Today was not good for me :(

Had a very frustrating and grumpy morning, 'cause it doesn't feel good to make all the efforts to be early and punctual but end up like some fool like that waiting until nobody's business. What's more I was running against time as well. Just wanted to get things done but some things always get into the way somehow, zzz. And the stupid rain didn't help much at all. Ended up I missed school...urgh waste money for nothing also. So frustrating lor.

So anyway, had to pick up my whatever emotions and move on with the day.

Indeed very tiring but I'm trying to make myself stay awake because I still have to burn midnight oil! :(

I feel so detached from school somehow, lol. Got to focus on studies also~

Headache the whole day! So pain :(

I find myself always split into two everyday, both externally and internally lol. Tired superwoman.

Napfa test coming soon, so sian. I think I'll just fail, no need to have additional burdens like this.

Starting of school isn't really a good start for me. Be it whether school starts or not, it makes entirely no difference to me because I am still very tired everyday waking up early and everything. So tired today :(

Apparently school is so stressful with all the projects stuff. Today was so bad, I couldn't see the stupid screen and I couldn't understand what she was talking about 'cause she was too fast and unclear. Then I missed out the first point, everything else after that is like a blank only. So ended up had to figure things out on my own within time limit -.- I think my friend heard me swearing, lol. And on top of that I was also trying to talk about work stuffs on my phone. So I guess today's class was a very distracting one for me because firstly I wasn't in the mood for school at all, secondly I dread ticketing lessons and lastly I was just feeling very...sian in a way. I think I will be skipping lectures this week also. So many things on mind and too many things to do.

Time to start thinking of future plans for my career already, one more year to go.

Sometimes I really admire myself so much because I don't know why am I so nice.

Back to school tmr! Super sian to the maximum. I've already almost forgotten how to do ticketing lol. & I have loads of notes to print but no ink and no paper, and lazy to go get :\

Projects are still not here not there, time to really rush them all out. The next three months gonna be mad tensed due to tests and examinations. Hope to faster finish all the projects then can focus on the modules.

Church for the whole entire morning, good job to my team for the kick-off event :) Baby Ruth came to me to carry her, so cute! Totally made my morning, haha.

I think being able to make others happy is something worth to spend time and effort for.

To love is to give in something in exchange for something that even though you may not like but at the best way out.

Chao ta today -_-"

Totally not in the mood for school to reopen looking at the amount of school work :\

2 in 1.

Everyday i'm controlling a self within a self.

Time...time to really get it through.

So many things happening until I've lost track of myself. Everything feels so crappy.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

Silent tears, lonely soul.

So this was how it ended after the whole entire long day of my time, efforts, company and love.

I didn't know how it feels like to not know where to go but to roam around. I didn't know how it feels like when your needs and thoughts are not being considered of. I didn't know how it feels like to be left behind alone on the streets.

But today, I knew.

Kao, stupid report.

Self-control is an art.

So, the week has ended. Good times passes by ever so quickly. Time to get back to the usuals :\

Last week left before school starts as well, so dreadful.

Time fliesss.

Just like any other people, I am also taking a "break" this week. Working much lesser and slower with school work. Hahaha. Feels good but sadly cannot put aside forever :(

Always hungry but only have small appetite. Weird.

Projects and more projects, zzz. After tomorrow I'm going to chiong my individual report 'cause it's bugging my mind all day long :(

Honestly, I'm not very looking forward to internship. Feels like cheap labour :\

I'm in love with mushroom soup.

Listening is a skill. So many things to digest over these two days :\

Dear human,

I think you did just as well as you always do today.

From,

Heart.

Ok. I shall control even more and beyond limits no matter how tough things get. A facade is all it takes.

Sigh.

I've got accepted :) After a 3 hour interview -_-" Draggy to the max. And then I had to say so much "nice to hear things" and sell myself lol. But anyway, really good to know that I have secured a placement. No need to worry about sip anymore! Off my to-do list, awesome. Met many potential course mates there as well actually, but in any case still happy that this huge thing can be off my mind for now. Until 14 Sept!

It's really tough but I'm trying my best.

Being defensive and protective of myself is just but a way out. And perhaps the only way out.

Had a shock of my life when I was chatting with my mum when I was having dinner in the living room when a pigeon flew right into my house! Omg I was screaming like crap and I ran into the kitchen and closed the sliding door in case it flies towards me lol. My mum was happily talking to the pigeon and asking it to find its way out to the window -.- Quite a cute scene actually but I was too horrified to laugh lol. Then when it finally "found its way" out it still stayed at the edge of my windows and refused to go. Xia si ren le!

Ought to give myself a mini break before I start working on school work :)

Photoshoot was funny today but I thought it was quite a good way to save on cost since we have people who are willing to help. Haha. Anyway, dotdot was exceptionally friendly to me today! Ehehe, so adorable.

Yay, end of tests! Mid-sem break is here ^^ So happy there's no mid-sem exams, hehe. Thank god I've got the 'easier' paper today for FB test, doable! & Now it's time to chiong projects!

To numb so there's no room for emotions. It ceases the need for 'how would I feel'.

Beginning of June wasn't good, wonder how am I going to survive the whole month like that. My daoness have to surface pretty much.

The question doesn't lie with why you don't have a boyfriend, the question is with will you ever be a girlfriend.

I'm so tired lately until I don't have much mood to care about anything, hurhur. School and work and church, no time to breathe :\

Busy with life, bye~