoilt item on sale -.-

So anyway, i still lost cos the girl just kept quiet all the way and just insisted we should pay.

Wth, didn't want to call out the manager cos i think they will still say the same thing.

So tada, joo bought that thing home in the end. Lol.

Bbq tmr again so hope it won't rain haha, if not i nothing to say liao.

Snoopy kite! (although his face abit out of shape)

But still, cute stuff!!!

Done with getting xmas gifts today.

Didn't spend alot this year though, only bought for exchange and stuffs.

No much mood for christmas due to school :(

Accompanied my cousin out today, had a meal and walked around.

I was self-praising myself all the way through :P

Wahahaha sometimes must like that to boost self esteem lol!!!

My house felt as though as if the whole world is here recently -.-

Mum invited so many of her friends yesterday and today...then suddenly my house is like so crowded. Tsktsk.

Dad talked to me this morning and asked about my studies and all.

As usual he spoke in cantonese and i think he quite understand my chinese so the whole conversation was quite amusing.

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I appreciate your encouragements :)

My stressed face, lol.

Currently also having this face cos TTB assignment sucks :(

Going out now, bye!

Hope you're coping fine 'cause i'm here and...still the same, trying.

Sooo tiring. Finally skit is over! :)

I think i looked damn amusing in that shepherd's attire lah, all the kids laugh :(

Lol but i think it's still cool cos we have people coming to us and wanting to take photos with the crew haha!

I think i'm so going to miss my former cellmates when they all leave next year :(

Okayyy, shall take the week to chiong my school work as fast as possible.

No more procrastination.

Craving for gooood mushroom soup btw, wahahaha.

Busy meter exploding.

Xmas skit's happening today and tmr! :)

We all looked super funny in those clothings btw, hahaha.

Hope everything goes well! For me i hope my voice won't be too awful, haha.

Gonna be pretty occupied with christmas and school at the same time.

So sian, cannot enjoy the holiday break in peace.

Need to start chionging my two reports asap T_T

Ok byeeee.

I think my flu's gone but now coughing and sore throat is kind of here :O

Better be in good health cos this weekend i would be performing skit in church! Hehe.

Last rehearsal tmr night and there goes the finale on saturday and sunday.

Haha quite cool cos my cell is doing it together, unity :)

Ended up going out today instead of doing work, lol.

Oh well, need a break i guess.

Feeling lazy to start on assignments, zzz.

Sian. I just can't stand it when i am being misunderstood, or rather when my message isn't delivered across clearly. It sucks to be trying to put into words what i'm trying to express and explain. Then end up spoiling relationships, what is this man. Three of such incidents at one go somemore, is this crap or what.

Tsk.

Screwed up one question in accounts paper, oh mannnnn.

But the comforting point is almost everyone did the same mistake lol.

Oh well. Term break is hereeeee :)

Although i will still be very busy but at least can rest awhile.

Had a reeeally long day today, exhausted.

Everytime you speak my heart skips a beat.

So near, yet so far.

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Runny nose today, aww.

And hope tmr paper will be fine for me, jyjy!

Had a shock last night to know that zac bought me a puppy for xmas :O

Oh man...but too bad i can't keep it cos of my parents :(

But nvm, at least i gave him a name. Hope he will do well at zac's neighbour place lol.

The weather here is seriously crazy leh, so hottttt! Zzz.

Ok i'm off to study~

It is seemingly almost impossible to control.

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Running mind. Lingering thoughts. Alive feelings.

All the time.

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Will do review paper tmr, i only read through my notes today but that's an achievement still!

Although i don't like accounts but i hope at least i can do better than last sem x_x

Time to start chionging for accounts paper.

Like seriously...i hate it and i suck in that :(

Will be a good girl and study hard for the next two days.

Thank God only one paper on wednesday for mid-sem.

I miss you.

That's something vulnerable.

Vulnerability.

Tired like mad.

Yawnnnnnnnn.

Because my heart is still you.

At the end of the day, what still lingers on my mind is you.

Sian. I'm like deprived of sleep, no quality sleep.

Everyday like some robot like that.

Kinda sick of doing projects and using so much of my brain thinking.

Thank god it's the last week of school this week before the term break starts.

I need to catch some air to breathe from school.

Tomorrows seem so long.

Whole day out for museum outing -_-"

Lol all thanks to projects. But had a good time still, so not that bad even though i hated the hot weather and tiredness.

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Each day feels like its passing by so slowly...although nothing much for me to look forward to but...

Had bbq at night with friends...just got home.

No school today so still alright. Just that i made my dearest yeejoo wait for v long...sorry! :(

But well. Too bad it rained but good thing we still managed to do out bbq in the end lol.

The guys were amazed and commented that i can still keep my cool after drinking, haha.

Lame one lor kena by the games -_-"

Oh well but that's not the point la, hope alanna and zh are fine.

K gotta go, school early tmr, nights.

Honestly, although shouldn't be and can never be, i wished the one there with you is me.

Can't help it but to think...wonder...all the time...

Looked through my past photos and realised i really become fatter alr, gosh.

Haha last time i was really skinny!

Somehow you feel so far away although you're still so close in me.

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Take good care, enjoy and...maybe relief yourself...

Till then.

This is random but i love my wavy hair :)

Lol.

Strange to have people telling me that they're at nex mall opposite my house.

I think the birth of the mall gave people more reasons to meet up with me, hurhur.

Hardest is the struggle in times like these
For my world was a better place with u and me
With every love song that speaks of me
No words are enough to make it complete

Darkest are the tormenting nights
Where fear and pain meet in time
Hardened is the fragile heart inside
Silent tears flowing through grey eyes

Like a waterfall those feelings run
Into the ocean, drowned in the sun
For when the stars lose its shine
All was done for the better in time

Praying through the endless nights
That in the name of love will all be fine
Beautiful are memories kept in mind
In my heart would all stay for life

Take care, enjoy, have a well deserved rest.

Glad that the weekend is here, finally can rest!
My week had been mad busy.
Got two results back today but no A :(
Sian, need to do harder.
Ttb lesson today so malu cos awong asked me to go up to the board and do and i dunno!!! Omg.
Ended up everybody got applause i dun have :( lol.
But i really can't rmb mah...tsk so bully.

But anyway my weekend gonna be busy as well...working tmr for yj.
Cell rehearsing soon though, my day's still long...bye.

Oh btw i think my fb photo is quite cute hehe. Pokemon psyduck! Ok la quite lame and very not me but apparently it's for supporting children association of preventing abuse so just for the good and fun of it la :)

No, not going to be any sooner.

I don't deny that i still think of you often, wondering about what and how you're doing.

It is a fact that i don't know how long will it's going to take.

It is also true that apparently my feelings aren't going anywhere.

December's Resolution:

1. the both of us would feel better in time to come.

Alright, i just realised i haven't been blogging for like three days already.

My week have been really crazy, it's like the wake-up-go-school, go-home-need-sleep.

Had been waking up very early for school, going home late due to many appointments and plans.

Not that i'm trying to keep myself so mad busy...it is like really very busy :(

I just came back home from a regional chalet in church at aloha changi -_-"

I am dead tired now like seriously...past midnight alr sigh.

Thank you for your concern, i feel happy for that.

As much as I'm trying, I hope you're feeling better too.

Although it really pains, but once again i know it's for better sake and everything else.

Thanks, really appreciated your thoughts.