goodness. its getting late now and i havent studied bio :(
starting to feel moody.
im singing. lol songs speaks louder than words sometimes.
whatever. study! zzz.


how sweet were the revenges.
remember?
how blissful were those days.
agree?
how touching were those moments.
true?
how impossible for it to be wad it is now.
right?

just a matter of time

one more pathetic bio paper to go.
im so not in the mood anymore,
when everyone else is happily enjoying now alr.
sigh. just a matter of time!

skipped tuition today,
but have to replace on saturday.
sigh. still a matter of time!

gonna catch movie tmr after school.
gotta relax myself after all the study stress this week.



until the day will be the day.

three more to go :(

so near but so far from my bed these days. lol.




you click start, i will not pause.
you press rewind, i will not stop.

boo. its 12am now.
and im still here, awake.

roses are red,
violets are blue.
i cant sleep right now,
what about you?

lol i'm lame -.-

goodnight :)

still in death war

ss and physics tmr.
amath and chem on thursday.
got to survive, got to survive.
i dunno how am i going to, but somehow i have to.
i dont think im talking sense.

!!!
to self : shut down your com and go study now.

sleep study sleep study sleep study.
what kind of life is this! sigh.

seriously i cant wait for holidays to come.







almost got carried away in the midst of thoughts.

words mean a lot.
at least, they matter to me.



i think the only thing i can be happy about for common test is my register number.

To be without some of the things you want is an indispensable part of happiness.

- Bertrand Russell

Silence is the perfectest herald of joy. I were but little happy if I could say how much.

- Shakespeare

There is no value in life except what you choose to place upon it and no happiness in any place except what you bring to it yourself.

- Henry David Thoreau

Do not the most moving moments of our lives find us without words?

- Marcel Marceau

.

four amazing quotations.

i got them from my book of joy( to inspire and console).

i was hoping to get inspired and somehow consoled,

and so i found these quotes kinda enriching.

so yeah, that all about today.

and i think im so gonna be my textbooks' best friend for the week.

sigh.

&

GOOD LUCK FOR COMMON TEST!

*stressed*

it doesnt feel right.

what the mind says and how the heart feels...
should they be different?
can they?

and it last for the day

im having porridge for dinner.
lol i think im so weird. whatever.
i was home all day! so guai :)
studied halfway and i went to sleep for like two hours (omg).
woke up feeling so guilty. oh well.
my mum bought alot of chewing gums for me yesterday.
hahaha so good, i can at least chew something to keep me alive while mugging.


and so the day passed.

lamest lamer made me laugh today when i was actually not in a good mood.
hahaha :)

i was being woke up by the stupid noise.

THE DUMB CONSTRUCTION SITE IS MAKING SO MUCH NOISE.
how on earth am i going to study in peace???!!!
=(
i was totally irritated by it...ahhh.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

here goes another 'ordinary' day

im glad, at least my scanner is still functioning.


the horrible piece of paper.


i failed my ss and geog test. how depressing.
so. all the more i should study and pass well for common test.
was pessimistic for a while, but shall get back the hope.
i can encourage myself one. lol.
but anyway, im so not in the mood for anything now.
life's so dead.
my mum's enjoying life out there, while im at home facing books.

if i can have three wishes, i would want to :
1. have a superb memory
2. stop the time until i want to resume it
3. er... dont know lar.

i smiled when i read that

poor andre's monkey, died within 15mins since it entered into the class.
i think im so good in writing crap in compo until everyone can laugh at it.
you dont know how sucky it is to keep talking about edison.
i mean like, yeah hes quite a hot topic now,
but come on...every chinese lesson like will talk about him one -.-
and so i was trying to write smth out during chinese lesson,
and then junyi and andre laughed cos they said i was just merely changing the question into sentences.
hahaha aiya but it makes sense to me, so its okay :D
oh, and indeed i flunked my geog test.
and cos of it, im more discouraged to study for geog.
lol! okay shoo i shall get that out of my mind.



note to self : study, study and study! common test starts on monday!!!
zzz.

i totally feel like dying today.
was having a terrible ache for the whole day.
andre thought smth bad had happened to me. lol.

and it sucks to have no time for anything.
motivational level went down. sigh.

someone stop the timeeeee.
lol whatever.


thought it just came to mind...
but no, cos it has always been there.

i would appreciate if you stop speaking nonsense.

i was extremely tired today for god knows why.
nearly fell asleep in social studies.
its sucha sad thing that i was born like a year later.
cos after wad mdm yusma said about this year's o's syllabus,
i got totally turned off.
just imagine you gotta study the whole damn book of geog,
and social studies too.
man, someone just shoot me.
i dont know how on earth do i survive.
not mentioning o's yet, common test is already enough to kill.

sometimes mr koh can be so funny.
" dont tell me things like youre the star and im the heaven."
" or youre the oxygen and im the air"
ha! these are wad drama shows say in their scripts if he didnt know.
even song lyrics have too. lol.

finally i cant take it i slept during chinese lesson,
where everyone is watching some shaolin show.
i dont like monks lah, so ya, not interested to watch.
all i can hear is mr hou voice and the screaming of the people who're fighting.
until the last part andre woke me up and told me to see the clip.
and you know i just woke up with a blur mind,
and the next thing i knew i saw a head rolling on the floor O.o
maybe next time before i go watch horror movie i can get some sleep first.
then i wouldnt have much reaction to anything. lol.

cme lesson went to the lab and did some NE quiz on the com.
some funny game where they ask you question,
then earn money, den build buildings in your country.
it was so much like the sims, just a little different in a way.
man, i miss the sims! although its kinda never ending but when youre rich its cool man :)
im so gonna play the sims after my o's. wahaha!

the weather seemed hot today,
but the fact is im feeling so cold.
my mum was thinking if i'm alright cos i was wearing a jacket at home.
hahaha, maybe im getting sick (touch wood).
and she was nagging at me for my phone bills when i was napping today.
i dont know what did she say but she said something like,
7% gst i should also pay, and dunno what else. whatever.
and ive learnt that never to answer questions when youre sleeping.
cos that was wad i did when my mum forced me to answer wad i wanna have for dinner,
and i didnt even feel like speaking anything, cos my mind's like not awake yet,
so i just said rice.
and my dinner was disastrous, cos what she bought was just as torturing as studying.
i killed time by eating it for more than half an hour.

someone sent some wrong message to me in the morning.
it was so facetious to me. hahaha.

man, i dread pull ups. totally! sigh.
well anyway, caught mr koh looking suspiciously at mr lim's car,
so i told him in class (heh).
then mr lim said hes going to sell some things to him cos hes changing a car soon.
wooo. and he was so happy over it man.
indeed, men seem to love their cars more than their wives.
and he is not in the mood to get angry cos his aniversary is coming.
hahaha aww.
i dont know whats so wrong with junyi and andre today,
andre didnt speak a word at all.
as in like, junyi told me there was some "secret" thingy going on,
and if andre talked he would leak it out.
like whatever -.- i dont really care.
but it was kinda quiet in my area today lah.
hmm doesnt matter though, i dont like noises.
cos its kinda irritating when people scrrream.
yes, social studies was a total boredom. as usual.
but somehow survived.
well, based on the abominable fact that common test is coming,
i have a feeling i wont have ample time to study. hais.
its like absolute maniacal.

i think mr koh and clarence impacted me somehow.
im using new words in my post. lol?




perhaps all it takes is just for you to make the first step.

it seems so wrong, awry, bad, confused, crooked, defective, erring, erroneous, fallacious, false, faulty, flawed, foul, glitched up*, haywire, imperfect, improper, inaccurate, inappropriate, incorrect, mistaken, sick, unfair, unlawful, unsuitable, untoward of this.

should i be sad or should i not?
oh well nevermind.

there is something so wrong with my printer =(
sighhh.

oh well anyway, parents were talking about my love life again.
today MORNING at around 8am O.o
and i have no idea whats so funny.
they just laughed at the same moment.
oh yeah, luckily i wasnt tempted to laugh also,
if not means i admit leh right! yes so i still have my own stand. lol.
oh, i receieved loads of things from church today.
belated valentine gifts...
hmm, not that bad lah, at least got something to accompany me when im studying.
ha-ha.

i got kinda embittered studying amath somehow in the afternoon,
and im seriously very tempted to sleep.
but i dont want to sleep in such uneasy peace.
so i went to the stadium and jog four rounds. lol.
it was surprising to see quite a number of adults there on a typical sunday afternoon.
yes, felt better after jogging(although i was like nearly half-dead)
lol.

was kinda lost in taka cos i cant find art friend in that stupid place.
was kinda sad cos my phone dropped on the stupid escalator.
was kinda restless cos i waited for the stupid bus for like super long.

but i was kinda very happy cos i saw snoopy everywhere.
i finally found places which have got so many snoopy.
thats the best thing for today man :D

i shall sleep while i can.
before weekdays approach.
but note to self : study!!!

there goes my geog test.
i think i simply just wrote crap.

mr koh came back to us! lol.
for once he sounded so serious and emo to us.
oh well, afterall hes still a human with feelings lah.
after school went out of the school to have lunch,
which means i skipped chinese remedial. lol.
no one stayed back lor, so...yeah.
anyway we are only supposed to do cao xie,
go home write also the same lar.
but mr hou quite sad lar, 6/43 went only.
mr lim changwei praised me today leh!
so encouraged by him. hahaha although his smiley face looks abit weird.

its finally friday!
but its ten more days to common test. *sigh*



its what your thoughts matter.

just another day?

happy valentine's day :)
a day for love.



thanks for the home-made food :D
thanks for the rose,
and thanks for the chocs.

im starting to get so sick of tests. geog is killing me :(

mr koh is angry with our class.
i have no idea oh what the heck did we do anyway.
he is weird.
and that wasnt very nice of him to just walk out of the class like that.
ohhh well.
mr razali sat behind me today for two periods.
kinda scary, but aiya, i was not really bothered by him anyway.
and i realise he laugh alot too. lol.
cca is just a waste of time.
went out of the school and did some lame stuffs.
how i wish i can step down right now at this moment. lol.
anyway, miss nai's piglet in her car is so adorable :)

and..it's valentine's day tmr.


just a moment yet to pass by.

everything felt abit restless...
until this moment that i saw something.

ANDRE POSTED SOME VERY INTERESTING THINGS IN HIS BLOG.
ohhhh my. maybe i should feel honoured.
lol im practically laughing when i was reading,
although it wasnt suppose to be the case,
cos its a so malu thing. lol...

http://www.andre-panda.blogspot.com/
dated 09 Feb.

school's dead.
i mean, it feels like it.
someone just tell me why this year feels so dead.

i know its still cny, and im talking about d-e-a-d.
hahaha, nevermind, my mum doesnt know.

and theres so many testss!!!
sigh :(

i love you dad =)

how could i possibly feel tired when i slept for like ten hours last night???
yeah i feel like sleeping.
i'm amazing. lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIA :D
yay dad rocks!
julia rocks too!

went out with mandy today.
sorta shopped around today.
cos i just wanna go buy stuffs.
so yeah, ruby didnt join us eventually,
she was too high over her "idol".
and some people misunderstood wad i said!
ahhh nevermind. strangers, i cant be bothered to bother. lol.
and then went to walk around some places in orchard,
some people called us minnie and superwoman. hahaha cos of our shirts lah.
so and so... and our legs very suan also, walk so long.
went to tpy and buy stuffs and went amk to eat.
you cant go out with me sometimes if you wana go a big place,
cos i seriously dont know how to lead the way.
if you wanna get lost you can find me. lol.
and that mad woman with me kept scolding escalators today.
saw melvin, and sometimes its better to pretend not to see him when you see him.
lol, his smile looks more like a smirk to me.

time to get back school mood. sighhh.
no more sleeping too! aww.
.

dunno why everyone seems to read whats written on my shirt.
what is written is not even a proper sentence,
cos its not even something to be read. lol aiya whatever.
ah long movie is super funny!!!
met up with shirly at serangoon mrt.
then we went to vivo and met up with andre and alvin.
oh yeah thanks, i know im the shortest. lol.
so due to the long queue at the cinema,
shirly and me were trying to go to the vivomart cos she wana buy chocs.
and yes, we got lost. lol we landed up in some carpark, so forget it.
hahaha, i rmb going there with elroy once also,
but too bad elroy brought me there...blah nevermind.
so shirly and me went back there to the queue.
shirly sang to me. hahaha and i clapped okay! dun say i very dao. heh.
they wanted to watch the 5plus movie cos the infront one all only left with first row.
and i dont want, cos very late no time.
and in the end they got the 4pm movie, landed up in the first row,
and they blame me!!! Lol hey not my fault okay,
its bcos the tickets are selling so fast, so im innocent :D
sometimes we should have a change in seats. ahaha.
i want to watch kung fu dunk lor. sad man.
but its okay lar, ah long is quite hilarious anyway. lol.
then went to accompany shirly to look for her choc,
but too bad cant find what she wanted, so bought smth else eventually.
lastly we bought popcorns! wahahas :D
by right shirly and me were sharing one,
then somehow alvin went to buy another one.
and for the whole two hour movie i ate one and a half box of popcorns can.
they all also never eat one lor, say what buy for me one.
andre took some from me only.
still got half box left leh...lol. popcorns are nice :)
andre was hoping i freeze in there, but nah, im warm-hearted okay!
thats why im not cold. hahaha.
and the two brothers were bullying me.
one was mess-ing up my hair, and the other one was hitting my head -.-
after the movie sent shirly to the bus stop cos she got to go.
and then we went back to harbor front and I ATE MY PIZZA.
hahaha finally can. my pizza my pizza my pizza :D
dunno why theyre so interested in the "make your own pizza" thingy.
well anyway, alvin and andre looked at me eating my new york pizza.
haha, and its a pleasure to see me eat lor, so dont give me that face!
although i know im slow in eating(hahaha).
and stop laughing at my name. miss leung sounds so nice okay. Lol.
andre kidnapped my wallet and phone. horrible.
and he took some very "interesting" shots too. oh my.
maybe you could get to see the fierce look of mine from him.
for more information, go and look at his blog.
maybe he'll be posting all sorts of things.
man, days without school is just so cool. haha.
i think i used up too much energy today.
time to pig. im very exhausted. lol.

new york pizza with the chicken wing there. lol

.

and im with the one who's taller than me now. lol

http://www.addictinggames.com/theimpossiblequiz.html?r=user_posted_link

amazing. hahaha.
jiaxin gave me this :)

sometimes, i really don't like bio.

went to changi airport's terminal three today.
woah. its beautiful. yeah.
my whole family and my relative went together.
we took like almost one hour of bus there.
so had lunch, which took me kinda long,
and my dad was queuing for very long to buy drinks also.
ha, and my mum and relative just kept talking -.-
my dad and i are so pang seh-ed can. lol.
but whatever lar, i cant be bothered to talk much also.
was feeling tired and abit of headache.
well by the way, not only do i get lost in vivocity,
i also get lost in terminal three. what a singapore im living in.
hmm, but anyway, t3 is a nice place to go. lol.

mum promised me that she would pei me go eat pizza.
but in the end she turned back her words.
it's like so....whatever.
i really dont like it when people break their promise,
or give empty promises.
if you cant assure you can do it, then dont even say it in the first place can.
the place im going tmr also dont have...but three people also cant eat lah.
oh well. nevermind.
self encouragement : there's always another day to eat my pizza.

im not in a very good mood now,
and so im not going to eat my ice cream.
pizzaaaaaaa ='(

and so did the night passed by.
i was here, trying to get over and done with homeworks.
but due to my inner soul telling me how tired i am,
and this heart of mine tells me to go and sleep instead.
so let's forget about:
bio workbook, english journal, ss test, emath test, physics test, geog test and common test!

for today.

stupid heels, make my leg so pain. lol.
and they arent even high at all.
oh well. went to church with dad,
cos mum was doing some ushering so she went there first.
and so after that we all went home together.

mum was preparing lunch.
ruby came over to my house :)
so she had lunch with me, cos my parents ate first before she came.
she was horrified when my mum asked her to finish them. HAHAHA.
i think whoever comes to my house to eat must have a super hungry stomach.
lol so i helped her to finish eating. man, im good. heh.
she was laughing at my mum for wad she says,
and she said my dad was cute?! now she knows how weird my family is. lol.
uh, so we were doing nonsense things.
was showing her some stuffs in my com.
and then was introducing her to my room,
cos she said it was scary. lol come on my room is so interesting can.
so we were spending the whole day looking at my stuffs and everything,
and i dont know why we laughed so hard at the things we did in sec1.
hahaha, oh well. and my relatives came, but i didnt attended to them.
lol oops, sorry but they didnt stay long either...so yea. *laughs*


i feel so free! freed of study stress. wahahaha.
really, it seems like the day can just go on without passing time.
and i have been eating like non stop.
my mouth didnt seem to stop having something inside.
gosh, maybe i'll put on weight after cny. ohhh man.

simplicity~

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :)

.

ooh lala.

cny eve

its chinese new year eve today.
its so boring to go school for like, a few hours???
well anyway, the celebration wasnt very pleasant also.
i think our school is abit insane,
whats with that cheering and clapping for everything?
lol crazy man. oh well, but i supported eric!
yeah he was dancing with the gang. hahaha :)
although the whole performance was quite amusing. lol.

i dont make people angry. never :D
but i dunno how to make ppl not angry when they are.
lol but still, cool down kangy! :)


slept for about two to three hours in the afternoon.
dunno why quite tired.
i'll try to stay up until quite late tonight :D
its chinese new year tmr!
the world seems to be very excited. hmm.
although ive got not many plans going on. haha.
toblerone is nice. ive got one whole box.
lol and i have got fererro rocher too.
woah and one packet of chips and two pringles.
and many other food that are for my mum.
pineapple tarts are nice, although i dun like pineapple.
aiya whatever. whats important is,
i'll be having ice cream during cny! hahaha yay :)

老鼠爱米也爱你 =)

the new stall in the canteen is not very nice.
dont understand why theres so many people,
and the price not very cheap either.
they gave ALOT of rice. lol.
for once my mouth got so stuffed with rice until i couldnt speak.

CME was interesting.
my emotional thermometer is positive! :)
although sometimes my thoughts do go negative...
but still...nevermind.

since its cny celebrations tmr, and its cny holidays,
i got no much mood to study already *grins*
i'd rather sleep at home or go out relax abit.
people need to take in some fresh air to breathe sometimes.

and so i went home and did some packing of my room.
whoa i found so many interesting stuffs i did last year.
haha, quite nice lar, although most of them are quite...sentimental stuffs lah.
and i found a knife! Lol a small one. wow scary.
maybe thats for some self-defence if anyone tried to kill me or rape my snoopys in my room.

and my mum was arguing with me over a mouse and a pig.
she told me that thing on our wall looks like pigs,
when its obviously two mice. or rats you call that.
wanted to bet with her, but she didnt accept it do nevermind.
i knew i would win anyway xD hahaha

yay. time for abit of relaxation =)

i slept at 1am last night.
way too abnormal.
and indeed im very tired today. lol.

andre says every two weeks i will be very stressed cos of amath test.
actually not very correct.
in fact its like everytime got alot of tests its very stressful lor.
aiya whatever it is, this year just had got no life.

ruby says i can be a secretary.
cos i write fast. hmm?
then who will be my boss? :D
Lol just random thinking. haha!

and someone hugged me today.
oh my. maybe im quite huggable.
luckily im not in a girls school.
cos probably i will freak out within a month.

incomplete-ness.

i have been drenched for days.
maybe my body is strong enough to withstand all these.
i cant afford to be sick during cny!
yes, although theres nothing much i can actually look forward to.
oh well nevermind.
i wasted my day today sleeping.
im not tired and i still slept.
the weather is cold, and i have no idea on how to do binomial.
which is something that stressed me for the whole day.
i would need to chiong everything by tmr. seriously.
went down with my mum during evening to buy some stuffs.
not really buy stuffs, but she promised me she would buy ice cream for me.
for cny lah, if not she also wont be so gracious to buy such food for me.
so yay. i got a tub of ice cream in my fridge now :D
although not very big tub, but nevermind. quality matters :)
i just hope i wont gain weight by eating too much during cny.
i have alot of junk food in my house now.



just some entertainment that ive found:

and they say people who're born on 7th oct are very rebellious. am i?

i think im seriously lack of discipline on saturdays.
i havent been doing anything!
well i did lah, but the whole afternoon i simply wasted it.

went out to meet alvin and andre for dinner.
saw alot of people on the way. hahaha.
well it took me super long for the journey.
and by the time i reached alr kinda late.
so had dinner and i went home. lol how dumb.
no time to go walk around and shop.
this is like how free i am. go so far just to have one dinner,
when i can have it opposite my house. lol.
maybe im good at wasting time.

i know why people keep themselves busy.
cos when youre busy you dont think of anything else.
only when youre free and bored you think of alot of things.
but what im trying to say is, no matter how you try,
eventually its in your mind means its in your mind.

this is why i love snoopy :)

oh my. i had a bad dream.
almost like a nightmare. hais :(

happy feb? january wasnt very nice.
i was so busy with stuffs until one month passed.
dont know what meaningful things i did also.

Febuary Resolutions:
1. do well for tests and common test!
2. have a pleasant chinese new year holiday :)
3. ice cream!
4. kangy's speciality =)
5. use pen and not pencil in tuition
6. haircut for cny.
7. get more sleep( lol if only i can)


i feel like catching movie. lol.

whatever?
ahhh nevermind. lol.



you.
you you you you you you you.
youuu!!!

last day of january!
like how fast can this be.
time is flying like theres no tmr. zzz.
alright, im so tired today.
after two tests i completely turned off already.

after school i ate ice cream again :D
lol i think im mad. but nevermind.
that shows how bad i want ice cream. haha.
maybe i should stop before i turn into a pig.

dont be sad junyi, its not that i dun understand.
i know what youre trying to say,
just that if i see its no sense,
then i would rather not understand it. lol.



ah yes. look at that! mickey pizza.
its PIZZA! :D hahaha how lovely.
aww man...how i wish i could eat it.
lol i like it lor, so nice :)

i dont believe that they say time will make you forget things.
its just a matter whether you want or dont want, can or cannot.