"The question-mark of life, the full-stop of death and the spaces in between."

Very inspiring sermon today by joey, talks about the uncertainty of life.

I think sometimes we do take life for granted, but now i'm starting to be thankful every morning when i wake up cos i'm still alive :)

Yeap nothing much about today, very ordinary.

Real school is starting from tmr cos classes are beginning already.

Sometimes i can't wait to faster graduate from poly, hahaha~

I was wanting to do some tutorials today but apparently there was nothing to do haha!

There is lah, but i didn't know how to do csit so i decided to rest today! Wahaha.

I need to at least get into the studying momentum now 'cause some other people are already starting on projects so yeah...stress~

Anw, not being exaggerating but i just wanna say that i love it when people ask about me!

Hehe, not that i am attention seeking but i like when people care and ask about me.

Not that i'm very deprived of such things but you know in life, how many people around you really care and ask about you?

How many would come to you and say simple things like "How's life?" or "Are you doing ok recently?" I know, hardly many.

That's why i appreciate little things like this, even just a question or an encouragement is also worth to be happy about :)

This coming week would be great cos there's no school on friday, PH!

Emotions, emotions.

I don't know if it's the rain or what but ever since the sky started to get gloomy my mood was also affected :(

& the rain was so heavy just now somemore, tsk.

Or maybe it was school, i don't know.

I think i am quite feelings-oriented today, hmm well at least i have such a day like this lol.

My new class this semester is weird, somehow.

Didn't quite feel in place also, but aiya doesn't bother me much.

Just felt sian to work with people all over again, so tiring doing things all over again every semester.

But anyway, glad that mr wong still recognizes me so it made things better.

Didn't know what to say for introduction so i just said i love to sleep, lol.

Should have used yeejoo's suggestion and say i emo when i'm free, haha!

Hmm...anw i guess i'm really someone who loves to give...just like what kyann said about me.

Like when i really want to do something, i will because i just feel like giving.

So i guess that is why i feel abit weird when i'm not doing anything.

But well, there's always smth good about everyday, so should be positive! :)

& Yours truly loves you! ^^

Didn't go school today cos thursdays i have all tutorials and first week has got no tutorials :D

So spent the day with the ladies cos i promised sansan to accompany her to get shoes.

I think i'm going to get myself a pair for school as well by next year...cos i think my current shoes are all not very suitable for school, hahaha.

Ikea in the afternoon, but didn't shop much 'cause we just went there to eat.

But i really love all the stuffs there, so nice :)

Anyway, really feel glad to have such awesome friends who truly care for me 'cause they think about well-being in school (like for my project groupings/friends etc).

I guess the world out there are bound to have difficult people so why not just face them and deal with them rather than trying to keep worrying and think of avoiding ya?

I don't have much courage like how yeejoo has in making her stand but for me, i think i'll just let things be and make something out of it.

So dreading tmr cos gotta go back to school for make-up class in the afternoon, spoil my day :(

But nevermind...since friday doesn't allow, then hope saturday does!

Two heavy lectures today, the second one i didn't really pay attention cos it was just introduction and she was reeeally boring - still the same as year 1.

Feeling so tired everyday now.

Anyway it's rather troublesome to get out of sentosa, especially when you're rushing for time.

I don't like :(

& Sad that i still got to go school on friday, thought i could free myself this week.

But here's something to cheer myself up - i can wake up later tmr! :)

Miiiiiiiissssssssesssssss!

Headache's still with me today after noon, i think i'm lack of sleep :(

Nothing much today though, would be hanging out at vivo more often now for meals and stuffs cos the school's canteen kinda cmi.

Oh and i got a bad news today, heard that my tutorials this sem are going to suck because we can't use our phones doing classes! What the crrrap.

This is seriously dreading cos i can't imagine staring at the board for two hours.

Haiz, this is a crazy world.

Two lectures tmr~

I think i prefer the lecture halls at TAS compared to TP, although it's smaller but it looks better and the tables are nice, hahah.

Hitting the sacks early tonight, yay.

First day of school!

Alright, my day was long but nevertheless i wanna blog before i turn in.

So...started the day off with a birthday lunch with my deeearest kyann :)

My plan was almost perfect but too bad the waiters missed out one of my surprises.

But neverminddd, shall forgive them since they were busy anyway.

She said i'm a romantic person! Heh heh.

But lunch was rather rushy cos gotta go for lecture so yada yada...had a quick celebration.

Hope she enjoyed though.

Any any wayyy, i started school with my favourite module of this sem - festival&events mgmt!

I think i should like it lah, hopefully.

Although the lecture was kinda draggy and dry but i like! :)

Oh btw, TAS is really weird cos the whole building just feels so antique?

The rooms and all are like those olden houses with only doors that looks like fences and stuffs like that.

But i'm still quite lost in the academy cos everything looks the same haha!

& it really doesn't feel like you're in school or something cos it's just so...island-ish feeling.

Celebrated sansan's birthday over dinner also, then headed down to pasir ris.

Helped yeejoo with her tuition classes :)

Luckily my mum forced me to do my timetables, now it came in super handy haha!

So her old-fashioned or rather traditional mindset does work for once :P

Not easy for her to bring the class so i must say well done to her! :)

There were indeed some very naughty kids there.

I thought i was fierce enough but i think they treated this relief teacher as invisible -.-

Ok lah but at least they responded when i start speaking cos i was rather solemn at first lol.

But this was a good preview, cos in dec i'm going to help her with a few classes for two weeks too.

Okie dokie, gonna email my resume and off to sleep.

Lecture early morning tmr!

So, school's starting tmr.

Hope this sem would be great.

I think this week would be pretty relaxing cos it's just lectures so i'm quite free still.

My mood was slighter better today i guess, haha.

Had a rushy morning having a mini party with my class and celebrated myra's birthday.

They said my cutting cake skills abit cmi -_-"

Aiya can't blame mah, the knife got creamy so eventually everything looks creamy lor.

Anyway, i feel happy and excited for qad! :)

Glad that at least you won't be feeling so unhappy and sian as before anymore :)

Work hard and jiayou, i support you ^^

One of those moody days again :(

Hormone changes suck.

Mmhmm, wasted the last saturday of my holidays doing nothing much.

Tmr's going to be a busy day for me though, gotta run a few places.

I'm bored and restless so i decided to do some reflections.

I think after these three days of camp, i guess i've learnt many things although i wasn't attending the camp but more of just helping out.

I saw how parents worry about their children, how much problems they face in a family, and how much it takes for a parent to bring up the family and the child.

I see all the teachers talking about their children, how successful they are in life and all, but i've also heard about some parents who are having a hard time teaching the child.

Being a child is not easy, comparing to all the other children out there i may not be a very good daughter but at least i'm always trying to be one.

I've seen how much friendship is valued and it is something that we all should cherish.

Sometimes we do take friendships for granted just because we feel that friends are many out there, neglecting a few wouldn't matter but in this few days i've seen how much impact friendship can affect a person's social life.

Being a good friend is not easy, because i also struggle with decisions that i couldn't handle.

But the power of friendship goes a long way down the road.

Just like last night i was disturbed by yj's problem cos i really feel bad.

She's really an awesome friend because i know if it was another person, i would probably get another kind of reaction already.

Really thankful to have such a nice friend like her.

However, if i were to become one of the teachers in children's church in the future, i hope to see all these children to grow up being successful men and ladies :)

(So motherly sounding right, haha!)

Home sweet home.

Finally back from camp this afternoon, feeling very restless and tired.

But anyway, i've got back much from the camp.

Got to know many teachers and pastors better.

So not that bad, just that bathing with cold water was terrible lol.

Anyway, i'm more bothered about school stuffs now.

Timetable is out though. Mondays to Thursdays at Sentosa, Fridays in TP.

It was not that bad, but i hate fridays now 'cause i end school at 6pm on fridays -.-

And all three classes are lab sessions, which means boring sian.

And fortunately or not, my last tut is the same tutor as i had for bese last sem.

My gosh. I have like all the weird and strict tutors this sem.

And the saddest thing is that i'm not in the same class as yeejoo!!! :(

Even ruby that silly also not with me, so pathetic.

I'm like always somewhere on the other side, haiz.

But at least still got a few whom i know of so not that ke lian.

Oh well...i hope this sem would be better, in some ways.

& I've got loads of stuffs to do also, hectic life's really starting, all over again.

Today was less tiring than yesterday.
Guess the children had fun...i had fun laughing at their nonsensical stuffs haha...kids are kids.

Last day tmr! Gonna go home and rest liao...hopefully still have time to do so.

Sian school's starting and i'm alr like having some problems that i need to settle. Poly poly...ma fan si le.

Phew finally can take a rest now.
Camp was busy and tiring today.
Due to the lack of teachers helping out so there's more work to do.
Was rather different from last year cos this time it was held in church.
Hmm but afterall it was still fine, just that i'm v tired physically.

Oh and i hope the haze would go off soon, so damaging to health like that.

It's 9 and the kids still have movie later on...dunno what time will the teachers like us get to sleep...oh no.

Last week before school starts...time flies.

Timetable's coming out on friday...i wanna be in the same class as yeejoo!!!

Anyway, will be off to church's p6 camp tmr as teacher helper until friday.

Although this year isn't at chalet but i hope it will still be fun!

Hello there, i hope you are feeling fine :)

Today had been meaningful...just that i didn't like the rain, haha.

YeeJoo went to catch my one and only woodstock for me ^^

So happy leh, now my snoopy has its companion! Haha i like it, so cute.

Hmm had been eating quite alot lately...gotta cut down soon.

But i think the three day camp this wed will refrain me from eating too much.

I'm worrying over my shampoo over any other things lol, cos i can't seem to find any packed kinds around, sian.

Compromising and accommodating isn't something easy.

Super long day!

CC today, did some interesting stuff with the kids.

Haha then we were discussing on what they wanna do after psle, like what activities they want to have etc.

But abit pathetic cos as usual, i don't know why kids like them don't respond -_-"

Anyway, met up with sansan after church to do some shopping~

Good stuffs are always sooo expensive, tsktsk.

Then went to find dawn to do some stuffs also.

My whole day was rather occupied and busy loh.

Came back and had a tiff with mum.

She has completely no idea how busy i am ok, zzz.

And for that matter i am still going to be v busy for the coming week.

She has got to get used to my busy life somehow.

Lovely day. Love saturdays :D

Anyway, just being random here.

I think i'm weird but i love clocks lol.

I like the very nice ones, those that look abstract and classic.

I think i'll get alot of nice clocks for my house next time haha!

Letter 29 - The person that you want to tell everything to but too afraid to

Skipping this letter also hahaha. Last letter left to go!

Woke up too early...now i'm feeling stony.

Anywayyy, dinner last night was good!

The cell celebrated audrey's and my birthday :)

It was damn amusing cos we kinda knew abit things here and there as they were trying to be funny and stuffs.

Tsktsk, cannot escape from my eyes or ears one lah :P

But still i appreciated their efforts la, i think they had fun throughout the process also.

Love my cell, they're like my best clique on earth ♥

I think i wanna go for the temp events assistant job in nov that the school has just emailed.

It's just for a few days so i guess it's fine...and it's for experience also.

Maybe through that then i'll know if i am really interested in that area, after realising that my passion is not at the airport but perhaps more of events planning.

And i think it's quite a rare opportunity lah.

It's weird when students like us are being bombarded with such jobs...cos i think it's rather time-consuming somehow.

I think i've rejected many ever since i've entered poly, lol.

Ten more days to the start of school again, sianz.

Dread the tutorials cos i have to repeat my name again, tsk.

Thanks to my procrastination in not putting my english name in my ic during the holidays.

But on the other hand i'm rather looking forward also cos i want to pull up my grades!

Haha sounds quite desperate and kiasu but whatever lah, my big drop was like a huge provoke to me.

But i hope the modules next sem would be more...appealing?

Or whatever you call it la...i don't want to dislike any subjects like how i did last sem :(

Somehow it gets nostalgic when the year is ending, hmm.

Letter 28 - Someone that changed your life

Perhaps life would have been different if I hadn't met you, but I'm very glad that I have. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have learn and grow so much today. You taught me many things in life, just like a potter moulding his artwork. I am really grateful for your tolerance, patience, understanding, love and care from the beginning. I love all the good moments and although we also had the bad ones, at least I'm glad that we went through them together and were even stronger as before thereafter. As much as I feel so blessed to have you, I hope you feel the same joy and delight that I feel too. I guess I couldn't imagine life without you, because I know you have already inhabit a part of me. Thank you for being you, qad.

Two days work have ended, yay.
Nothing much today but more tired than yesterday...i think its the body clock problem bah.
Very tired liao, shall just end here~

Oh what a long day today.
Went to work at expo for the seab international exam for students.
I was at the p2/3 hall sort of "invigilating" and helping out.
Kinda slackish thing la, just alot of patience required, waiting around and stuffs.
But one thing was the kids kept going toilet for fun so we gotta keep bringing them -_-"
Luckily the chief saved us by announcing no going to toilets alr lol.
Wah but i think that for students like them coming to singapore to study and get into a local school's really not easy.
Quite chim for them la, i see some of them like dun understand the question...oh well.
Tmr's the big group all sec students.
Quite tiring also cos spent so much time there...but also abit easy labour la...i think they are more like overpaying hahaha~

Nua-ness today.

I have piles of books on my table that i need/want to read but i am just lazy.

Initially i wanted to go out to buy some stuffs but again, i am lazy.

Tsk, so failure today right.

But but but, i've finally finished completing the big x'mas project for kyann :)

The postcard is finally done and is on way to printing, yay.

I do hope that through that i will bless more people around for the event!

Although i'm like so behind-the-scenes but doesn't matter, at least i have some sense of satisfaction in me :)

Will be working for the next two days with a few friends...some exams thingy.

Hope time can pass faster!

Not that i don't cherish living the present now but this week feels extremely draggy.

Letter 27 - The friendliest person you knew for only one day

This letter is difficult leh, nobody i know for only a day. Skipping this.

It had been long since i had monday blues, thanks to holidays! Wahaha.

Kinda moody today due to the many sudden changes in plans today, made me very sian.

But still, had a good time with kyann, though we skipped bible study haha!

So anyway, met up with ruby and mandy for dinner after sooo long.

Did some catching up and stuffs.

I think mandy's world is quite drama leh....full of violence and aggression lol.

Hmm auspicious day, 10/10/10. Haha.

Church was fine and all, so nothing much today.

Joshua and HJ ar, always think too much.

Normal things also think until become abnormal alr, tsktsk.

Too bad lah, i don't like to share about personal stuffs lol.

I think psle wasn't difficult this year cos apparently my class was able to do on average?

So that's a good thing!

Only my jc friends are dying due to promos and uni friends are busy like crap.

So i guess i'm lucky enough not to have any of those now but sadly school is starting in two weeks so yeah...limited good-days.

My week ahead would be busy as well~

Working for two days and other gatherings etc.

I'm quite tired actually haha...no energy alr.

I hope my body can still get used to waking up early :O

Feeling good after a bath (for the second time)!

The weather was so horrible this morning.

But today was still lovely anyway :D

I love hugs ^^

Very nice of joshua to do up a card for me personally yesterday.

I took quite some time trying to figure out what he was saying and the structure of it lol!

Very amusing but cute lah, appreciated it~

Oh and we had cell last night, like finally after dunno how long.

But because some of them already left for their uni cells so it's kinda empty :(

Not so lively without them anymore, aw.

I still have like two more celebrations left, one this coming week and one the week after.

So looong leh, i also dun have the birthday mood alr haha.

I can just take it as some meetup or gathering lol.

Human nature is sucha funny thing. Tsktsk.

I think my first impressions of people hardly ever change.

So i hope some people can stop trying to prove to me that they have changed cos i think very often a person's personality is already there.

Unless we're talking about character then it's a different thing but..ya.

I wonder where did all the mature guys go... oh well.

People like qad is still the best ^^

Letter 26 - The last person you made a pinky promise to

Dear myself,

Yes i promised to study hard and pull up my grades next sem! :)

Shereen.

Was supposed to meet joo at noon for lunch and ikea but apparently i couldn't wake up 'cause i was too tired so i cancelled it. Haha sorry!

But i think she was feeling equally tired too la, wahaha.

Oh yes. I've removed my tagboard!

Yeah, shutting all communication mediums lol.

Ok, i'm back to working on my stuffs now.

I hope i can do up gid's photography logo soon cos it's getting pressurizing when my designs are not here nor there yet.

But i think this holiday is quite meaningful cos i am occupied with many stuffs, and although i'm busy but it feels better than being busy with school work.

Letter 25 - The person you know that is going through the worst of times

I'm skiping this letter too cos i really dunno who to write to, haha!

Happy Birthday

Yay, my big best birthday had been good :)

Thanks to all who wished me, i feel so loved! Hehe.

Just that the whole day i had been busy with replying tons of fb wishes.

I made the effort to reply all individually cos i feel that at least they bothered enough to wish so i should appreciate it!

Many thanks to my poly clique for celebrating the night with me at the old school!

& the dedicated song also...so shy leh lol.

Thanks for spending so much money and time...i'm touched :)

And my dear yeejoo too...she ended up being so seh due to the drinks haha!

See la, empty stomach's consequence...tsktsk.

Although i still have upcoming bday celebrations in the next week but i feel happy and contented already.

But i dun mind having more celebrations cos it's different company! Haha :)

Ok i'm tired...gonna sleep after i'm done with my stuffs.

Miss you qad!

Shereen officially turns 18 today! :D

Awesome stuff, i don't know why but i feel that my birthday this year was a long awaited one.

Wahahaha probably cos the past few months had been so mundane.

But anyway, yay it's my birthday! Happy! I hope you feel happy too! ^^

B'day eve! :)

Appreciated kyann's efforts and thoughts :)

& i think it's very nice of her cos i kept changing dates, lol.

Tmr's arriving ~ :D

Tell you a secret, i can't wait to eat cakes! :D

Hehe maybe because it had been long since i ate one but i'm going to have a birthday cake at home this year, so exciting! Haha!

Anyway, i think i'm going to remove my tagboard soon.

I find it irritating when i keep getting those spams from people who goes around tagging every other people's blogs just to advertise their stuffs or something like that -.-

It's your thoughts that count, i appreciate it :)

Hmm today's gonna be good, i have two bday meals awaiting for me.

Hehe so exciting! I like birthdays cos in times like these i feel loved ^^

Alright, lets see what i have been busy with recently :

- christmas event's publicising postcard

- gid's wedding photography co. designs & new menu list

- upcoming months of cell plannings/events

Yeahhh so so busy. Hopefully can finish mostly before school starts.

& btw, the weather sucks, don't you think so?

Well and lately i've seen and heard about people around me facing stress and problems - not just one but a few.

So...i feel like encouraging all of them! :)

Such bad times in life are unavoidable, so i think that we should not be defeated by the negatives but think otherwise. Life goes on~

Think about the people who care and love you, at least you know you still have them.

Stay optimistic because i believe the near future holds better moments for you! Cheerios :)

Hello world, my day had finally ended...what a long day.

Church for the first half of the day.

Started on some of my plannings with the cell and stuffs.

Was rushing and rushing for time.

Such things always happen - when you have time you have no plans, when you have no time everything comes in. Tsk.

Anyway, so i went home for a quick change and off to meet the ladies at downtown.

Huiping's chalet was super far lah, walk so long also haven't reach.

So we celebrated her birthday! :)

Initially was kinda screwed but i think towards the end things got better, haha.

Enjoyed the catching up with friends and stuff.

But i think chalet is a very...i don't know how to put it...sensitive thing?

'Cause it's bad for comers who came in small groups cos they will be like left out, or there will be small cliques around the whole place so it doesn't really feel like a "whole thing" anyway.

& i personally discourage holding b'day chalets 'cause i realise it's always the birthday person doing all the things...which doesn't seem very correct to me.

Unless the thing was held by friends or smth then i think it's nice, rather than a self thing.

Hmm i guess my week ahead would be quite busy cos schedule's kinda packed.

Following next two weeks as well...woah then it's school alr, gosh.

I think i'm really a busy person although i may not look like one on the outside.

Alright, time for bed.

Toodles!

Here is a person, giving endless support and being there for you;

Always with you, behind you, beside you, to see you through.

Here is a person, who will never leave;

Here is a person, a person like me :)

Phew, finally can settle down after like 4 hours.

One of my cousins moved out today, so i had to reorganize my whole room and clean up.

Now my room looks so much neater and "emptier" in a sense, happy :)

But i was suggesting to mum that i should get a new shelf cos my current one cmi.

Still deciding, if really buying would be doing so in the coming week bah.

Moving house should be a happy thing i guess, wish i could move too haha!!!

So tired.

Gonna be another long day tmr + it's huiping's birthday chalet~

Letter 24 - The person that gave you your favourite memory

Dear qad,

I hope your favourite memories have got me inside too (although you often have stm :P) Hmm I must say i'm really happy to have known you, because you're someone who can make me feel comfortable and happy to be with. Thank you so much for all your efforts and time for me, i truly truly appreciate you :) I can't really say which memory with you is my favourite 'cause i love them all the same, haha. May we have much more memories together 'cause i'm looking forward to the future memories! :)

Shereen

Yawnz, nothing much today.

I've started working on things that i should be...hope i can complete them more or less before school starts.

Today passed by pretty fast though...hmm i think its because i woke up late bah, haha!

Letter 23: The last person you kissed

Dear (ahem),

You're very honoured to have my kiss ok! Hahaha~

Shereen.