June's resolutions:

• Exam this wed
• VDC (children's camp in church this wed & thurs, need to help out)
• PnP meeting this friday
• Relatives & nieces coming to sg next week
• School's field trip 7 June
• 3 projects to do
• Study for jap test & Prof test by starting of school
• Entre business proposal
• Plan for next month cell's farewell
• Prepare two sun lessons for children church class

Zzzzzzz.

Had been out the whole day yesterday, from like morning to until night.

Church, then went to do some errands, den went to meet cousins.

So i was like totally dead last night alr.

But dinner was awesome though(cos of the nice food hehe)

Ok. Gonna start studying alr!!!

This week gonna be another busy week.

Next week even busier -.-

Attempt to study accountings: Only almost there.

Oh yeah, my engine started off well in the beginning.

But i got so sleepy until i fell asleep eventually, lol.

Ok lah, at least i did study a little.

Monday and tuesday then mug harder cos tmr i'm not gonna be free.

Dinner soon!

The best times always pass by soooo fast.

Lets just look forward to the next meetup :)

Anyway, i just wanted to share with you and update you on some of my stuffs.

It doesn't mean that i have any intention of whatever you may think k my dear.

And just letting you know how i feel and stuffs cos i feel v sian about it :(

So don't have that kind of thinking k...wo ai ni hen duo hen duo de :)

Haha, and at least i'm v proud of myself that i managed to improve on my self-control skills.

Although it still may be hard to control you-know-what, but at least i'm doing it :)

And as much as my overflowing mind can't resist thinking of everything about you,

Just know that someone's here missing you! :D

& Cheer up my beloved qad!

You sian, i also don't feel any better.

I also feel just as sian but with you everything feels much better.

Sometimes I don't know what to say cos i don't want to disturb your busy mind.

Which is why i always end up gazing at you, heh.

But still, just wanna say jiayou! I'll always be here for you :)

V sweet post, i know.

Wahahaha :P

"You so pretty, no bf?"

It's easy to read guys sometimes.

Sian, all i feel like doing today was to sleep -_-"

Like very sleep deprived like that.

Anyway, just realised i have SO MUCH of work to complete over this two weeks.

Gosh, don't even want to list them cos it's madness.

I shall start studying accountings tmr.

Cousin(M): eh sg no sports car one, all honda nia

Me: have leh, you never see only

Cousin(M): i want to see ferrari/lambo that kind

Me: have la. eh why you wear the pouch?

Cousin(F): he want to look beng mah

Me: what?! bengs here dun wear like that lar

Cousin(M): (walk back to room) eh shereen say i look like robber, i dun wan to bring alr

HAHA, didn't know my cousin so sensitive one :P

My dearrr...you're being missed very much.

So very much.

I have a weakness for you.

I'm dead tired now so i'm only blogging tmr.

Byebye.

& i'm v glad that the term break is here :)

i finally can breathe and rest properly for at most two weeks!

You have no idea how sian i was feeling today.

Wanted to msg qad but was thinking what if i spread my sian-ness, den not so good mah.

And then i didn't really want to disturb also, so ended up controlling hahaha.

Woke up feeling tired and all.

Didn't do well for bese test last week, sobs.

Gotta work hard for the project le :'(

Stoned through acccounting tutorial as usual.

Was seriously feeling v restless and moody.

Better hope i'm not burning out yet, haha.

Got kinda panicky to rush out my service reflection and to draft out a draft for marketing cos we didn't know there was a consultation going on.

Hmm, and i skipped two lectures today.

Gonna be so dead but i will be studying on my own at home so still o-k.

I know i have self discipline, heehee.

So basically came back slightly earlier to study for my marketing test tmr.

Tons of pages and i'm so chionging it now.

After tmr den start to slowly study for accounts and do projects.

My cousin who just got married came over to singapore last night.

Didn't get to see 'em cos i was asleep alr and they're going to be out for like whole day for everydays...like now, i think they just ended their day at the jurong bird park, ha!

Ok i should stop spending my time here and continue to study.

Bye.

Good & Bad day!

Good cos today's the last day of operation at top table!(which is the killer).

Wahaha, and break for the next two weeks during term break.

Free for two tuesdays man, isn't that awesome.

But bad cos couldn't see qad :(

V sian lor, so incomplete.

Oh well, anyway, despite hating ssm so much, today was quite fun.

Cos i was the bartender! Quite fun in making the drinks.

Made brewed coffee and mocktail.

Got skills now already, hahahaha.

But halfway through my stomach felt uncomfortable :(

But good thing it didn't last for long, thank god.

Tmr's going to be a very long and sian day.

Sian sian sian.

No matter what life brings and how days may seem,

Just know that in your heart is where I'd always stay and be.

Sighhh, apparently, i always have to feel so stress every weekday.

But i'm trying hard to motivate myself as this week is the "last week" of the horrible school term before exam and break comes.

So yes, going by the human nature way, i just got to keep reminding myself of this.

& because it's vesak day this friday, all make ups stuff are squeezed into this week.

Which means my tuesday to thursday is gonna be crap. Seriously crap.

Bartending tmr, i hope all the guests don't order coffee drinks! Soft drinks/juices pls :)

Cos the recipes are madness and i haven't memorise any of it.

But i'm gonna copy it to my notebook and put it at the bar while i do it.

Or better still, i hope my partner will do 'em and i just help in washing the glasses, lol.

Gonna be tough and busy, just imagine yeejoo and her whole class is coming -.-"

Things i did/tried to do today:

1. service reflection (700 words, nearly killed all my brain cells)

2. accounting tutorial(this one drove me nuts, still haven't complete)

3. bartending notes (read through halfway)

4. marketing project (haven't do, tmr den do)

5. marketing test (will chiong over next two days)

Hate the weather today.

No wonder global warming has become such a serious issue.

Pity the polar bears.

Breakfast, church, lunch today.

Can't wait for this week to end, cos after that:

1. ssm shall continue only after term break(awesome)

2. no need to wake up so early

3. no need to feel so busy and stress and sian

Everything's just better when the term break comes.

Although there's like all the tests but still better than curriculum.

Time to do work, study and prepare for school all over again.

What a sad cycle.

Gonna sleep well tonight and rush everything i have to do tmr.

Going to school on a saturday morning is sianness.

The trip's briefing was just a waste of time man, seriously.

They could just post up online mah, zzz.

Later on did project in school till noon, then kinda rush back to do some stuffs.

So many things to do~~~

Busy busy...ok going out to do dinner now.

Time never seems to be enough.

Rough overview of today:

• i suck in tour costings
• still didn't break jaslyn's high score in scoops
• crapped through my bese test
• cell was ok but everything was damn chim
• still in the process of chionging out our first project submission

Anyway, gonna be another long and happening day tmr as well as sunday.

I guess qad will be too! :)

I dreamt of oreo cookies...?!?!???!!!@£$%^&*(

Long day again!

But at least the weekends are here, improved my mood by 5%.

Just got home and i need to rush out my proposal before i sleep!

Sigh x 10000, i'm sososo tired.

Jap presentation today, didn't start off that well cos my words were stumbling.

Haha but oh well, at least it's over.

Test tmr~

Still trying to break jaslyn's high score on yj's iphone :P

Although it's abit wrong to play during marketing lecture, but...you know...

Ok, rush project & sleep!

Damn it, i'm like more tired everyday ever since tuesday.

Hate to repeat it but this sem seriously sucks!!!

Presentation today, should be able to crap through it since it's a short one.

Bese test tmr and i haven't studied for it, zzz.

And i'm gonna be home v late today :(((

Guess i'm left with doing it on the way to school.

In school currently.
Still feeling tired today...difficult to recover tiredness now also, sigh.
Projects and tests are making my life damn stressed now, zzz!
Want to go home soon!

Gosh, totally worn out.

Damn stressed today over ssm.

Made some mistakes during ssm.

But the serving and clearing food and drinks was ok.

Just that those procedures and protocols v confusing, zzz.

Damn tired now.

Next week i bartender!!! =\

Anyway, took a cab today and the uncle didn't start the meter, haha!

Think he's too gong and sick also la...when he sneezed he kept apologising to me.

But i think previously he was some paikia cos of the way he spoke.

But that's besides the point.

He charged me lesser than usual, haha nice guy!

Test and presentation soon!

& i haven't studied/prepare, zzz.

After today gonna chiong all alr, wanna get my sleep first, priority.

Short but lovely moments :)

♥♥♥

Hehe, like qad said, lucky today~

Well but i think it's more to fated :D

Anyway, mentoring session with kyann today.

Had lesson, killed half of my brain cells.

Haha, was kinda dead today somehow.

Sian, the day is ending...means tmr is coming :(

Ssm! Damn sian!

Hope this week pass by faster cos i can't wait to see you again :)

Just came home not long ago.

CC was good today, they had the heart-to-heart session.

I'm gonna teach the kids some lessons soon too! Wahaha.

Gonna be a challenge but i guess at least it'd be some involvement after so long.

Feeling sleepy now actually but still gotta chiong projects and study :(((

So apparently i'm trying to stay awake still.

Mum's off to penang for two weeks le, aww.

I miss penang food, haha.

Gonna be even more busy with more domestic stuffs.

So sian of researching, zzz.

Only managed to complete half of everything.

So exhausting leh...no mood to do anything alr, just wanna sleep.

Hmmm.

Didn't know qad can be so sensitive, haha.

How can that be us...absolutely no lar.

I still love you as much as ever :D *hugs*

:) It's a new day.

Woah but my weekend is gonna be so packed.

1. marketing tutorial

2. accounting tutorial

3. tto research & proposal (lots to do)

4. prepare for jap presentation

5. prepare for bese test

6. prepare for waiteressing

7. bese project research

8. ssm online quiz

myyyy goodness.

Acceptance.

It's always the end of the day which always sums up your day, isn't it?

School was as boring, as draining, as busy and as sian as ever.

Cell lesson was an emotional one just now at night.

It made my heart very heavy.

So much, so overwhelming, so provoking.

There's nothing to be done already...so i could only accept it.

Sad, but what to do...it breaks me just at the thought of the "separation" of us.

All that we've been through, all that made us we, all the time and heart spent...sigh.

There's so much more yet to achieve, to do, to aspire as one.

I don't know...but right now, everything's so confusing and lost.

Guess i'll just need time to get over it and digest everything in.

Eventually it still has to come anyway.

Supper with audrey cos i was rather troubled by this whole church/cell/ministry issue.

Oh well, so yeah...ok time to sleep alr, really very tired.

Still have truckloads of work awaiting for me tmr.

Night world~

Too tired to blog yesterday, had a very long day :(

Today's also another long day:

TTO, Accounting, BSE tut & lec, cell at night.

Sian sian sian.

Had the slowest tutorial on earth every wednesday, which is accounting!

Grrr...but i was a guai student, i did my tutorials beforehand so i was stoning in class for like two hours.

Seriously cannot stand it...one question can take like twenty mins.

But marketing tutorial was so amusing.

We psyched our tutor to combine apel lesson together so that we don't have to come back for lesson after a lecture again.

So eventually we skipped marketing tutorial, wahahaha awesome.

Apel lesson was on love/sex/opposite genders.

Started with: we were supposed to complete our own sentence of "Love is..."

Then followed by what do we look for in a partner.

Then after that she talked about what men wants and what women wants.

Quite true lah i thought...and i kinda "passed" three out of the five points(cos the other two not within my boundaries to do)

Hehe so i thought hey, i make a good partner leh actually :P

Me: Yeejoo! i ate alot today leh...later tell you what i ate.

Jaslyn: Since when you got eat little one?

Zzzzzzz....win liao lor jaslyn! -_-"

So dreading tmr...

SSM test over! So relieved.

But guess what, i kind of screwed it up, boohoo.

My table setting was totally wrong and so wrong.

Took like so long to sanitise and set up the table of four.

Somemore i don't know what cloth to use.

And i took like so many trips instead of only two.

And my equipments weren't perfectly clean -_-"

And my cutleries are all not symmetrically aligned.

Sighhh, so demoralising right, when i heard all these.

Serving was also bad, cos i was nervous until i forgot some stuffs.

I forgot the stupid coaster while serving the glasses! Damn it.

And i also forgot to tell the invisible guests that the plates are hot and be careful.

Haiz...and my protocol was so wrong. So there goes...

Lastly clearing, this was like the best among all(although i thought i suck at it and was worrying over about).

Felt so dumb talking to myself during the test, talking to four people four times -.-

Only mistake was that my arm was not level while holding the two plates, but he didn't minus my mark cos he said i secured the cutleries well, hehe.

That's about it...i hope i can still pass...though it was like quite screwed.

Oh, and i passed grooming for the first time!

Spent like dunno how long spraying and geling my hair this morning.

So so so, did projects after that in school.

My group abit hiong one leh, wanna do two projects in one day -_-"

Anyway, met up with the ladies for early dinner after that to celebrate jaslyn's birthday :)

Happy birthday to her!

I think i shall try not to repeat too many "tired" words in my post everyday =\

I spent most of my day during accounting tutorial -.-

Sigh, stupid thing...made me used so much brain cells on it.

So so so don't like it.

Met up with audrey for a chat & meal after that.

I think i ate alot today, haha.

Cos after that i came home and had dinner with my mum again.

Hahaha, maybe too sian until all i know how to do is eating.

Oh, and i left my umbrella there, shit.

Now i'm really without an umbrella be it whether i'm indoors or outdoors.

Worried for prof test tmr :(

First time a test that is like so horrifying and it's practical!

It's more like testing your strength than anything else loh.

I hope i won't screw things up tmr...just wanna faster get over and done with it.

Even if really did badly also can't help it lor pls.

& no matter how occupied my mind is, i'd be thinking of you still :)

hope you do, too!

Tired, tired, tired.

Church as usual...hope ps km will like the surprise we gave him :)

Lunched with the bishan ppl at bishan today.

But i was like quite dead cos feeling v tired.

Then there was this live competition going on there.

It was the "biggest eater" thingy...instant noodles with wanton -_-"

The winner was a skinny woman loh...dunno how she eat one leh.

Gosh so grossed out...and they're doing it for money..tsktsktsk.

Haven't done tutorials! Sian.

Got held up with project researches.

& I got to start getting mentally prepared for my prof test on tuesday.

Sigh sigh sigh!

Although my mum could be the most ridiculous mother on earth,

Although she has the most unpredictable tempers,

Although she has unending naggings,

Although she's always the one making me angry,

Although she has her flaws,

I still love her, and I'd always do :)

Alright, done quite a fair bit of stuffs today.

- jap presentation proposal

- bese research

- cell's updates

- mentoring goals/expectations

- abit of tto research

Still left with all the tutorials and ssm prof test, zzz.

Jiayou to myself.

& i can't wait to see you again :)

Half the day gone and my day haven't really started, shucks.

Surprisingly i was still not awake yet at 11plus.

Man, that goes to show how tired i really was this week, once again.

But luckily managed to get woken up by sms, even though it was on vibration.

Only had thirty minutes to get up from my sleep, wash up, change and fly over to qad.

It was amazing...felt like as if there was no tomorrow kind of thing, lol.

Just that getting a cab was the frustrated thing, and the traffic jams too.

Saw panther on the road, hehehe i think my eyes only can see panther everytime on the road.

Apparently, i was very half asleep lah...but it was still a great great noon :)

I know i have alot of things to do and stuffs...so sian, don't know how to start.

& i thought probably this week would be tough cos my mind's filled with thoughts regarding cell. Oh well.

Alright i shall not be tempted to rest but chiong as much school work as i can.

Gogogo.

Cutest thing on earth :)

Had a rather long day.

So...tp's totally in a chaos today after school ended at around 11.

The whole campus was like flooded with all kinds of students selling and doing all kinds of things to raise funds.

There were programs lining up to celebrate tp's 20th as well.

So apparently i supported joo's class by buying their super expensive drink and hanged around with zy around.

Bought an appreciation gift for kyann btw :)

& i took two photos with my most adorable hoped for puppy!

Hehe, it was instant shots so tada...very happy :)

The first shot was one which i was hugging it while the second one is the above photo :D

There were six breeds available for photo-taking but i only love this one, haha.

And i thought that their idea was so awesome.

Anyway, left school to meet kyann.

So, the nice and sweet me gave her my beautiful gift which i bought at the school's event.

It was to thank her and encourage her...so ya :)

& in return she bought me back roses! So nice of her too...it was really lovely :)

Had a short chat also...very confused and troubled with church matters so we kinda talked about it.

Guess it's time that i should start thinking about it and get out of this grey patch of dilemma.

Dinnered with gid and kyann and went to church.

Yup, long day.

I'm going to be a good girl tmr and do my projects and tutorials.

& missing you too :)

Half day school today, :)

Although my day is still going to be long, but at least better than school.

Hehe, but thanks to the school's ccn day & 20th anniversary, it made my week packed like siao cos of make up lec and tutorials -.-

Good thing now all cleared...but even though half day, still got to stay back for project.

Haiz, quite pathetic right.

Just got home not long ago. Woah, super tired.

I think it's quite obvious from the way i blogged this week, super short posts.

That goes to show how tired i really was.

Anyway, just before i knock out, just wanna say that i'm glad that trevor and me are back as friends again :)

It's been long...yeah.

I've actually "forgave" him about it long ago...just that i didn't really say it.

And since it's been so long alr, past should be past.

So finally waited until today and we made it up :)

Good to have a friend back in life...happy birthday to him!

Alright time for bed!

Rahhhh so tired...still got to survive till late today.

Brain dead alr, long and tired day.

Accounting drove me nuts today, so chim!

Night world, another long day tmr.

Omgosh i'm like so tired now.

Waiting for yj to send me bse tutorial so i can chiong now before my lesson at 9, hehe.

Sigh, starting to become bad student alr, hmmm.

But can't be helped lah, really very sian recently over school.

Ok have a good day & jiayouuu deeearest :)

Superbly tired.

Ssm today was just as horrible as usual.

But anyway, managed to survive still.

Proficiency test 1 next week, i hope i won't die.

Operation starting following week, sigh sucks.

Ok damn tired, need sleep.

Moving in neither direction.

Feels good after a good bath, i smell good, hehe.

But kinda seh now cos feeling v tired and all.

Met up with kyann today morning for our first session :)

Had a good chat with her, cos i haven't been talking for like a week?

Yeah i mean, i don't really talk during weekdays & at home.

So apparently i only do so on sundays or mondays when i meet up for mentoring.

Had a good time with her though, shared some of my thoughts for the past two weeks.

Left halfway cos of qad, but nvm we shall continue during the next session.

& Although it was quite rushing due to stupid jams, its ok, there's always a next time :)

Feeling very sian now for the next few days...so much stuffs undone.

Sigh, and feeling very tired also.

Hope this week will pass by faster! & in a better way?

Frankly i don't really like this sem...sucks so much.

Good morning world, today i'm going to:

1. meet kyann

2. do jap research

3. do tutorial

4. do tto research(maybe)

5. prepare for ssm tmr again, sian

byebye.

Lying low, still.

I think all i'm doing is just waiting for the time to sleep.

School's getting stress.

Anw jiayou there, qad :)

Feeling kinda suppressed inside...not easy to control.

I miss you, i miss you and i miss you.

Deja vu.

Uh, i guess for now i better not do anything...no more outgoings.

It's ok i get it, will just step back for now.

May's Resolutions:

1. two Prof tests :(

2. two class tests

3. one proj submission

4. one presentation

5. cousin's wedding(but sadly can't go back)

6. mother's day lunch

7. start of mentoring sessions with kyann :)

8. study hard

9. try to get more sleep!

Gonna be a crazy month ahead.