new year's eve!

ive watched 16 movies in year 2008.
wow so that means i should watch 17 movies next year?
since im going to be 17 next year. haha whatever.

1. Feb: ah long pte ltd A-11
2. Feb: the leap years G-07
3. May:made of honour E-07
4. June: kungfu panda D-16
5. Aug: money no enough 2 J-07
6. Oct: butterfly lovers P-07
7. Nov: quantium of solace M-13
8. Nov: madagascar 2 G-17
9. Nov: high school musical E-09
10. Dec: four christmases P-07
11. Dec: yes man T-07
12. Dec: wild child F-07
13. Dec: bolt T-o7
14. Dec: twilight M-07
15. Dec: angus B-07
16. Dec: bedtime stories Q-07

11 out of16 are all seven seats! yay :D hahaha!
but just look at the time difference.
omg...studies really stop me from movie-ing. haha?
or rather to put it nicely, school makes me have no time for entertainment.

hmmm so! another year finally came and went.
this year passed by superbly fast lah...cos of olevels i guess.
yeah, pretty much things happened as usual(like duh, what can never happen?)
basically studied like mad during exams, then prelims, then o's finally.
ive grew a few strands of white hair within the year too! but not something very proud of.
but im glad i finished o's! HAHA i just hope my results wont fail me.
i think 2008 had been great though, i had more successes than failures? :)
it had been a year of concentrating on my o's only...yeah so proud of myself. haha!
and i appreciate the friendships i had with the people around me.
especially our birthday clique...although i dont know how we actually came about,
but without us i dont think school life will get any better :)
i became so much closer to eunice and weiqin now...
and i really appreciate all the kindness weiqin gave :)
and eunice is forever standing on my side! hahaha thats why ruby always loses :D
& for the rest of people in the clique, its been great with you guys.

and as for class 4g, we may not be united at all, but i still like 4g afterall :)
we've been together for sucha long time and i like the crazy atmosphere in the class.
of course noise is exception,but i really like the funny things that drives our teachers mad :D

i'll remember the times when junyi and andy were beside me in class,
telling me all sorts of nonsense until i cant take it...
but without them i dont think i can sustain the boringness in class.

as well as andre chia, his professional lameness make me speechless like almost everyday.
all the bullies, teasing, jokes, and helping out too, im thankful for him as my classmate&friend :)
and he's always helping me to raise hand to call changwei. HAHA thanks for that too.
and not forgetting we're the "special people" who never joins table in class :)

and there's still my besties ruby and mandy too :)
many things happened between all of us(but i think im the most carefree one :P),
but im glad we always work things out together :)
ruby never changes, she's still forever worrying about everything.
and there's mandy...sigh, speechless for her right now.
but no matter what, we'll forever be the best of the best friends for life :D

including peicai teachers...4g teachers were a great part of me this year.
if i didnt get my distinction for chinese then i had really let mr hou down.
if it was not for ms nai i wouldnt have the determination to pia for amath alr.
from my slacking to copying to tuition to hardwork...not bad effort man :D
and for combined science, mdm faridah had been really patient with us,
but still sorry for laughing during her lessons. ITS VERY FUNNY ONE LA!
english teachers never really left any impressions in me though, sadly.
only mr koh, which i rmb him saying im being extraordinary o.o
combined humanities! i feel like dying memorising everything,
but eventually i feel damn satisfied after throwing out all the memory work in the papers :D
this study life was not easy-going...alot of intensives and remedials and mocks...
but this breakthrough made my year complete :)

& most importantly my used-to-be-one-and-only-physics-teacher changwei! :D
although my physics isn't good at all, but luckily i didnt die on it when mdm goh came.
i love your funny lame things you say in class :)
i like your HORRIBLE handwriting and CUTE drawings :P
it's really nice to see you smile in class :D
and do remember 4g! although we cant give you perfect results,
but i believe we all like ya :D especially me! mwhahahaha!
and with the family day and many other little small occasions...
i appreciate the presence of you in peicai, and i will never forget them :)
thanks for being there from prelims all the way until my o's are over.
you're an awesome person :D

life in peicai wasn't that bad afterall i guess.
all that had been there were there, and they were the memories left in my sec school life.
growing is something i dont see it obviously myself,
but once in awhile at some point of time i do see it eventually lah.
and of course changes took place too...but wasnt much of a problem for me?
ive learnt some things in the year as well...and enhanced on much of my emotions too.
nothing compares to what you experience than what others tell you.
next year may be unpredictable and i dont know where will i really be,
but whatever it is, life is always moving on :)
im no longer a peicaian, but i dont mind calling myself an ex-peicaian- because of the people around me :)
and all in all, i have been a happy girl this year :D
and i always will be!

so goodbye 2008, 2009 will definitely be better :)

stronger will we be

deeper will we grow

further will we continue

happier will we become

all together as one

in love :)

headache arrrr! :(
having lack of sleep is bad.

anyway, was out with mandy today.
i realised we both didnt have much courage actually. HAHA!
and i cannot trust her transportation-instincts! :P
but im worse, i cant even regconise places ive been to before.
(like the macritchie reservoir we've been to during x-country)

its the last day of the year tommorow.
im not going anywhere so dont ask me if i am and dont ask me to also.
i shall have my very own little home countdown celebration instead.
may be boring but i can always make myself entertained.

i feel like doing jigsaw puzzle.
hmm i think i shall get one to do during feb/mar :D

how to live a night tonight?
sigh, sometimes batteries fail people.



i wish i could be with you wherever you go.
i wish i could spend every moment with you.
i wish i could be right beside you everytime and anytime.
i wish i could be completely that part of you, with you in your world.
i wish i could. i wish.


oh well, its just a wish :)

it's enough to have all there is now.

im freaking disgusted by my skin peeling off from the sunburnt :(
sigh, dont ask me to the beach anymore!
i dont wanna go again. *roar*

and i cant wait to have my own house.
my mum doesnt allow me to alter my room.
i think its time for it to have a new look lor...like after so long.
she said it's HER house so everything goes as she pleases -.-
but anyway, i want my future room to be painted red(but not totally of course) :D
wahahaha but of course its not going to be any sooner. booooooo.

my mum calls yao dong my "boyfriend".
and my cousin joined in last night too. HAHAHA!

& & & im so looking forward to getting leehom's new album ^^
thanks ruby for helping me to order it first :D
i know its been VERY long since i showed my affection over him(many people said that).
yeah but doesnt mean i forgot him lah. now i show ok? hahaha my taste never change :)
his new album is as great as ever! and he's still very cool, and as handsome as ever too! :D
ahem, it's like how men go crazy over cars while women go crazy over artistes.
its hard to comprehend why.

i dont think anyone can understand this big thing like i can/do.
haha? maybe, but not that easy.

& im like trying to stay awake now when im quite tired?
yawnnnnnnn.


i hope my com doesnt breakdown before i get my notebook next year.
please please pleaseee.

5 words minus the hair :)

its the last weekend of the year!
was late for combined service(even at the last service of the year).
haha i think i should really do some reflection.
but today not counted lah, i got reason one...and i was tired too.
and the chapel was like so filled with people(youth and adults).
so ended up didnt join my cell people cos they were infront and it was full.
so i landed up sitting with some stranger?
it was the baptism ceremony today though, quite cool.
i was sitting there thinking of putting my christian name in my ic if i got baptized someday?
hahaha!
well but i was kinda pissed off by some stuffs also.
some freaking noises, and then it was like so stuffed up inside there.
and then people were like saying sorry to me here and there.
necessary not necessary also say. i hear until frustrated also.
in my world i only take sincere apologies.
and whats more i was quite thirsty after skipping breakfast.
so much annoying conversations at home in the morning. grrrr.
in addition with all the emotions taking place, my noon was kinda screwed up. haha.
but after some time im fine lah, luckily nothing else came to provoke me.
sigh, totally sian-out.

went to pasar malam with cousin and mum after i went home.
actually there's really nothing much about night markets.
its just the company that youre with.
even if it was just sitting there together and doing nothing can be nice too. haha :)

after a long time but for only a short time. sigh.
its no longer a matter of choice, but i understand.
& all there is had been said to you alr. you know it :)

cos you're just simply more than anything :)

broken record.

sigh, 6am.



yes, i dont like is one thing.
but to them is another thing.
i can understand if you wanna go or if youre going.
i can dont mind when it was 2 or 3, but 6 is...gosh.
maybe i still cant get over this right now. but sorry, that's me.
the msgs tell. i never used to reply or got woke up by msgs(even in silent mode).
maybe i cared too much, or maybe i worried too much.
maybe? just maybe.

yawn. just came back from bbq at yiling's house.
think im gonna get fat after eating so much -.-
all we just did was to sit there and kept eating. hahaha!
but i can see weiqin really put in alot of effort for it though...
and im grateful for her service to me. hahaha :D
yeah so we hanged out over her place for the night.
its been long since i crapped though. haha :)

yawn, siansation.
i hope this sunburnt thing would recover faster.
i hate to be shedding -.-
urgh.

whats the difference between a maid and an only child?
the maid gets paid but the child doesnt -.-

i realised im always talking to parents.
i think i got potential to be counsellor.
HAHAHA okay whatever.



& your daymaker loves you! :)



Eyes can never be decieving as they are the windows to your soul.

"those three words are said too much; they're not enough."

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omg shedding is so er xin.

as equally disgusting as snakes -.-

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the year is coming to an end very soon.

i havent think of my next year's resolution yet.

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can someone tell me if eyes can be deceiving?

i think im quite emotion-filled sometimes...
but still under control...although i cant really help it.
Boo.

i shall do some quiz.

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
hmm yeah i think so
Are you in a good mood right now?
like that lo
The phone rings what do you say?
hello?
Plans for tomorrow?
i dont know.
Whats wrong with you right now?
something
Are you mean?
can be? haha
If your ex told you he love you ?
but too bad i dont.
Where were you at 2:02 pm?
on the way to suntec
Do you cry a lot recently?
nope
Are you excited about anything?
surprisingly no
Do you enjoy life?
only at the right time with the right person
Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
hahaha
Who was the last person to drive you somewhere that was under the age of 18?
no one below 18 drives here
Do you hate the last boy/girl you were talking to?
nope
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
cookie monster
Who was on your mind mostly today?
what do you think?
Where is your number one person on your friends list?
im not bias haha!
Did you ever lose a best friend?
yeah can say so
How many kids do you want to have?
future problem
Are you afraid to grow up?
afraid for what?
Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
yes :) minus all the quarrels
What were you doing at midnight last night?
slacking at hooters
Are any of your friends taller than you?
yup of course
Do you flip your pillow to the cold side?
err its in thermal equilibrium
Do you want a small or big wedding?
not answering
If you found out you couldn't have kids, would you adopt?
maybe a puppy?
What woke you up this morning?
alarm
Where are you?
home
What is on your mind RIGHT NOW?
You.
Where would you like to live?
live with my loved one. haha? typical answer i guess.
Who was the last person that left you a comment?
dont rmb
Do you like candy necklaces?
omg no?
What was the last thing you drank?
water?
Last time you were in a public library?
should be at national library during oct when someone nose bled. haha
Have you ever taken tae kwon do lessons?
nah
Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
dont know?

when was the last time...? they had been so long ever since.

im glad im me. the me who knows how to understand things :)

merry christmas to all again :D

church in the morning as usual.
sigh i was feeling so tired like anything today.
anyway, thanks for all the xmas gifts from everyone :)
i didnt like thought i would get any from anyone.
haha i was busy with life to even have time to get xmas presents.

met up with weiqin and grace later on.
and then i was called a lobster and rudolph -.-
im pitiful enough and they still tease me! roarrrr.
my shoulders still hurt though, but everyone else who went for the outing also tio.
HAHA so amusing...but seriously, it was painful lah.
being burnt leh, not something very small.

went to visit my dear friend ruby at her workplace.
SHE LOOKED SO NOT-HERSELF LAH HAHAHA!
"disturbed" her awhile while paying at the cashier place.
i think the auntie infront of her was shocked to see us talking like that. haha!
went to eat abit and andre came to join us.
hmm yeah, so that was a short meet-up with them :)
& i think weiqin talk-back skills are improving. hahaha.
but nevertheless, im still the boss of all :P mwhaha!

i dont like to answer calls in cinemas.
and i just dont like to walk out just to answer too.
and usually i will ignore calls when catching a movie.
i think thats a very bad habit right? hahahaha oh well.

sigh, sian ar.

how to be happy when you're missing someone?

Mesmerized by your look of love.

MERRY DAY TO ALL ^^

saw niko's blog, "last year i spent christmas with shirly, andre, and shereen(surprisingly!)"

haha yeah indeed :)

so! last night went out with cousin and friends for countdown at clarke quay.

pretty cool though, i didnt know there was such a place inside there. haha?

so blah blah, pictures wont be uploaded so soon cos its all not with me.

yup, and today's christmas! :)

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anyway, i love what julia posted last night.

she wrote "Tomorrow is finally xmas! I think gifts aren't important cos what's paramount is that the day is spent with the people you love dearly; "Season of giving" doesn't only include giving presents, but also giving love. As stated in an adage, 'You can give without loving but cannot love without giving'. To give without loving is fine, but to love and give is divine.So do spend your day tomorrow giving love to your loved ones and cherishing each other under the warm sunshine cos there's no snow here and just be glad that the sun is still shining cos that's also a reason to be celebrating :) "

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so inpiring right! :)

HOHOHO!

christmas eve!

yesterday was a nice day :D
(except for the sunburning)

sigh, bathing with sunburn is TERRIBLE! :(
went out with cell! our very last outing.

and then the night was so so good :)

& today morning was so so beautiful :)

christmas...christmas.

it's christmas eve today.

i think i will never want a boyfriend who is a vampire.
but aiya, that never happens in real life anyway.
dont know why so many people are so into twilight.
i dont see anything so exciting about it?
a snoopy movie will be so much better :D
even if there is no voice or anything. wahahaha!

yeah...actually im quite speechless.
dont know wad to say also.
Haha?

tommorow will be a better day!
it will be a good day!
and surely must be a nice day!
yes empowering words. im applying what ive learnt from school.
(yeah okay thats so lame.)
& smile! christmas is coming manzxzxzx :D

sigh, self-highing is insane -.-


we should cherish limited/limiting/getting even more limited time together.
at least, i should.
well actually, i am.
always.

seriously hate it when people waste my time -.-
some people just dont understand the importance of time.
maybe they dont need them or dont see it, but at least time is important TO ME.
imagine going to somewhere for only ten minutes and you go back.
think i so free is it? urgh.

i think i should delete my tagboard.
should i? maybe....maybe not.
and i think i should change blogskin.
but im lazy...mwhahaha.

Zomg.

as usual im always late for church again.
and today was kind of the last one already! haha oops.
i think i should feel guilty for the whole year for being late man.
okay i shall make it a point that i will not be late anymore next year. *nods*

hmmmm.
i made art with fork and noodles, knife and bread, and spoon and soup.
wahahaha playing with food comes when i just got simply nothing to do.
hahaha and im proud of my artworks! :D
although time may be short, but still...
having a good short time is better than having a boring long time right :)
man, im quite good at encouraging myself. haha!

went home and ive got nothing better to do,
so was trying to get to sleep but didnt do it successfully.
mum and cousin and distant-cousin called me out of bed to go shopping with them -.-
so i just went? mum was in such a good mood tonight lah,
but apparently i dont have the mood to do shopping cos of my throat :(
so they end up shopping and all, and me accompanying them.
felt so weird to be walking and drinking at the same time -.-
i hope i'll recover by tommorow :D so much hard work put in today. haha!
sigh and now ended up my legs are like almost breaking?! :'(
reached home first thing i find place to sit hahahaha!
4 hour continuous walking is madness lah, especially when im not buying anything?
hohoho how merry...oh well. i'll treat it as a form of killing time today. mmhmms.

yaaaaaaawn goodnight world.
days ahead are going to be busy, but nice :D

the key; it holds alot of significance :)

watched kungfu dunk today afternoon(yeah like after so long...and i was damn free anyway).
not bad, i thought it was quite cool actually. haha :)
and going to finish watching 10 promises of my dog very soon.
the puppy is so cute lah! hahaha :D
yeah i like to watch jap dramas/shows...but dunno why they're always quite touching and sad.
but i like though, especially the way they speak. haha!


then after that went to church for regional outing.
an outing thats indoors? how ironical -.-
so aiya, hanged out and had late dinner. sort of lah.
and the guys were seriously lame and i really got nothing to say.
no wonder research says that females tend to be more mature than males sometimes.
now i finally see the point.
and i ended up going off late. roarrrr so annoyed.
and the stupid bus was SO SLOW!!!!!!!!!
it was jamming like as if there was no tommorow,
and it pissed me off because for every two seconds the bus moved it stopped for five minutes -.-
although i do have alot of patience, but because i dont want to make people wait,
so ended up i just got so irritated by everything.
and the people in orchard road were like super glue-ing each other.
they cant even walk in a proper manner lah.
and when my bus stopped, anyone could just communicate if the windows were opened.
it was such a crazy scene man...it wasnt that bad last year though.
singapore is really very small.

and my cousin came back tonight!
my room is like... filled with so many things now?
think she will need two days to finish packing everything.
haha and i shall eagerly wait for her presents for me :D
but guess gonna sleep late again...man, i still got a long day tmr.
i think what ruby said is really quite true.
"always so busy but never look tired at all." hahaha!

i hope mandy's fine.
she havent been replying my smses man, im kinda worried.

and i thought i was having this "morning-sneeze" thingy(cos it had been for a few days alr),
but today i just realised it was not. i am actually having flu?
haha! but thats a very sian thing.

anw, YES MAN is a funny movie.
anyone who is free should go watch it :)
but the only bad thing about comedy movies is that you get to hear all sorts of horrible laughters. -.-

oh yeah, im finally going to change curtains soon :D
although i dont really like the colour very much,
but thank goodness its not pink (although its close to it) *phews*

aw, one of my two speakers just broke down.
the last time it happened was one year ago.
not bad, i think i can keep things for quite a long time. mwhahaha.

mum: turn down your music! i cant hear the tv!
me: turn down yours then i'll turn down mine. i cant hear mine also.
mum: whats the difference, you're still louder than me!!!

& nothing else will do, because in my eyes there's only you.

it's not changing because of you;

but maybe it's more to changing for you, and myself too :)

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12555.

hahaha my gosh, incredibly AMAZING.

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i really hope my presence will ease your mind.

no matter what, i will always be there when you need me;

to give you support, to stand behind you, to be a listening ear,

to encourage and console you...just to see you smile.

i would be the star that will always shine unto you,

giving you hope and walk the path with you.

and i will, definitely will, always stay by you.

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live, laugh & love!

it makes so much sense.

Good Luck to all taking N's results! :)

give, giving, gave, given.

now i really think im really great. really.

i dont think i can have the same mindset like i did today if i were in the past.

i dont think i can respond this way like i did today if it was not the me now.

i dont think i can feel for others first before myself despite the circumstances if it was like today.

i dont think i can.

i really dont.

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shopping craze today? but not really me though.

went out with mandy for shopping :)

and i actually chose ALL of the clothes she bought -.-

its funny how we cant decide for ourselves but can decide for others, eh?

and i think she really crave for shopping too much.

that extreme shopping queen was spending like as if there was no tommorow.

(yeah although she said only today, but still very overwhelming)

heard alot of gossips from her...well not really gossips but "stories".

pretty impressive, i was like gasping for air to know that the world is really so screwed up.

like what eric said, "This is the 21st century. Anything can happen."

so after all the shopping(we went to two places), met up with waisoe to have a drink.

later on sandy came and they went to catch a movie.

so me? i went home. haha....oh well.

i wanted to offer my seat to an elderly in the mrt...

but apparently he was standing so far away from me,

and it would probably make a scene if i really did it.

sigh made me so guilty for that ten minutes in there.

man, i think i need to have more courage next time. wahaha!

wanted to go jog awhile but i realised i got to pack my room when i get home.

so since im so early today i went home and did all the stuffs.

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and i guess i didnt show it out pretty well.

yeah...guess so.

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me & her; we are for ever :)

I am if you are :)
it was because of me, and i guess it's enough for me to be glad about.

being able to still smile while having so many things to settle is great.
yeah im great. hahaha!

Yay addition of snoopy! :D
♥

too much that words cant express :)

today was a long day.
and tommorow is tuesday.
that's all :)




finally.

today is a SUPER DUPER COLDDDDD DAY! my gosh -.-
the weather was so cold, and it was raining quite heavily in the morning!
then i had to take the bus, which was SO COLD like anything!
the whole bus was like almost frosted lah, with all the foggy windows.
for a moment i thought it would like snow suddenly or something -.-
yeah which reminds me back in japan...aw i miss japan :(
then in church nothing got better. haha?
i dont know why cant they adjust the stupid temperature...
and i see no reason why should they LOCK the temperature controller -.-
its not like as if anyone would use a hammer and break it or something right?
yeah so i was like sitting there like a stone waiting for the pastor to finish talking.
but of course my friends around me also felt very cold.
that shows im not the abnormal one who's feeling so frozen up. heh.
and then when i left the place, the stupid bus was SO COLD AGAIN! -.-
okay yes enough of my complains over coldness.
went to meet mum and relative at far east to have lunch.
pathetically they only sat there and watched me eat *faint*
went to get some stuffs and then went to meet elroy to return his calculator.
YES I FINALLY RETURNED HIM LIKE AFTER ONE MONTH.

anyway today morning i thought of buying the rhema shirt cos i thought it was kinda cool.
but then i didnt go for rhema conference this year(which starts today and for three days),
so it would be so weird of me to buy it without going for it.
so forget it. haha?

i wanted to learn how to bake a xmas cake today by doing some research,
but after looking at it i think i just have to forget it.
getting the ingredients is a horrible thing to do, and i dont have a microwave oven at home :(
perhaps this is why i crave for cookies so much sometimes...
(my mum doesnt know how to make them. haha)
and thinking back in sec2 when i had home econs in school...
i was so proud that i got an A for my practical exam lah!
hehe although i made only salad, but its my chef cousin taught me one ok dont play play :D
HAHA well...so afterall i think i should just wait till next time then i go learn how to bake.
oh yeah talking about food...there sooo much i feel like eating sooo much.
hahaha! :)

till i see you face to face;

i'll be the whisper in your heart that speaks to you.

soooooon :D

bad day, very bad day.
i really dont like last minute changes.
mood was so totally spoilt lah...dont wanna talk about it anymore.
so later on ended up having dinner with andre and shirly.
dont know where was ruting although she said she will be coming also.
nothing was going lucky for me anyway...guessed its bcos of my mood. haha?

& its the first time andre said im eating fast.
i think maybe this happens when im hungry and frustrated.
wahahaha.

yawn, extremely tired now.
goodnight world.

cant believe i actually got tricked by kennard this morning *faints*
yeah, like who will STUDY NOW? my goodness.
come on, i am much more smarter than this. hahaha!

and now i finally know why guys always like to go youtube and watch those funny and lame videos.
It's entertainment to them. *speechless*

anyway, 1 litre of tears is nice! japanese drama show :)
anyone who is very free and nothing better to do(like me) should go and watch!
a very sad drama.
http://www.mysoju.com/1-litre-of-tears/





so so much :(

2-4! lost so pathetically :(
dont know why my force always so weak.
but maybe this is the gentle side of me(mwhahahah!)
and i hit the lamp twice *gasp*
by the way, i think its so uncool to use one hand to poke when the billard is just a few cm away.
HAHA but it worked anyway! :P
and playing pool with me is a very happy thing cos you tend to feel very confident.
in other words, winning me is like a piece of cake? haha sighhh.

shirly is trying to be inordinary?

12/12/12/12/12/12/12/12/12/12/12/12/12/12
hahaha lame.

sigh, i really hope time can pass faster.
im tired of these uncertain days.

www.readbookonline.net
time to do some reading i guess :)



i do feel what typical girls will feel. maybe just not as much.
sometimes at the thought of it...it doesnt feel good.
really.

today was a give-and-take day?
haha i've got two xmas presents!
and one super belated birthday present!
haha thanks to all of you :)

went out to meet people, passing notes and receiving things.
seemed to be so free right...yeah as a matter of fact I AM.
but however that lasted me for the day also...walking around and all.
and i seriously think i NEED to go and shop some day.
apparently almost everyone around me seem to be either overseas or working.
sigh i dont know what kind of life im living right now also.
so out of ordinary. everyday enjoying life and hangout or slack and rest and home.
maybe this is what they call the "shuang-life" after o levels. hmmmm.
oh well, but i have to get a life somehow soon. as in uh...you know, a LIFE.
or maybe that will start when i start school :)

$46! i bet if i buy that my mum will nag at me like hell.
but i think it wont happen if i get job.
so to avoid naggings, i shall buy that when i get a job.
hahaha! but when only i got one then say.
we should be practical- like what tv shows are always saying.

& cousin is coming back very soon! in 10 days?
i wonder what she bought for me in taiwan. hehe :D
oh, but i hope she doesnt anything PINK for me. pleaseee.



waiting, still waiting.

You Are: 60% Dog, 40% Cat

You are a nice blend of cat and dog. You're playful but not too needy. And you're friendly but careful. And while you have your moody moments, you're too happy to stay upset for long.

Are You More Cat or Dog?

WHAT A DAY.

met up with ruby and we hanged out for the day.
and we thought the food during lunch was quite amazing.
it doesnt feel like as if the rice is going to finish after eating it for so long.
haha yeah, then mandy came to join us later for movie(together with sandy).
so nothing much happened though, after movie went home.
i dont know whats so saddening about the movie but ruby actually asked if i teared because she did. hahahahaha oh well!

anyway im not going to post up the drawing that ruby drew.
not only cos im lazy, but her drawing really cannot make it.
HOW CAN YOU DRAW SNOOPY WITHOUT HANDS AND WITH UNEVEN LEGS?
oh my goodness, thats SO VERY BAD!
i can draw her bugs bunny so much better. wahahaha!

well, and i actually feel that being observed too much is kinda..scary?
doesnt feel comfortable...especially when you like...didnt actually know?
and hypocritism is not a very nice thing to do.
oh well, that's human nature anyway.

whatever la i dont really care.
either people always tend to think too much or they're thinking of the wrong things.
im sick and tired and facing such things ever since my sec school days.
at least, if i care then that's my problem.
but if i dont, there's no reason to look into it.



feels so distant...sigh.

reaching for a love that seems so far.

These are the times; they are the worst.

i broke 1k of blog posts! wahaha :)

yeah, i'm fine now :)
just now was...omg horrible.
totally like...i dont know what.

yeah, back to normal now.
my thinking always work. haha! :)

& ruby's so excited to see me :O
i wonder why am i sucha exciting person sometimes.

wahahaha!

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i wished i could just forget the world.
:(

speechless.
i dont know how i feel.
i dont know what to feel.
i dont know what to say.
i dont know how to say.
i dont know, too numbed to know anymore.


arghhh whats wrong with me :(
okay whatever man. whatever!
stop being so emotional. this sucks.
how miserable.

ahh, nevermind i'll be fine.
yeah, of course i'll be.

alright stop lying to yourself.
you're not fine at all.

supposed to be family day lunch but didnt go.
not that im trying to be rebellious but i dont like that place.
so they went without me. whatever lah, im not in the mood also.

went out to "san san xin" today but it didnt make anything better.
haha? millenia walk cheated my feelings and im never going there again.

anyway, thanks julia for that :)
i was so shocked and surprised and touched!


i couldnt know what was happy today.
dont ask me why,
put yourself in my shoes, and under a similar situation,
you'll know why.

it's so bad...very :'(

qad wo hen sbd :(

i think i should occupy myself with alot of things this week and keep myself busy?

its either this or that- rotting myself away & hibernating at home. sigh, oh well.

if i cant change things, then i'll just have to go with it and change yourself to accept it.

like what i used to know :

if you cant change the world, change yourself.

uh okay i think that's super random.

blah blah blah.

hei ma wang zi ♥

Would you rather(as a lover) :

A) be sad together with your partner and get into the same emotion together
OR
B) try to make your partner happy, but although you also feel the same way

of course the answer is :
the more loving partner would choose B, cos it shows that you would want your partner to cheer up no matter what it is, and what for both sad together when you can salvage one or maybe both happiness together? maybe it could be just for now, but at least you dont lose 60 seconds of happiness whenever you frown every one minute :)

so that kinda sum up my day.

went back to church after two sundays! yeah :)
uh service was pretty inspiring... and like he said,
our inner feelings means more than any physical circumstances in life.
oh yes. by the way, never ask for assistance help if you ever step into best denki.
reason is because they just make you look like some idiot walking here and there -.-
poor service! hahaha :P

& tada! ^^

Love is lovely loveliness.

i wonder how's the difference like when you're with me and when you're not with me.

physically.

butterfly on butt? HAHAHA!

anyway i feel that out of the five senses we have, smelling is the least evil among all.
the mouth can speak of bad, the eyes can see what is saddening,
the ear can hear what is hurtful, and touch can be in violent terms too.
yes, i think we should all start to appreciate our nose more.

& i really dont know whats so interesting about facebook man.
playing gunbound is so much better than playing some application in there :P
haha! but i guess im so neglecting all my games now. hee.

i guess people always wish for incredible stuffs during christmas...
but i really mean mine though.

dont matter about the past,
but focus on the present,
and await for a blissful future.


tears of love;
they fall for the first time.
you know why i dont feel unfair,
bcos i feel loved.
you know why i dont feel deprived,
bcos im happy enough with just you.
but its you who depends on how i feel, qad.

& us being happy is all that matter, isnt it?

i really mean happy :)

argh siansation.

oh yeah out of boredom i created it.

but after creating i think it's pretty boring. HAHA whatever.

oh well, so this shall be another alive-then-dead thing again.

aha new stuff awaiting to rot.

mmm. so making me wait is seriously not a very pleasant thing to happen.

although im a patient person(mwhahaha), but waiting for people for no good reason?

it can highly very likely to spoil my mood.

& sorry for hurting your finger. next time i should just do it myself.

uh no, i make sure there wont be a next time. heh :)

and there! WHAT A CUTE DOG! Aww :D

sigh, how?

i dont know how.

im so bored until i could actually think of creating a facebook account.
(i remember saying that having friendster and facebook is kinda lame)
wahaha, oh well. so SHOULD I???

4 FOUR SI EMPAT.

missed it, but theres always a next time :)
contentment is enough.







qad, no matter what, always remember to just xyg :)

"zen me ban?"

i love these words, just that i didnt say it out.
which is why i brought them back again :)

i wonder if there's ever a day my mood level is perfect throughout the entire day.


i feel so stiff all over.
i think i'd better go do some exercise someday :\

Random post.

Westlife - Written In The Stars

Stay with me
Don't fall asleep too soon
The angels can wait for a moment

Come real close
Forget the world outside
Tonight we're alone
It's finally you and I

It wasn't meant to feel like this
Not without you

Chorus:
Cos when I look at my life
How the pieces fall into place
It just wouldn't rhyme without you
When I see how my path
Seem to end up before your face
The state of my heart
The place where we are
Was written in the stars

Don't be afraid
I'll be right by your side
Through the laughter and pain
Together we're bound to fly
I wasn't meant to love like this
Not without you

[Chorus]

I made a few mistakes, yeah
Like sometimes we do
Been through lot of heartache
But I made it back to you

[Chorus]

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how can you not smile with me?

i can ignore everything but i cant ignore my feelings.
but nvm, i understand.

the construction of lifts over here at my block is VERY NOISY.

HEN CHAO AH!

highlight of the day: STUPID PHONE! roarrrr.

December's resolutions:
- get a job?
- 2nd round of ________ :(
- shopping with mum? she promised to do so( but cannot trust one actually)
- shopping with mandy/window-shopping if above not possible to happen. haha!
- (ahem) pack desk
- pool with friends
- movie outing
- xmas celebration(s)? :)))
- church outing(s)
- birthday clique hangout?
- bbq invitation(honestly i dont wanna go)
- snoopy hunt? HAHA thats for kill-boredom purposes :D

somemore yet to come...too much already.
i havent keep any records of 'em also.
hope my memory dont fail me. hahaha!

by the way, ive seen the most blindest person who is actually so not blind.
too amazing until i dont know whether should i laugh or not.
hahahahaha?


Happiness is what defines us.




feels so good...so very good^^

home sweet home :)


im like aching all over now after helping mum to carry so many of HER things -.-
she went with one bag came back with FIVE.
omg she went to buy curtains lah or something like that.
and i feel so damn restless like anything.
so deprived of energy :(
okay in summary i feel sick.

yawn hope later i'll feel more alive.