Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Emptiness.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Nothing can get sadder than not knowing how to be happy.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Sometimes I live my life as if everything's fine. Guess most people are like that as well.

But who are you really deceiving? 

Friday, February 24, 2012

Human nature.

Lets face the practicability of humans - they are all selfish.

Parents think that we should follow the default by going to university, further our studies, get a proper paper certification so that we can make it big in the society and earn a living. You may think, they hope for the best for us - could be true. But. The reality behind this truth is that they hope so because then, we will be able to give a good life by earning big bucks and they can just shake leg - they think it is a must and a need and they deserve it. What's worse? Because of our educational background and even our career paths, they use it as a form of showing off to friends and relatives. Ultimate motive? For their own face and their life. Where did that "support" from parents gone to?

Some friends who are going with the flow are doing it for the sake of doing it because they want to appear "well to do" and educated beings in the society. They are kiasi and kiasu, scared that if we are not doing the same as what others are doing, then we will be seen as the odd one out. How many friends out there genuinely concerns about what you LIKE to do and WANT to do? Do they just tell you that you SHOULD be doing what they are doing and just push you to be like them, so as to be grouped under the same social circle together? And yes, we do have friends around us who are like that - for the sake of a social life. True friends will never be as such.

Superiors(past bosses, managers etc) may seem to appear caring and friendly - they ask about what are we doing, how are doing and what do we plan to do. You may think that is some form of concern and keeping in touch - wait a moment. This is part of their strategy to make you work for them because they need such people like us who may have some form of advantage or benefit to them. Communication in the working life has become so grey that I myself, is starting to doubt the root of every speech that is being made.

Highlight of this post? We are always just alone because everyone is selfish. 

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Alright, I think I've neglected my blog somehow ever since I started working - this showed that i am REALLY busy. Aha, busy does not mean enjoying life by the way.

Here's my definition of busyness:
- not enough sleep
- too many things to do aka things to do are never ending
- not enough time
- feeling stress!

Why stress? Final poly year + working + church commitments.

Although that damn research paper is over now, but now is the worrying stage - i hope i can pathetically PASS it, especially when i have a tutor who is so...ugh. And I just can't wait to get over the stupid interview 'cause I think that's totally redundant. Hate to see my tutor again and get humiliated and insulted and whatever you can think of. I don't think I will do well for it, but oh well.

Can't wait for school to be out of my life so that I can focus fully on work as well.

Life still sucks in some way though...guess I'll never know how to be happy, sigh.


Wednesday, February 15, 2012

I'm trying to lose weight but I'm always hungry :(

Too stress.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

I just can't wait to get over and done with school. Don't care whether do well or not, just want it to be over so that I can stop being so burdened and sian and stressed with so many commitments on hand :'(

Totally not in the mood for fyp, especially when we have sucky tutors, bleh.


Thursday, February 09, 2012

Motivation at its rest.

The last lap feels so close yet so far.

Don't underestimate the power of 15mins - it can make or break someone's day.

Tuesday, February 07, 2012

I realised I haven't been blogging much recently - other than being emo and more emo -.- duh, hopelessly speechless at myself sometimes.

Life has been too happening lately; mentally and emotionally. Undergoing many many changes over the year, and still unsettled at the moment. But I'm heading towards a new direction right now, and I know what I want.

Graduating really soon, new phase new focus :)

Ciao for now!


Saturday, February 04, 2012

Cant sleep.

How much more of me to go through so much more of us? I guess, it's never enough.

Taken for granted.