Everything's fine, thank you :)

Except probably my accounts.

So nice of qad to ask anw ♥

Was at glutton's bay last night having dinner with a few of my church friends.

Don't like the crowd when going home though, cos of the yog or ndp rehearsal, seemed like the whole singapore is out there -_-"

Really ks leh lol.

I was rather restless today also, don't know what to do at home.

But there ARE things to do lah.

Lazy to copy lecture notes and doing anything else.

So i ended up watching a new drama hahaha (oops).

Hope this week can faster end!

Cos i'm always looking forward to qt ^^

The littlest things may take up the most room in your heart,

But the shortest times may also be the happiest time of your days.

Boring day.

Woke up super early to catch breakfast with joo before our morning lessons.

Weather was sosososoooo cold today!!!

I was telling winnie that people have moodswings, i have weatherswings.

Haha i don't like rainy weathers, it makes my mood dull.

Although i love it when i can nua at home, but i don't like the gloomy gloomy feeling.

And so, i was trying to kill time and make today end faster cos i was feeling so restless.

Yes, next week is last week of sch semester! Can't waitttttt.

Anyway, i met one of my primary school classmate on the bus while going home.

Woah then i like suddenly became very gentle LOL.

I don't know, maybe cos she's soft and stuffs or maybe cos i start thinking of those days -_-"

Weekend is here again, time to rest abit moreee.

Just a quick one.

Wasn't on time today for marketing test.

But still, managed to do the paper. Hope can score well!

Hot and cold today due to weather and aircons, zzz very bad for health like that leh.

Jap roleplay, my group didn't perform very well lah cos got some lags.

First time speaking jap although i don't really understand what i'm saying haha.

But good thing is for now all tests and projects cleared! Whee.

Except for one last one, which is ssm project next tues.

But that one is based on service so yup.

Very long day tmr! Wanna faster sleep now cos i'm sososo tired.

Today's weird.

The weather's bad, and people around me are either feeling down or sick or troubled. Make me feel weird also.

Hmm anyway, didn't use my brain much today.

Stoning most of the time...bleah.

Oh and i'm having such a hard time thinking of what to eat everyday!

What's worse is that there's nothing i feel like eating -.-

Sigh jialat.

Ok going to study.

Marketing test and jap roleplay and duty tmr.

Physically and mentally tireddd.

Being headwaiter/assistant sucks man.

I thought i can slack abit cos assistant only.

Ended up being very busy and helping others with their work.

So after today, i realised that i'm actually too nice.

But i guess mr malik was quite nice to me and sharon.

At least he talked to us after operation and asked who bully us lol!

Oh well but it's over anyway.

I'll never ever enter into f&b anyway so ssm doesn't bother me much.

Project final week next week for ssm!

Hope we'll hit the 1.7k sales target if not my grades will fly.

Anyway i think the school has become smarter.

I actually intended to skip classes and take mc sometime this or next week.

But apparently the school somehow made it in a way that every class has got smth important...either have test or get back class test or project grade or wadever. Then make me have no reason to skip, grrr.

School life is dull. I also don't find what i typed interesting.

So tada. I wanna sleep asap~

Half full or half empty

I think i don't know how to distinguish between suppressing and controlling anymore. Feels like a mixture sometimes.

Glad that at least i received your msg today cos i thought i really wanted to talk to you.

No idea why but i guess it's just that want-to-reach-you feeling.

Thinking of you too much maybe? Haha.

Anyway, independence period is here again.

This time for 9 days. Not that bad cos the longest one was 12days i think.

Parents are in china now.

Mum asked me to settle some stuffs but today i was told that i needed her singpass account.

Sian, i don't have it and she's gone in another place and deadline's before she returns.

Yeah crap, I think i'm gonna get hell from her when she returns.

Went to school today even though i don't have to -.-

Consultation with mr malik about tmr's operation.

I, being the assistant headwaiter tmr better hope i don't screw things up!

Hope we can hit the sales target of 1.6 as well.

Hopefully luh...cos this week's food like not very nice lol.

Did some grocery shopping before heading home.

Bought only a few stuffs cos my mind couldn't think.

Next time then continue buying.

Need to survive on meals so i've decided to prepare different food for myself when i'm free enough :)

Though i'm not a very kitchen person, but for myself or special reasons i don't mind hehe!

Busy busy week ahead.

& 11 more days!

Longlonglong day.

I hope you had a good day too... :)

Hmm I think i've really learnt and grown more in my thoughts.

No longer that "selfish" and thinking "too much".

Like josh said today, i look much more mature than actual! Haha.

Church today, was very ministered by the sermon and thanks kyann for giving me so much encouragement during service :)

Hmm then had teachers' meeting in the afternoon.

Quite inspiring sharing by the speaker though.

Dinnered with the rest after that.

I think life's getting more relaxed now with lesser school work burdens.

Ok gonna rest today too and start studying tmr, gambate~

I almost thought today won't have le but yay.

Even though it's awhile but also happy :)

Life has been nicer to be now.

I'm only left with jap roleplay and marketing test next week.

So today i just slacked my day away hehe.

Started on a new drama again, hahaha :P

Consistency in self-discipline is pretty hard sometimes.

I think i should blog more about myself when i'm less busy.

Stuffs concerning more about my own self rather than my happenings i guess.

Life that revolves only around sch most of the time is seriously mundane.

I'm sososo tired.

Today's gonna be another long dayyy.

Tutorial, lecture, two meetups, test, and cell at night after school.

Last night came home late after airport duty.

Mum kinda irritated me so i lost my cool(happened again this morning).

I don't understand what is she thinking, seriously.

I've enough things to care about ok.

Anywayyy, weekend is here!

Although no much difference to me but at least i can rest a little little more :)

Ok ciao!

Sometimes a bear needs a hug too

I was reading through my notes and guess what i saw:

Barrier: Burnout

- too much to do, too little time! (very true!!!)

- burnout will:

1. decrease concentration (yes)

2. create short fuses (still-ok)

3. cause constant complaining (sometimes)

4. lead to less sense of joy (guess so)

-need to:

1. exercise (never)

2. don't neglect own needs (uh dun think i am)

3. set targets and rewards (nothing for me to set)

4. cherish relationships (i do! :D)

Although i dun think there's any link with what i was studying, but oh well i find it very relevant to me!

Hahaha i think i was quite burn out for the past month.

But at least now not so...cos the sem is ending in two weeks!

Two more weeks to end of airport duty, end of ssm, end of this sem!

Hehe sorry i think i keep repeating but i just can't wait!

Nice weather to be sleeping this morning though, aw.

I think racial harmony day is coming soon, is it or is it not?

Aiya but doesn't matter to me also.

Marketing presentation wasn't prepared that well, was kinda last minute.

First group first speaker for me somemore, so nervous leh!

But people say my ppt slides very nice! Haha tyty :D

Very relieved that projects are all cleared! Phew.

Like finally...dunno had been dying with them for like two months ago.

Up ahead would be left with tests and one more presentation and finally main exams in sept.

Time isn't passing by that fast now, somehow.

& I think i should eat lesser, my wallet is getting empty :(

Anw I love qad's msg at night cos at least it tells me that someone under the sky is doing(and will do) the same thing as me :) ♥

Surprisingly i passed my hair grooming recently for two weeks.

Either the tutors close one eye or i've already mastered some skill in geling and spraying my hair.

Was very busy today doing waitress, kept walking around and around clearing things.

Made me exercise alot! But time passed faster so not that bad.

Next week assistant headwaiter! Woah stress.

Two more weeks to go, die also must endure.

Just realised another report is also due this fri instead of next fri :(

Another thing to rush again.

Damn tired.

People say when you're lack of one hour of sleep, you need three hours to recover from it.

If that's the case i think for me now i no need to wake up already~

My eyes are barely opening +_+

Still not done with portfolio yet, will chiong asap (argh sian).

Went to meet kyann at novena just now for mentoring at velocity.

Long time since i ate donuts :D

Short time but still had a good time catching up after two weeks, hahaha.

Week is starting again, haiz.

Nvm hang in there, 18 more days.

Anyway, the exam timetable is out!

But i don't really like it, cos holiday starts super late this sem!

3 papers: 7sept, 13sept, 14 sept.

I'm only starting school holiday in mid sept!!! That's very sad.

Although only 3 papers but 3 very tough subjects!!!

Will catch up and study hard in august during study break.

Plans for the day:

- BESE Portfolio

- Mentoring session

I think the portfolio alone can kill me today.

I'm only starting and i hope i have something to write!

♥

I snoozed my alarm 6 times this morning :O

Really dead tired.

Did not go to church today though, cos of project meetup.

Missed CC again, i bet the teachers must be wondering where on earth am i lol.

But anyway it was great to see qad hehe.

Although i was in the very tired mood but i still loved it :)

So, met up with project group at bishan library.

Told them the lib won't have space they don't believe.

Ended up really no space loh, we went to the lib cafe eventually.

Lunched at j8, and headed back to lib cos they couldn't find any power plugs.

Ha they funny la, go here go there.

Sat at some small sofas chairs against the walls cos the power supply was there.

I guess i've finished my "part" on that project.

And now i have to do the whole marketing ppt for the upcoming presentation this wed.

Ughhh school work is freaking never-ending.

Want to sleep want to sleep want to sleeeeep.

The farewell party went very well!

I'm very glad that everyone enjoyed and loved it.

All my efforts and time was very worth it :)

Didn't expect everyone to be so enthu lol.

But still, it was a successful event personally for me (cos i am the "host" haha).

& what makes today even better was qad! :)

Yup but still, cruel life is back after tonight.

Sch work and more and more sch work!

Hope everything will go well today!

I've prepared much for this, so i hope the four of them will have a happy farewell tonight.

:)

My day was damn long.

9am lesson until now then settled down.

Totally very dead today, somemore very stress for accounts test which is like at 6pm.

The paper was tough, that's all i can say.

I think i kinda screw it up, esp for the last qn.

Zzz, hope i can pass leh, at leeeeeast.

Next week gonna be another hectic week again.

But for now i'm gonna prepare for the farewell party tmr.

Got lots to do! & not forgetting my school work as well sighz.

Glad that the weekend is here though, can at least breathe a little!

Back from airport duty.

I'm going to burn midnight oil tonight and study for accounts test which is horribly tmr evening.

Jiayou shereennnn.

Actually i think i will screw it up but at least don't screw until so bad so i shall try to study even though i don't really understand.

Can do it.

I shall try to survive today and tomorrow.

Gonna be needing coffeeeee.

Craveee

Oh yeah i'm so craving for ice creams now.

Not because i'm feeling happy but more of stress probably, hahaha.

I think i'm going to screw up my tests for tmr and friday, zzz.

Two tutorials today. I just stoned my day through haha.

Skipped tto lec cos i wanted to come home and study.

Hate it when bus rides are so long and i have to waste so much time travelling.

Boring. There's nothing to blog about for school.

23 more days to the end of this semester and towards study break!

Ugh, i'm horribly tired.

Woke up at 5am, did things faster today cos had to report v early.

So anyway, started sugarloaf today, three more freaking weeks to go!

Operation is seriously very tiring.

Did express today, pushcart around the school to sell food with two other people.

Managed to hit the sales target but sadly didn't sell finish everything.

Mostly were lecturers who bought the food, and all others were from my friends whom i persuaded them to buy from me, lol.

Next week waiter position, sian!

Oh, and i did think of qad once in awhile today!

See, i said i'd be distracted, haha.

So pathetic lor, supposedly could be in heaven but ended up stuck in hell in school.

& Where got energy to study alr :(

Die alr loh, my jap test and accounts test.

I'm only left with like tmr to study cos thursday i have duty at night?

I don't like this at all leh...everyday also so stress.

& i hope my mum can stop buying durians back home.

It stinks!!!

Feel the love ♥

Hmm, time passed sooo fast that i wished i could stay longer.

But still, it's awesome :) *misses*

No mentoring session today so i stayed home and rush project.

Literally did the whole itinerary and find photos etc etc for the whole day.

Damn sian, i'm like so china-minded now cos my group is doing on yunnan.

But at least i've done most of my part, so i should faster go study for my other tests.

(but i got a feeling i still have to help out others -.-)

I asked my mum for her brochure itinerary cos apparently my parents are going yunnan end of the month too.

But sadly it didn't help me much at all lah.

School is making me very no life and dull and boring, ugh.

I think i'm so going to be distracted tmr lorrrr.

Sian why tuesday...my heart is like dying to go with qad!

Stupid ssm...but too bad other days also cannot.

Nvm, shall wait for another time like this :)

Sian, another week awaiting.

Test here test there, v sick of it man.

Sooo tired.

Another mundane week coming ahead :(

Don't know how am i going to survive again.

I have like :

1. tto project 2 (need to rush)

2. jap test on thurs

3. accounting test on fri (this one very jialat)

4. probably farewell party for cell on sat

4 big things to squeeze in this week!

Sigh, i dunno how man.

Last minute had to push forward the farewell, so meaning i have to rush all my preparations also. Still have to confirm it as well.

Oh well oh well.

Hope this week will pass by faster though.

I can't wait for the semester to end in august.

Aimless but i like it ^^

I still miss you! Haha anything with you is always the best :)

Love ya ♥

Anw, i'm still feeling half awake though, very sleepy.

Ended up not doing anything today, haha!

Shall have dinner and sleep early today, i need my quality sleep.

Oh, disappointment.

Didn't think that mark-up price will come out for the paper.

I didn't memorise the formula! And i also forgot.

But whichever the case, i just didn't know how to do the last qn.

Ten marks gone :(

I hope i still can manage a B...? I don't know.

What on earth happen to my As???

This sem sucks, i'm not doing up to my expectations :(

I think i need to boost my self-esteem now, haha.

Feeling tired, i think i'm going to nap soon.

Still got school work to do though, sigh. Shall either do tutorial or project today.

So sian, another mundane weekend.

Hope i won't waste too much time away.

Aw, and i miss you!

Walau i'm damn tired now. Had been a very draining day for me.

Haven't stop using my brain since 9am in the morning.

Last tutorial was torturous cos we weren't supposed to even look tired cos he said he can see from our eyes.

& I kept on getting called by him to answer qns, wth -.-

So you can imagine how hard i was trying to "stay awake"? Zzz.

Seriously tired.

Tto test tmr in sch at 10am! Sian.

Rahhh, i'm like feeling so freaking tired now!

Duty ended later last night cos we all were held back to celebrate amanda's birthday.

And i missed the usual bus :(

& I was feeling so tired like anything when i reached home.

Now i have to wake up so damn early for a super long tutorial!

Sian. & lecture and more tutorial today. Zzz.

But last night i had a nice dream though, haha although it was a very short one :P

Anyway! Yesterday wasn't the jap listening test so phew!

Another week to study. This time must study for jap alr!!!

Cos the test i did last week was horrible. Totally horrible.

I'm like one of the few bottom and lousiest grade and i'm feeling damn sad.

Ok lah, not VERY cos i know i did not study but still...sobs :(

So next jap test must study le.

Hope it doesn't rain cos i'm rushing to school soon.

Better survive today, i still have to study for the tto test tmr morn!

Very tired! :(

I think tmr even worse since my day's going to be so long.

Jap test today and i didn't study!

Shucks, i think i better read through during marketing lec.

Presentation later!

Anyway i think i've lose weight after falling sick last week.

My pants feel a little looser now :O

Good to have my appetite back though, craving for so much things now lol.

Ok gtg, have a good day!

I was snoozing my alarm away today morning for like one hour!

Can't believe i feel so tired :(

Duty days always make me very tired.

So anyway, went to school in a rather blur-ish mode.

Accounts tutorial once again, still very lost until now.

Better study this week cos next friday got test!

But i think it's very redundant cos sept's end sem exam also got accounts paper -.-

Oh, and i was pretty surprised by my marketing marks.

Thought i wouldn't do well cos i anyhow do the paper, but still i got a B!

Although i didn't get A(which i totally didn't think i would), but it's good that i didn't get a C la.

So now i've got more motivation to study for marketing, teehee.

Vera's boyfriend gave me a lift after class ended cos they were on the way to serangoon as well.

Saved me alot of time travelling home.

But anyway it was nice of vera also, still got think of me :) hahaha.

Ok i better study now before i sleep if not i won't have time already.

Tmr and friday are going to be long days for me.

Duty tmr night again! Very very sian.

Anyway, i hope alanna's feeling better already.

Sorry that this came a little late, but cheer up girl!

I know it's hard but i believe he will want you to move on.

Breakthrough this period and live on with life k, you still have awesome friends around you :)

Feels good to end school so early :)

But sadly these days only happen once in a blue moon.

Had prof test today, which is why ended early.

Was very zombie today morning though cos the sky was still so dark when i left for school.

Kind of reminded me during the old school days where i used to dread waking up so early.

But now i'd rather have that cos sec sch days were so fun compared to now -.-

Anyway, the test was ooo-k lah.

I was freaking out cos i didn't want to tio goh as the tester.

So as usual, my prayers worked and mr tai was my tester! Haha.

Didn't study the menu so being the honest girl ever, i just said "i don't know" to all 3 qns.

But of course i tried the first qn, cos he asked about japanese pork(and i know that one).

Hopefully he gave me 1 mark, lol.

I said that i "didn't intend to get the 7 marks."

Hahaha, very bad student right. Aiya but i really didn't want to score for that.

It's so not worth my time and brain efforts.

Other people memorise like siao but still cannot score cos lack of 1 ingredient out of so many many.

People like me can't be bothered. I rather spend my time and study for other papers.

Shall take a rest later then study.

Going to do my make up duty later on tonight also.

Sian, so my day's still going to be long anyway.

Very moodless cos tonight do alr, thursday still have :(

Sigh, wished i had gone for duty last week.

But nvm, shall hang in there...2 more months of duty!

Wanted to do accounts tutorial today but ended up didn't cos theory questions are very boring and i don't really understand either.

I think i will use the study month in august and really catch up on my accounts.

Hmm and i've got no much mood to study for tto either, so probably i'll just do it tmr and wed and fri.

I know i still have to make up for my airport duty but haiya, throw that aside first.

Had been trying to study the pick-up chart since morning until now, will try to finish reading it later.

But i'm not intending to memorise all the descriptions cos it's impossible.

Don't think i'll do well for prof test tmr anyway la.

Almost recovered now though...finally after one week.

Still feel as though i'm sick though, haha.

Shall try to get out of that mood and stop getting into bed so often.

But i really feel grateful for all the people who showed concern to me over the past week.

It's really nice to have people caring about you :)

I don't know about others but i like! Hehe.

It's going to be another mundane week but i hope it'll be over soon!

Ciao.

Sian, time is passing so slow.

I am distracted alr!

Looks like today is not effective as well.

I think i should just wait until next sem, until ssm and all these er xin subjects are over then get my motivation back.

Who on earth studies a stupid menu chart with so much descriptions?!?!?!

I think tmr i'll just say i don't know and get it over and done with.

Wonder what are you doing now...

I still want to say i love every moment together

♥

Decided to still blog something out after my short nap.

I think i was a little sensitive just now, haha but fine now.

Don't know why i so tired leh, i'm am really wasting alot of my time away :(

I have three tests this coming week and i haven't even started, haiz.

Someone motivate me please!

Dunno if i'm distracted or thinking about other stuffs.

I hope tmr i can concentrate though, hard to say.

Ah, just realised i didn't write july's resolutions!

Ok here's a quick one:

• Tests!
• Projects!
• Presentations!
• Survive july!!!!

Hahaha, ok that was really very quick.

But i'm speaking the truth.

I think other than school and more school, nothing makes up my july.

July sucks, there's nothing i look forward to.

12 more important deadlines lining for me, disgusting.

Ok, shall take some time to blog now.

Anw on a side note, i didn't study today!!!! Hahaha omg.

I was feeling very restless just now after looking at the pickup chart so i'm back on bed again.

So nua until like god-knows-when.

Woke up and realised i haven't eaten lunch and dinner.

Don't know what to have so decided to prepare dinner for myself! :)

Awesome, which is why i am now eating and blogging.

I got myself some patties and sausages and made dinner, teehee.

Grocery shopping is nice, i see so many things that i wanna make for future dinners.

Wanted to do for cousin but she's having dinner outside with her sis so nvm.

Been long since i've done such things.

V happy leh, although not some five star food but i like can alr :P

Anyway, dinner last night with sec friends was rather fine.

Didn't really catch up much due to time, and there were around 9 of us.

Oh and i was feeling quite sian, probably due to my tiredness.

Junyi was very funny, can't help laughing at him.

He asked me weird stuffs like how different was his hair and my chinese name and he commented that i've become fairer -_-"

And the best part was he said he wanted to remain a virgin forever and everyone laughed lol.

We went to serangoon gardens, had a long time settling down.

Didn't have much appetite so didn't eat much thereafter.

And i left early with andre cos i was tired and wanted to go home.

Alright, something interesting which i wanted to share about days ago.

Last few days during apel lesson, we had a very interesting lesson.

Cos apel class was the last one for year 2 this sem alr, so our tutor made us do an activity.

She had everyone to put a piece of paper behind our backs, and we were supposed to go around the class and write for one another.

We could write what we appreciate about each other or anything, just something nice.

And having it on our back is so that we wouldn't know who was the person who wrote the message.

Ok la, at first i thought it was quite lame, but after that i realised my classmates write v nice things abt me leh! Haha.

These were the messages on my paper:

Thanks for the gr8 job for BESE! =) - this one is from sheena

One of my best mate in class! Love eating with you after accounts lessons! :P - winnie, hahaha

Thank you for being a great friend! Ps i love u - this one v freaky, i dunno who

Your awesomely pokeable! - confirm freya

Hello! Thanks for smiling! You have a sweet smile :) - dunno who

You are awesome at doing group project! - dunno who

Hello you're a good classmate! Nice having you as a classmate this sem! - dunno who

Yo, all the best to you and be blessed! :) - yiyuan

Auntie you damn funny! - confirm is desmond

Love your smile! :) - dunno who

Love your smile! - should be tutor(from the handwriting)

Other disturbing message from jairus ang:

Hello you like to nag & you look like pikachu - he damn childish right! -.-

So yup, after looking at everything i noticed something.

I didn't realise i actually smile in school -_-"

I mean seriously man, i thought i was very dao and serious in class.

But people like my smile leh, hahahaha.

There were some people in class i didn't write for and they didn't write for me either...cos not close to them at all so abit weird luh.

Ok i hope my cough will go away soon.

Looking forward to my quality time! ♥

Still very sleepy and zombie-ish.

But better study abit today if not i'll be really ineffective on the weekend.

Feeling much better now, only random coughs once in awhile.

Hmm, just managed to rush back home.

Going to meet sec friends soon for dinner, should catch up also.

Presentation was fine, so phew. Tgif, another week over.

Shall blog about some other stuffs some other day cos i realised my posts had been very sickish, haha.

Miss ya!

Had been a tiring day for me today.

But still, a day without duty is awesome.

Wished i can not make it up but sigh...

Now i have a problem with choosing which day on earth to go make it up.

Anyway, throat is better now although i'm still sick.

Still need alot alot of rest.

But glad that the week is ending...the week had been really lousy ):

Haiz, being sick is really the last thing i've ever want.

Somemore this time is very very serious.

Today's prof test wasn't very well done though.

But thank god i got red wine, hehehe.

Everyone throw the dice got white, i anyhow throw but get red, got skill :P

But still, screwed it up abit here and there.

Jap test lagi worse, i was literally guessing almost every question.

50 mcqs, i was either trying to recall back from tutorial class or based on intuition.

Should be able to pass lah cos it wasn't very difficult.

Oh well. Very unmotivated this sem.

Ok wanna go rest soon.