Rather disappointing day.

Planned for abigail's birthday celebration after church but she last minute couldn't come.

Oh well. Made eloise buy the cake for nothing :\

Didn't go for teacher's training, haha left gideon alone there cos everyone cmi.

Went to look for a birthday gift after that but didn't manage to find it either :(

Wasted my time going in circles...sigh, hate the weather as well.

Another week's here, sian.

I'll always be here to support you :)

dearest,

I miss you.

Another long day.

So today, met up with sec clique for marina barrage.

They never fail to always make me wait uh -.-

So anyway, had picnic and kiting. Our shark kite is cool, haha.

But spent alot of time trying to fly it -_-"

Weather wasn't good though, but good also cos that means no sunburn :)

Left shortly for church thereafter.

Dinnered with josh, gid and kyann.

The auntie was super not attentive loh.

First time thought i didn't want any drink, second time gave me the wrong drink -.-

Haiyoh, guess she must have a bad or tired day.

So had cell, gideon's lessons never fail to be soooo tensed and long.

Can you believe we could think our brains out just for a question like "what is peace?"

Yeah, ha.

Gonna have loads of stuffs to be busy with alr.

Goodnight world.

Gosh, very tired.

Quite a long day for me, somehow or rather.

Since qad slept much earlier than me le, then i shall finish my busy stuffs first.

Work today...thursdays are so going to be much tougher than my mondays.

Can't believe i'm like a multi-subject teacher to kids now mwhahaha.

But still, first time marking so many papers...now i got a feel of how teachers are like, haha.

Though i could choose better jobs and higher pays, but well, i'm not really into the extrinsic reward, at least not for now.

Perhaps more of experiencing something and most imptly, reaping into part of my backup plan in future.

Anyway, was delayed back to finish up marking some papers so came home late.

But well, it was satisfying teaching them.

Still have lots of other stuffs to be busy with.

Can't believe i'm still so busy despite having no school now -_-"

Woohoo, exams are over! :)

Threw away everything in my mind alr hehehe.

No exam stress = shiok.

Time to work and get busy with other stuffs!

While getting some life first before school starts.

& my beauty sleep! Awesome :)

Awesome, done with OB paper today.

At least my misery recently didn't went into the drain...got some sense of achievement there.

Wrote seven pages of answers and it can really kill, hand was so suan can.

The setters are so terrible, set so many parts with so much to write.

Reminded me of how horrible it was when i was doing my geography paper for O's.

Paper was relatively fine so kinda feel like half of my burden's off me already.

Econs tmr! with 60% weightage! *stress*

I don't think it's gonna be easy cos mid sem paper was a moderate killer.

Jiayou to myself bah.

Feel much better after sleeping...though i had a hard time getting to sleep last night :(

Ok, OB paper later!

Die die also must have mood to do the paper alr.

Sigh, thought my day could be at least better pretty soon.

But apparently, no :(

Anticipated for the whole day but end up for nothing.

Damn sian lor.

Totally restless and moodless today.

Probably cos of the stress for tmr's and wed's exam.

So sian...so sian. Sick of studying, sick of looking at all the wordy theories.

Just wanna go take the stupid paper and get over with it.

Ugh.

:(

Ahhh, i feel so miserable :(

I totally don't have the mood to continue studying lar.

Study until i don't know how to study alr.

Ever since ten days ago...grrr can't withstand this prolonged siansation with the books.

Although it's just two papers but it's horrible enough.

Just want to faster get over with them, tmr and wed!!!

I really think i have no much motivation for sem 1.2, sigh.

But thank God somehow i survived the six months through.

Random stuffs :

1. it's finally raining, after like...weeks
2. church in the morning, had some activities with the preteens
3. saw an ambulance on the road moving damn slowly, i think the patient inside cmi even before they reached the hospital -.-
4. corrected the counter that he should have charged me more for my lunch cos i upsized
5. still miserably studying ob and econs
6. some car screeched and stopped suddenly on the road and shocked me
7. craving for pastas
8. hope i can finish studying tmr, sian
9. looking forward to my bed(sleeping)
10. i just simply love my love

me, ob and econs

• stress
• sian
• study
• sleepy

For some reasons, the time is passing by fast...crap.

Very stress ahhhhhhhhhh.

:(

It's always the best with you, period.

:)

Woke up in the morning with 107 mails, thanks to the bunch of ladies last night talking on fb as if it's msn -_-"

But anyway, met up with them for lunch to celebrate shiyu's birthday at tm.

They were awesome lah, missed them :)

Had our usual buffet, but i didn't eat much today though.

Left halfway cos of...ahem...anyway, at least i waited for the two girls to go get the cake before i go.

So..still a good friend eh? :)

Although my heart can never win over my head...haha.

Many thanks to jaslyn for helping me to hand in the forms to school,

& yeejoo for helping me to print my stuffs :)

Having headache now, argh :(

either stress from work or stress from exam.

First day of work, learnt new stuffs and got a little confused at first.

Man, kids nowadays are really getting more and more stress.

The amount of homework they do is madness from tuition.

And seeing them doing endless corrections ah, feel sad for them.

So i'm marking and guiding in three subjects, english math and chinese.

Wah everytime if i happen to tio a chinese student i very stress one loh.

Scared that i don't know how to answer their question or read the chinese word -_-"

& i've seen too much of algebra today! wah seeing stars alr.

And their handwriting...i can faint -.-"

Maybe this was what which caused my headache ba.

Anyway, ms lim called me today and asked me to go for some writing class.

Apparently, why do i have to be called to attend all these ever since primary school?

Gosh, not like as if i want to become an author or writer -.-

Oh well, but for the sake of points i might consider.

What's more it's just one day...ask the rest first, heh.

Five more days left to final papers!

But i am still only halfway through, sobs.

Hmm, this year i've got much more angbao money compared to previous years.

Something to be happy about, hahaha.

Plus cousin just came back, so adding on to all my msia angbaos too.

Everyone getting more and more generous ah, giving more each year.

Studied abit today...sian as usual.

I better start to go at a faster rate if not i'm never going to finish 'em, *sigh*.

Going for training tmr at work, hopefully won't be too tough to manage though.

Finally got out of my house today.

Qad made my day in the morning! :D

& hope you like it though, don't know if it's nice or not x(

So, met up with aud then went over to tampines together.

Lunch with the cell at gid's place.

His dog was damn fierce lor, half awake people go over also will become very awake.

Hmm was nice knowing kyann anyway, as well as teasing her and gideon wahaha.

So yeah, spent the day with the group of them.

Back to mugging for exam after today liao.

Zzzzz...

Supposedly going to some relative's place but decided to stay home.

Super sian...kinda pathetic to study but oh well.

Nothing interesting today, only books and food.

Boring day. Really kinda sian and restless.

Cny is nothing much anyway, at least for me.

Church this morning with family and met up with a few of them.

Then basically stayed home and got visited by a few relatives.

Probably if i'm back in penang then i'd be very busy but oh well.

Guess it's also good to have more time to rest?

Exempted myself from studying today cos not really in the mood to.

Hmm...yeah so, tried to kill time as much as i can.

Gonna spend time eating the stuffs at home as well.

Had been thinking about ya,

so much so that i have to msg even though i tried controlling.

Nothing is sweeter than your heartfelt words

Nothing is lovelier than your charming smile

Nothing is warmer than your comforting presence

Nothing is stronger than your true love

Nothing is greater than your care and concerns

Nothing is bigger than your loving heart

Nothing is nicer than being with you

Nothing is better than having you in my life

Time will pass and things may change

One thing for sure is that my love will remain

It doesn't matter which day or time, which season or year

For every moment with you is always the best valentine's ever

私は愛する

Happy Chinese New Year & Valentines Day =)

Hmm. I'm not so into the cny mood apparently.

Proud of myself for studying today and being understanding.

Love myself for that :)

I'm going to start studying today!

Last day of school for year 1.

Well frankly, kinda she bu de in a way...it seemed to past by in the blink of an eye.

Although my class wasn't bonded much but at least it was still a nice year with them.

I'm so gonna miss my clique...although i'm not always involved in their crazy little things but i still loved the times with them.

Oh well, i guess life's always transitional.

Friends can just come and go, and come and go.

How often is it true that we always say "friends forever"?

And how much does the term "true friends" apply?

As much as we're always meeting new people, new cliques and new friends,

how often do we still remember and cherish the ones which were once so close to us?

Like i said, it just seems like a transitional thing every now and then.

I don't really like it. I hope those who were will still be, and those who are will always be.

Perhaps leaving year one isn't supposed to be a bad thing cos afterall it's still going to happen.

But maybe i just felt that it was a worthwhile period to remember -

All the crazy projects and presentation and exams been through together.

As much as i didn't say or show out anything but i do feel for the bond, at least.

In other words, separation is one of my greatest weakness i guess.

It's hard to control such emotions.

Oh well, after main papers and after school break, it would be a whole new thing again.

Life goes on.

-

Ok, enough of all the emo stuffs.

Actually i'm not really into the cny mood for don't know what reasons.

Hmm, gonna start studying hard for my papers alr, ten days away only.

Got to buck up cos the last few lectures i either skipped it or didn't pay attention.

So haha, have to study hard on my own. Cny, a time to study.

Goodnight world it had been a nice day because spending time and seeing qad made my day :)

Morning world today's going to be a nice day =)

"Tell you tmr as you tmr busy."

Omg the more i think of it i feel like dying -_-"

Who on earth will say that kind of thing?!?!?!?!?!

Can't believe it leh seriously.

Should tell me asap ma...i also never say i not free at all.

It's a quality moment leh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What's more i don't have to rush like mad during last minute.

Zhen shi de, ought to knock him on the head leh.

Spent almost the whole day in bed today resting.

That's all.

Staying at home on a school day is so nice :)

But apparently i'm coughing and sneezing like mad this morning so...not that nice actually :(

Sigh better hope i recover by tmr since i've got socio presentation.

Sobs!

Btw, happy birthday to my dad!

Had a horrible morning sneezing and coughing.

So slacked abit during morning lesson as there was practically no lesson -.-

Don't know why on earth did he want us to be there.

Lunch sucked, period.

So prepared for cs interview role play.

Ended in about ten minutes.

It was so fake loh she was like down there acting, i also down there acting.

And she asked questions that i felt it was so irrelevant cos it was more about my personal plans rather than career plans -.-

Ok whatever. But i think i spoke a lil fast cos i was rushing for time hahaha.

Left after the presentation as i was rushinggg.

Love the cab driver for being sooo fast.

First time travelling from tampines and took me pretty fast to reach.

He told me there was this new bridge so he just went zoom.

Only that the traffic jam was irritating when i was just almost reaching.

Met up with the kumon teacher in the afternoon for a short briefing.

I had a hard time walking between the blocks man.

Only realised a much shorter route when i was going back.

Hmm so at least i can occupy myself for two days a week during the hols to work :)

I'm gonna be a potential tuition teacher worrr.

Went and ran some errands after that as well.

Although my nose felt better in the afternoon, but apparently now it seems to have become worse :(

Better go rest and take medication tonight.

Gosh, flu and cough and sore throat :(

Gtt test sucked cos i didn't study but lucky thing i still passed.

Just that it wasn't VERY good but oh well.

OB revision lecture and off to duty.

Last duty of the semester so we had early dinner together at the airport.

Duty was rather fine...happy that it's the last(at least for now) :)

Hehe no more until school reopens in april! Awesome.

Super tired now.

Even though i'm not there, my heart's always with you.

Hmmhmm

Your smile is the best :)

Never ending stress

I feel emo today :(

Pre monday blues + Pre test blues + Pre duty blues.

Sigh.

Tried smiling in church today, though it's not genuine.

But anyway, annabelle's super cute. I like her, haha.

So basically led CC today and home thereafter.

& I think i'm going to be sick soon.

Another long day.

• finished cs test in the morning
• trying to start studying gtt for mon although it's like no time alr
• upgraded my macbook
• dinner at paragon
• jap lobster was awesome
• went over to one of my cousin's apartment to help her with macbook
• studio apartment rocks and i'm so going to get one if i can afford in the future
• dead tired

1. distracted during lessons
2. stayed in the library for four hours to study bcs
3. was very sian and stress and moody and restless
4. kinda screwed up bcs paper
5. dinnered after test
6. had four meals today (very abnormal cos i didnt even have appetite)
7. cs test tmr morning

Sigh!

Currently having OB lesson now...sian.
So not looking forward to the test later in the evening :(((

BCS is the dumbest subject on earth loh.

Just got home awhile after qad.

Today was kind of a sian and a not-so-good day for me?

Initially was supposed to do socio presentation but ended up being pushed back to next week.

Like urghhh...wasted my time preparing and stuffs.

So bu shuang lor...haiz er xin.

& I totally screwed my psycho test paper.

Sigh i doubt i can pass...even if i did maybe just a borderline one.

I was sitting there with blanks :(

But of course managed to crap some stuffs out although i think it's really quite crappy.

Oh well. Hope the rest of my coursework can pull me up ba.

Psycho presentation next.

Did pretty well though :)

After school went to downtown chalet for bbq to celebrate miner's birthday.

Guess gary put in alot of effort and money on her ba.

Anyway, so gary sent a few of us back home after everything.

Think he must have wasted quite an amount of petrol hahaha.

So that was my stressful day part one.

Tmr evening another test and i'm also equally dead for it.

Hope to chiong during the few hours tmr.

Hello world it's gonna be a stress day today.

Bye.

Ok forget about studying le i'm going to sleep.

My eyes and mind are not doing any help to me.

:(

I prefer to wear things that are given by you

-

Hot day.

Intended to go to school much earlier today for next sem's ssm uniform measurement taking.

But on the way, i landed up somewhere else eventually hahaha.

Couldn't stand the slow traffic sometimes, don't understand why singapore has got so many jams.

The bus was so slow till i got quite impatient cos i was kinda "rushing" in a way.

So back to the money way - cab.

Hehe, the day seemed so so much better after seeing qad :)

But frankly i was in the stoning mode all the way from the moment i woke up till i rushed to school.

Gary said i looked like i just woke up from bed when i reached school.

So anyway, had a panting-morning, even when i reached cos i was desperately looking for that measurement place in school -.-"

That young cab driver suay-ly dropped me off at the other end of the school when i'm supposed to go to the other end.

But luckily when i reached the rest were still queuing up.

So...yeah perspired quite a bit today. Haha.

Lunch was awesome, the carbonara at bistro was nice.

Maybe i was too hungry or something but it was good.

Rehearsal for socio presentation and went for econs lecture.

Getting stressed now because i'm having two presentations tmr and test.

Following friday and saturday also having tests.

Next monday and tuesday also have test and role play.

Gosh, i ought to have more discipline.

just came home not long ago...gosh im dead beat now.

Bcs web project presentation today.

For three hours.

Cs tutorial in the afternoon.

Three more hours.

Anyway, didn't know that my cover letter was so good that she actually used mine to show the class heehee!

But still, tutorial was totally boring.

Went to meet my psycho group for proj ppt rehearsal.

Left shortly to airport for duty thereafter.

Duty was rather ok cos the CSO i met was friendly so i managed to kill much time talking with her, wahaha.

So there's this korean pop band who were departing today...dunno what shinee.

So after duty one of my senior went to "look" for them,

but apparently they were inside the lounge so the crew decided to wait for them to come out for boarding in about half an hour.

So me, not knowing who on earth are they who are catching so many thousands of fans, and not being a least bit of interested, i left them and came home :)

Lol some of my friends are like !@£$%~^ at me for not even wanting to see them.

Aiya I don't understand man.

So anyway, had an extremely long day...sigh.

Having some noodles now cos i only ate a meal for today :(

Btw, to end this off, i received like...4 compliments today!

1. some ppl say my style v cool
2. someone say my wavy hair is nice
3. someone say the way my hair curled today was nice
4. someone said i look v mature(different from the person i look like in school)

Mwhaha not that i thick-skin but these are really what people told me today.

Can't really believe but hahaha.

Ok time to sleep.

February's Resolutions:

• do well for my tests/presentations/final year exams
• lead CC well in church
• cny? (actually i'm not very in the mood for it)
• do something special?
• get a job
• eat more ice cream? :)
• continue to be more and more embracing and understanding
• upgrade & clean macbook

1. had been having hiccups for almost the whole day
2. no much appetite today
3. tired and sian
4. wishing tmr will pass by faster
5. can't wait for next episode of autumn's concerto to be out