blogger's screwed again -.-

but anyway, today's finally overrr!

damn sian and moody.

morning go school do fb project,

then fb lecture and lunch later on.

after lunch did fb project all the way -.-

madness. whole day fb, sick of fb alr!

but finally finished the whole project alr.

from 1.30 until 6.30 sit at the library there and do non stop ok, luckily yeejoo pei me...

when i got up also whole body aching uh.

damn tired now, brain cells all dead too.

but at least i'm glad there's something call cab, if not i don't know what time will i ever be home -_-"

goodnight world!

still in siansation.

MY DEAREST PERSON TOLD ME TODAY IS FRIDAY, CAN RELAX ABIT :)














omg what a post.

super long day ah! sian.
busy and tiring...and still have alot of things to do.

- cs presentation outline
- cs ppt slides
- two wine lists assignment
- fb wine list/pairing/beverage list
- fb menu edit
- fb italian food trends

sigh i where got energy liao!

but somehow only got energy to smile at and talk to qad.
haha~

It will, and we will always get better :)

brain draining day, totally.
econs lecture was so intense, and i was having the dumb headache ever since last night.
stressed over iht test ever since yesterday.
after lecture went to library and chiong iht :(
didn't really succeed cos some problems cropped up in the middle.
but very happy now cos it's over!
HAHA but kinda screw up the structured questions :(
i don't know what was sommelier! and i forgot what was boutique hotels.
but luckily examples i got it right based on my instincts. heh.
two other questions anyhow write some sense into it.
hope it'll turn out fine though. haha whatever lah it's over anyway.
finals then study harder or smth.
fb tutorial sucks also, it was so difficult to read the wine label!
felt so alienic to me. gonna have a hard time doing wine list alr, sobs.

yj: i have this habit of hitting people when i feel very sian...
yj: but dunno why see you dun dare to hit.
me: HAHAHA.

sososo tired.

Make it Happen

Quality time Quality Love

sian sian sian.
still got so much!
sigh hope i won't screw it up later.
headache!

Happenings today:

1. did presentation
2. survived through rht test
3. lunched with the girls
4. long jam at the road was irritating
5. trying to keep myself awake and study for iht test tmr


i need some motivation :(
eight chapters is madness.
ahhhhhhh.

cousin: you flu ar?

me: no.

cousin: you cry ar?!

me: ok la tear abit.

cousin: why what happened just now?

me: no la that show very sad lor.

Omg so embarrassing.

So much for coming home earlier to rest.

Got screamed at for no relevant reasons.

Spss test & trail presentation tmr!

You

had been a very long day. feel so tired now actually.

• tried studying on the bus today morning on way to church but failed cos i felt nausea after reading the notes for some time -_-"
• after church went to bake cookies
• felt very accomplished and proud of myself :D
• mum said it was a quite sweet :( but cousin said it was fine :)
• hehe didn't know they're so interested in my baking skills :P
• home and switching back to schooling mode and preparing for the sian week ahead

Wished time could pass slower and freeze at the moments where it could last forever.

don't you think mondays are always here in the blink of an eye????? So er xin.

& your smile is the most beautiful thing to me.

now for serious stuff.

- rush for econs project today

- iht test on wed

- rht test on tues

- presentation on tues/thurs

- fb project

so means i have to prepare for cs presentation, complete econs project today,

study eight long and dry topics for iht, study spss for rht and do fb project in and by next week!

madness + siansation.

& final exams are coming soon!

Ok shall not stress myself.

Just laugh about it...haha!

oh yes finally blogger's fixed!

you know if one day technology fails us,

i can't imagine how angry and and pissed everyone would be.

see, so much for being dependent on technology now.

what a world.

anyway, I'M SO TIRED :(

ok nevermind it's not an excuse for singaporeans cos everyone's busy and always tired.

man, why did my parents even bring me here.

oh talking about this, last night there was a call from my cousin's mum,

who is my aunt, who is my mum's younger sister.

some things kinda cropped up again and past things are like repeating.

oh well. hope things would be fine soon.

& i'm hoping so much for my cousins and relatives to come singapore and visit me!

sigh, the holiday schedule in poly is superbly weird, so if i'm not going over,

they should come!!! haha.

btw one of my cousins is coming here to work in the upcoming IR from macau.

cool stuff.

i'm trying to figure out how to use imovie...but i can't really focus and concentrate now cos i still have many more important things to do.

at most i'll just use back movie maker from my cousin's laptop.

oh well nevermind, these things can leave to a later time.

i met ruby yesterday for dinner though.

told her to have dinner WITH me, she end up buying some food that has a SO LONG QUEUE,

and by the time she finished buying and come back i'm like already half done with my food -.-

then she was giving some suggestions about what should i speak about for my presentation.

she mentioned changwei, my parents, snoopy(omg -.-) and she herself.

just imagine i talk about HER?!?!?! ha no way la, i don't know what to say either =x

hanged around and chatted before going home.

and my mum thought i was having dinner with a guy or something -.-

Always here to give you support.

Jiayou! :)

:)

I guess I'm really nice.

Nothing I give or do will be more than that for you.

And you'll forever be the only and only in my heart.

I mean it seriously, really, and truly.

Oh gosh, my cousin went out shopping without me!

Sigh, but actually is bcos i'm not in any mood of shopping until exams are over.

Blogger's still screwed at the moment, but i have no choice but to try blogging out something although it's really annoying if not i'll be seriously bored and sian to the bottomless pit.

I still haven't think of anything to talk about for my trial presentation for cs on tuesday. Sian.

My saturdays are always so depriving of food. Haiz.

Very sian very moodless very hungry.

Zomg.

Probability of wasting my saturday = 1.

I guess it's my course that is just so ridiculous.

& i'm waiting for someone to faster go home.

cos i want to talk to youuu.

Sian.

I don't want to feel that way anymore at the sight of you, thought of you or any mentioning of you.

Never again, and i'm serious.

blogger's screwed up so i'm not gonna blog today.can't even see where exactly am i typing either. erxin.

sian, next week's gonna be so hectic.

pom presentation + skit today.

was rather ok i guess...not as serious as previously.

pictures next time if i manage to have 'em.

and ruby asked me to meet her in school cos she wants to take photo with me.

HAHA so honoured worrrrr.

yesyesyes the week's ending.

yawned my way home.

screwed up a little for fb test, sigh.

fishes really suck, the identification was madness.

can't imagine how to survive final exam next month.

pom presentation tmr.

wa sian can't wait for weekend to come.

so tired!

another long day tmr :(

I love you.

Normal&boring&tiring&busy tuesday.

Extremely tired.

crap, can't study for fb already.

i was wishing my week ahead could be better.

but...

econs and fb proj tmr,

fb test on wed,

pom presentation on thur,

and projects on fri.

sigh.

renkai sent me a picture of me through bluetooth during rht lecture today -.-

i was shocked cos he took that like ages ago and i didn't even know.

lame! reminds me of andre who did the same last year -_-"

just that he was doing it in the most obvious way possible.

don't understand such guys sometimes.

I'm thinking of you!

felt like ages since i went back church. heh.

was late for cell today morning,

but doesn't matter now anymore cos eleena no longer around. aw.

lesson was about history *faintssss*

totally don't understand it. i only know alot of murdering was going on.

after that the 11 of us was going back to church, took the lift which only can take in 8 people.

so guess what? when the last person went in

when the door closes, it read LIFT OVERLOAD.

but it was still going down from 11th floor.

so we were quite anxious to whether the lift will breakdown anytime or not.

when the door open at level 1 the lights totally wen

t off and then, LIFT OUT OF ORDER.

hahaha scary right! so the rest inside were like dying to come out when the lights went off.

but at least it broke down just in time man. super hilari

ous.

we actually spoilt the lift.

-

and one thing i didn't like about wearing heels to church is that after standing for so long in a stagnant mode, after that when you start walking it felt totally stupid lah. so numb.

but maybe after a few times won't be that bad already i guess.

wanted to do some shopping after church but at the thought of my school wor

k...ugh forget it.

so came home and fell asleep instead. HAHA crap man, seriously.

ok i better go study fb test, it's so much until can suffocate me -.-

and i was doing this school survey whereby this was the last part.

i was being super honest la, i wanted to add in "especially the ice cream sellers who kept ringing the bells, it was annoying." HAHA sansan and felicia should know what i'm saying. but oh well, decided not to be so mean afterall.

Ok, may this week pass by faster!

Nothing else can be better than just us being together ♥

effective day.

finished most of my school work, yes.

very rare though, usually would be too sian to complete. 

but guess today forced my way through everything, wahaha. 

& i'm kinda sian now cos i can't seem to find food&beverage trends locally!

grr so er xin one. 

anyway, i have a feeling that things are going to be really stress for the final year exam in august :( 

after like looking through all the things so far, it's madness loh.

sigh and my mum had been trying desperately to make me drink the chicken essence.

but apparently haven't succeed to day. 

i think my hair grows quite fast.

stuffs coming up/to do:

- fb proj

- econs proj

- fb test

- rht test

- iht test

- pom presentation

oh oh oh crap. 

yes, friday. finally!

i've been so drained out this week.

i think i woke up at the wrong side of the bed today,

cos i went to school in the morning in a very foul mood,

started to get really irritated and annoyed at some stuffs.

luckily shiyu didn't flare up if not we'd probably end up feeling very awkward. 

sniffing and sneezing again.

my nose is unpredictable these days.

fb lecture on wine, and i was eating twisties at the same time. 

feel damn satisfied today. why?

handed in pom, commskill and rht project! 

haha! feel damn shuang de lor. 

before that joined ruby and her friends after lunch awhile,

then went up to find vincent and did rht project together. 

yes i finally finished the linear regression.

feel so proud loh, cos was stressing like crazy in the library.

but really thankful that vincent helped out with the cross tab although he was also struggling with it. 

went to print it all out and submitted thereafter. 

one big portion of burden laid down! :)

but still got a whole lot more :( 

sighhh, but at least can sleep better tonight, still not that bad lor.

pictures taken yesterday;

=\ still in school now. 

actually wanted to go back pcss to see ms nai,

but eun called and said she left alr :( 

sadded. 

all the best in whatever you're going for in the future.

zomg, i'm seriously very tired. 

really very very.

so finally the big presentation is overrr, so glad.

no need to stress over the stupid proposal anymore. 

sigh, left house at seven reached home at seven. madness.

the whole morning was so so tensed up.

but at least it's over now, so woohoo. 

pictures soon.

felt so sleepy for the entire day.

nearly fell asleep in every tutorial class.

couldn't keep my eyes open...although i was listening. 

i need to sleep so badly :( 

anyway i think my voice changed abit. hurhur.

two projects due tmr! ahh siansation.

oh, and my legs were so pain today due to the blisters.

so much for wearing court shoes -.- 

Sick, :( 

hate to keep sniffing and sneezing.

rehearsed ppt after econs lecture, did abit of project work and went home to rest awhile.

sian, sucks so much.

hope i'll be fine tmr. 

random things that happened:

1. first time looking so desperately for a plug in school -.-

2. stood at the canteen stalls for minutes and end up not buying anything cos i don't know what to eat

3. saw a crazy woman talking to the tv and smiling and laughing to herself on the bus

4. just realised that my fridge has alot of medicines o.o 

5. got surprised by my adored person(hope such days won't happen to you anymore :) ) 

A camera never captures what you see. 

You can never hold on to a memory by taking a photo;

 but a photo only can capture an eternal memory through your heart. 

hehe, got the above inspiration through cs lesson.

anyway, i don't know how i survived through today.

totally boring to infinity. 

can you imagine someone like me, sitting down and just practically doing nothing at all for 1.5 hours?! seriously, just sit there and hear the tutor talk?!

my eyes were already like closing every now and then cos i was feeling so sleepy.

rht tutorial no difference also, another 1.5 hours of stoning at the lab.

lunched and went to rehearse for presentation for thur. 

gotta spend the rest of the days mumbling to myself whenever i rehearse  -.-" 

shiyu was telling me not to have the zombie face on that morning. HAHA. 

so sick of chionging so many projects now, think i should rest today.

i'm gonna have a headache soon if i don't sleep any sooner...i'm tired.

oh crap i keep sneezing, anyone missing me? 

hahaha.

oh great, my room's light spoilt -.- 

kept blinking like some disco place. 

so pathetically now gotta use my desk's lamp until my dad gets it repaired.

I ate as much as I used my brain today.

V tired ah, can't rmb what happened today already.

I just rmb me eating and getting drained out.

everything is getting more and more chim. 

sian sian sian.

& i nearly forgot how to write my chinese name.

great la, just great. haha! 

wow, Hugos Bar is so nice!

The last thing I would want to see before I die would be your smile. 

uoyssim

Jiayou, you know i care.

(and i'm not talking to myself but you! :) )

i think my long lost appetite is back.

i ate a nutella waffle and i'm eating a double cheeseburger and i'm going to eat ice cream and doritos later! wahaha.

and i'm craving for so much food - jap food, mushroom soup, cheesecake, laksa, pasta, good coffee, chicken wings, satay, steamboat and many more!

haha ok sounds quite horrible right.

either i'm too stress out or something wrong with me :O

no lah just joking. 

i think i should like eat more now cos i think i lost weight lately.

and i haven't been eating breakfast anymore, school's food is getting boring but i don't know why i spent so much on food in school -.-

so much for the breaks in school, sigh.

and every week after attending IHT lecture you always have some place that you wanna go.

from hotels to islands to airplanes to countries.

i wanna go cruise! hahah very random but it had been ages since i was on a ship.

the last time i went there was with my parents...extremely boring cos all my mum do was just to eat and my dad just lazed around. i was still a kid then so i didn't know how to enjoy the food or sceneries there yet. sian, wasted right. 

i wanna go london paris france spain! ok la just saying only. 

singapore also haven't tour finish...although there's nothing to tour at also.

okayokay whatever.

i think i'm gonna have monday blues tmr. 

but anyway today was pretty effective cos i stayed home the entire day,

tried to finish econs and understanding the null hypothesis and doing pom and abit of project works. 

and i gave emotional support to my dearest person! 

although i didn't really get back much replies since busy so nvm, know can already :) 

i'm kinda glad in a way today actually...you know why?

don't tell you! :D 

what a day. 

but after everything, you're still my best love. 

days aren't getting any better.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

anybody knows how sian i am or not? tsk, no life.

haha bet ruby will love this :) 

tiring and busy day. 

after school went to town with the girls, accompanied them to get some stuffs.

did a short window shopping too. 

project presentation is very troublesome.

haven't even started working wear what business attire?

although its the weekend but still have loads of school work to do, haiz. 

damn sian like don't know what.

my crazy friend San2 is totally scared of it.

come on it's so cute :)

end so late still got so much to do.

think what, robot is it.

forty eight hours also not enough. 

ridiculous. 

damn sian.

who says im not tired

take care and drink more water. 

sleep well and rest more. 

goodnight.

had been feeling tired lately too, all i just do is to sleep when i'm home.

it's not like i don't have anything to do k, i always have school work to do.

but apparently friends are quite surprised why i can sleep so much like anything but still can get work done. hehee. 

well but things get so sian until i just feel tired and wants to sleep.

mwhaha seriously, i slept almost the whole day during the past weekend and today as well.

came home early today(rare situation) so i just rested after having my fast food.

coleslaws nowadays are deproving in their quality though. 

and i still haven't got back my appetite. sighs. 

it's ironic but i still wanna say it - year one sucks. 

Qad, take care k :) 

& I'll always stand by you, jiayou ♥

• pom was boring
• school's food is not very nice 
• actually until now i still don't have much appetite to eat
• but i think is due to me being deprived of good food recently(haha)
• econs was super dry 
• rht was abit draining 
• was freezing ever since it started to rain cos everywhere i go is air-conditioned -.-
• didn't expect it to rain la that's why never bring jacket
• quite tired now so i'm gonna sleep soon 
• and i don't like it when my mum speaks so loud

do rest well :)

It's just genuine love.

decided to bus all the way to church and back home today.

reason? lazy to walk to mrt. 

what's more on the bus can stone. mrt usually don't have places to sit.

almost couldn't recognise corn cos he's keeping his hair long. my goodness :O

saw wilson during service and he was like gasp and i was also like gasp.

to see someone in church after ages is shocking man. 

some angmoh was preaching today and i wasn't paying attention.

sorry la but i do know he was talking about love k.

coincidentally saw panther while my bus was at the thomson-bishan road.

so taking bus home today is a good thing afterall baby :)

haha although i only saw panther for like five seconds la.

went home and slept the entire time away until now when i got up for dinner.

it was raining and raining, very nice to nua in my bed.

it's much better than being awake thinking of how sian school work is...

and since my beloved person is out there, so i just rest lor.

& guess what...i awaited for someone's sms reply for two hours.

cos he fell back asleep after my first sms -_-"

haiz...ok la don't blame you k :) 

second half of the year should be better than the first i guess?

hope so and better be too.

still couldn't upload pictures. zzz suan liao. 

don't matter about today. 

Heart's with you, so keep yours with me too.

something's wrong with blogger today. 

couldn't upload pictures...quite irritating. 

sian-until-did-nothing day. 

don't know why i don't have much appetite recently :( 

- eat

- sleep

- rot

- rest 

- ps

- night stroll at bishan park 

owl's owling today.

& i love him.

SIAN. 

morning was niceeee :) 

although i can't really get to sleep back in the morning but it was still awesome.

but compared to now i'm really damn tired alr. haha.

went to np during noon to give wq her supposedly 'surprise'.

saw a few people there...had lunch and then travelled back to pcss.

wanted to invite msnai over for wq's celebration but too bad she's busy.

saw many of my ex-classmates and elroy.

talked to a few teachers too...and fred as well. hahaha so surprised. 

went to bball court to cut wq's cake and left after. 

went to prata house awhile and then home. 

quite tired la so i was quite dead throughout.

and and and, the speech day was boring. period. 

& finally got back my file, thanks to yj and andre for help. 

anyway, my eyes seem to be more distinct at night and when i'm tired worz. 

OMGGGGGGGGGG SHEREEN YOU THIS IDIOT.

YOU LEFT YOUR FILE UNDER THE TABLE AFTER POM!

i forgot to bring it home! like when i reached home after the stupid one hour then i realised.

haiz, what a nice way to end my week. 

school's as usual, boring and tiring. 

July Resolutions: 

1. project submissions

2. project presentations

3. tests 

4. sec clique meetup

5. cell events 

6. get more rest and sleep

7. try not to be too sian of school work and stress 

8. save money

9. learn that thing from victoria! 

10. bond more with qad hahaha :D 

actually this month i've gained like pretty much insights and even deeper understandings.

yup. anyway i'm super tired now...as usual. haiz. 

woke up early, wanted to study fb but didn't manage to. heh.

the weather was damn cool today morning, very nice to just cuddle up in bed and sleep. 

hope the weather will be like that on friday. haha! 

lunch was awesome cos i was so hungry like crap. 

after that studied all the way for fb -.- 

totally horrible cos we were sitting outside the library.

the sun was hot, the ns people were doing some noisy construction, and the ice cream stall ppl were ringing their damn irritating bells! 

so wrong to be selling food outside canteen right! 

but anyway we tried minimising their ringing by going to buy some from them. damn funny.

and we were like surveying people to do our project surveys...see anyone i know just ask them do. 

at the same time also kena by alot of retail and fb students to buy their stuffs -_-" 

skipped iht lecture to study fb, went to library and rested awhile.

then finally the stupid test is over now...brain's like flooded with all the poultry and meat and beef -.- 

i thought i would screw it up or smth...but i guess not anymore la.

i was overwhelmed by the amount of chocolates i have in the fridge.

it's like all mine and it's like piling up.

i think i better try to finish them asap before my mum starts to nag. 

don't know why so many people like to give me chocolates.

and for goodness sake, no one in the house eats chocolates except me!

If you think and see it as this way, I've nothing to say. 

It'd been a long way, I know. And I never wanted it to change.

Do you really think I don't even bother to understand or give a freaking damn about what's going on and you as well? You know something? 

I've always thought you could know me well enough to know how I feel too.

But somehow when circumstances change, you don't seem to allow me to get through you.

Sorry but I don't think exactly the way you do. 

But doesn't mean I don't think from the perspective of you.

Yes, you don't feel it anymore maybe because I didn't show as much anymore.

But have you wondered how I'm feeling inside? 

Yes I may be very hectic with life now for god-knows-why, but do you think that I've forgotten you? You never knew how helpless I was then.

I can claim I gave the greatest support and concern through everything.

If you don't see it then nevermind.

I really don't know what to do, how to do, what to say, how to say anymore.

Maybe I don't know how to show my concern anymore. 

I may not say it out or show it out but doesn't mean I don't possess those emotions. 

Maybe that sounds to you like a stupid joke but I'm being dead honest.

If you think I'll never understand, then who will? You yourself? 

And what makes you think those who claim that they do does? 

Sometimes there are things that need to be spoken. 

I don't deny I did said those words before, but do you think I said that like any normal words?

Do you think I can really mean it? Do you think I want to say it?

Do you know how much disappointment I felt in you? 

Do you know how upset and hurt I was when you completely lost your control of emotions?

You can don't care about me or anything else in the world now, 

but what makes you think I don't? All these years, am I the person you thought I am to you right now? What's true, up to you.

Maybe I failed.