May's Resolutions:

1. Do well for school work

2. Eat lesser

3. Finish my part for cc project

4. Start on projects

I still think this is better :)

This is reality.

Anyway, was just thinking about what he told me again. Haha, that was so epic. To be honest, I have only 1 serious crush on someone before when I was 17. Crushes are totally not the thing for me man. But whatever it is, I think he guessed that way due to some crappy reasons. Ha, I'm like already so normal until the optimum already please. Don't like people who say things like that actually...but whatever, I'm not bothered le, bleh.

Gonna use the weekend to do as much school work as possible. Sometimes it's just better not to care so much, being more work-minded and head-driven. Byebye!

Apel lesson is just lame man. Week 1 of school is like no school like that lol.

I must say, it's quite a pity when misunderstandings happen. And it just sucks when people think otherwise of you. Oh well.

So many changes today also...hmm shall settle down to school mode soon!

Long day at work, I feel like I've not really started to go back school actually haha. But well, this is like the last "course-day" for me alr I guess.

So tired ah. Dreading the stupid pre sip launch talk tmr night in school -.-

Sua!

Hate this hypocritical environment. Once not enough, now come again. In the first place don't promise if you can't assure it. Empty words only, you think very nice is it? -.-

But whatever, not like as if i can't do without. It's just bobian must go according to the rules. Doesn't matter what or who comes my way anymore, just have to get through it eventually.

Selfish people are just not worth your time and energy.

Nothing different.

So last night, my back tooth was hurting(I suspect it's the wisdom tooth), so I kinda freaked out 'cause I hate the dentist, I hate plucking out my teeth and whatever else that is related. So I was feeling very sian over it during dinner. But the pain was gone today, I hope it doesn't ever come back again.

Managed to read some of the projects for this sem and the individual assessments. Very "year 3" haha, madness luh totally. Gonna be a very busy and stressful time I guess.

Fred's cat is so nua and fluffy, haha so amusing to see his angry face.

Yes, finally back to my own lovely bed! Haven't been sleeping that well I guess.

School just started and I'm not really settled down yet. But I'm gonna be a chiongster this sem! No need to care how others look at me as long as work is done lol.

First day of Year 3.

I think I'm more tired than anyone else. Physically and mentally.

My first day of school was like a joke man, seriously. Cannot describe any better. I think my class are with all the very studious and hardworking people (like me lol :P) Just that the guys are abit more cheeky, that's all. But doesn't matter 'cause anyway I'm not really gonna "make friends" or anything of that sort.

First I had a time of listening to my tutor who had a cheena slang. Then had a lecturer who is so amusing and with her malaysian accent. My ears had a tiring day man. Don't know why some people are excited about school, or rather the start of school. Nothing interesting to me leh.

Poly life is simply hypocritical, in every way. I've come to encounter too many times of the selfishness of people and its related stuffs. People depend on what they see only- sight-driven. Oh well, I won't speak about it too much here. Anyway I'm not really affected, more of just disgusted with how things are appearing to be.

It may not be a very smooth-sailing semester (not being pessimistic, just being not too-overconfident), but I guess we just have to get over with it. Last year already so could just better off with it as soon as possible. I'm fine with what I'm doing. I don't need to "belong" as long as I'm happy. Perhaps it was because of the scarred past but I guess I just don't wanna commit to any form of "expectations" from the social network.

Week 1 is awesome, I have 3 days off the week! Haha!

Yawn, feeling very tired. Had been having this headache for the whole day; I think it's either due to not enough sleep or too-cold environment :( But nevertheless still had an eventful day. Had breakfast with HJ, I feel so paiseh sometimes 'cause I eat so slow, ahhh. Travelled around town to find a gift after church with a few of them (long journey) but finally found something :)

School is starting tomorrow!!! Sian to the max. Totally not excited at all. I think I might get doubly tired than usual...hmm but it's fine I guess, i am nu qiang ren lol.

Rotted my weekend away.

I'm going to lose weight when school starts. I think over the holidays I have been eating quite alot lol. I feel fat lehhhhh.

Anyway, random but I feel that big sized people are usually quite funny. Whether is it amusingly funny, irritably funny or naturally funny. They're mostly just funny, haha.

Still feeling the blues over the starting of school though, boohoo. I think I've never felt excited about school before, lol. Oh, primary school have.

Timetable was out yesterday, I think it is still not that bad as compared to all the timetables I had so far. So technically speaking year 3 is not that jialat I assume? Haha.

Met up with the two ladies last night for dinner, I think I sounded pessimistic to them. Haha! Nawwww, not pessimistic, it's called moving on and tired of it :) No point.

Hiii, I love myself so much for being sucha hardworking soul last night in finishing up mountain works! Hehe. Although I was feeling kinda zombieish today but still proud of myself.

My dad couldn't understand what I was trying to say today until the point I just decided to speak canto instead. Then they started laughing at me over and over -.- Not funny right. So anyway, my parents were still trying to console me over the fact that I wasn't happy about my mum's friends coming to singapore for a holiday and gonna stay in my room. Yeah I am selfish about such things but too bad lor, I am possessive over my stuffs. I tell you, if they gonna complain or whatever, then they are better off alone man. I don't like rich people who are stucked up.

I love it when it rains and I can snuggle in bed :D

One of those days I dread.

I guess it's better sometimes to harden feelings like I used to, and maybe not so heart-driven.

Oh well, my day was just draining, tiring and what not. I'm too sian to think and care about anything already.

Classes are out, and I have no freaking friend whom I really know so I guess it's another semester of no life AGAIN, just like sem 2.1. This time I'm not gonna try to make the effort 'cause I've lost that faith and trust. I'm always the one taking initiatives and making the efforts. Always. I'm tired of investing into something which I ended up feeling cheated of. Really.

Maybe I'm not easy to understand...but i think...might as well understand others instead.

Heavy eyes :(

Time to prepare for school once again, sian.

Too much chicken today, must stop chickening already!

I went back to CC3 today to do videoing with the p2 class. Saw the teachers there and they were glad to see me! Haha, so much for working with them for the last year, very heartwarming to be "back" there again. Saw a p4 playing the drums in children's church also, so impressed! So anyway, filming with the p2 wasn't complete due to shortage of time but I'll just try to work with what I have bah.

Last week left to go before year 3 starts! Time flies.

Mad day of rushing everywhere.

Home > Bishan > Funan > Sunshine > Bishan > Church > Serangoon > Home.

So tired by now.

Lesson was fine, but I thought it could be better. Maybe too long didn't teach alr, hahaha.

No time to blog! Byebye!

Stony and sian. Wait and wait and wait was my day.

Had a haircut, feels different now although it looks about the same. Actually I don't like haircuts, it makes me feels very edgy sometimes but no choice :( And my hairdresser kena scolded by a customer because of me, sigh feels so bad.

Someone idiotic made me rushed my lunch but in the end put airplane -.- Grr, no sense of responsibility one such adults.

Someone mean kept bullying and teasing me also! Urgh -.-

Long day tmr too, I hope it doesn't rain!

As much as I can I'll try not to dread internship coming in August. & Faster get over with life in school! Lol...nobody really cares about you in poly one, like seriously.

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Tired everyday! Actually sometimes I think I very no life and very boring. But whatever lah, I love it. At least I do meaningful and purposeful stuffs. I think I totally don't belong to the youth circle, lol. I don't really do what youths normally and commonly would do...I don't look for boyfriends, I don't hang out late and go drink and club, I don't go watch movies with friends all the time and do shopping, I don't go to the ktv lounge to sing anymore after sec, I don't engage myself in sports, I don't go after the media crazily- in fact I don't even know what's up with all the artists and celebrities, I don't know man...lol.

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Feel like eating ice creams.

Bad dreams start your day in a not so nice manner and affects your morning :(

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Feel like eating cakes!!!

Can't imagine when school starts and I'm gonna be so distant from work T_T

Glad that I managed to finish most of the stuffs that I was supposed to do...like church related stuffs. Now left with the event project in church.

Also, feeling glad to have a friend back too! Although I'm quite sensitive to friendships now but having back a good old friend is still good anyway.

Accept, Give in, Live it. What's new.

Fucked up day.

1. Deprived of sleep 2. Frustrated with haircut appt 3. Quarreled with mum 4. Being rushed unreasonably 5. Rushing for time 6. Irritated by internet connection which is not working

Very sian, Very no mood.

7. Kena from someone bushuang 8. Felt very horrible when I met J 9. Felt bad for 'neglecting' her over lunch 'cause I was too into myself 10. No appetite

Totally feeling down and lousy.

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I don't like moments when I have to cheer myself up. Who does? But sometimes...well maybe it's better. Sucks big time when you were looking forward to a day but it got screwed up.

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Tommorrow would be better bah. Sigh sian.

Yesterday was a long & not-so-good day? Feeling tired and all plus was feeling very irritated by some things...rushy day and didn't feel good anyway either. But at least everything that was supposed to do and carry out was done, so that balances off quite abit.

What actually made my day better was that I passed my sup! :) Although I knew I would but still feels good to know the confirmed. So yup, two more weeks for me to "enjoy" haha.

Dinner with the usuals was good I guess, just that the waiting and delaying kinda "wasted" some time away. Don't know how often can we meet up like these next time but it's always good to always remain like that :)

Thank God It's Friday today! I hope I survive the day 'cause I slept for only 6 hours(horrible input), and my output for the day is 16hours! Gasp.

Sometimes it's just freaking better to do things on your own than to entrust it to others.

SERIOUSLY.

Busy, busy, very busy!

Don't like people whom despite of my good intentions and niceness, don't appreciate it and worse still take my words like nothing -.- Although you have more authority but doesn't mean what comes from me is insignificant to even take note. Disgusting.

& I also can't stand it when you want to cross the road, but the car infront is taking their own freaking sweet time to drive until the car behind is fast enough to catch up, and then you can't cross the bloody road -.- Annoying right?!?!? And worse when irritating cabs slow down soooo much 'cause they thought you gonna take a cab...zzz...hello, I would flag if I want to mah, ugh -.-

No idea when is the sup results coming out, hopefully soon 'cause school's starting in about twenty days too. Wonder who are my classmates this time.

I have a new fetish now, hehehehe!

Thumbs up for Edutorque! Another good kickstart for the course :) Sigh, very reluctant to leave what I'm doing now when school starts. I don't like the feeling of somebody else taking over my place and do what I have already did and stuffs, boohoo.

Actually I think I do have alot of "only-child" traits, lol. The only-want-it-to-be-me thing and those selectively-selfish habits. Hmm.

Well anyway, gonna be a fruitful and eventful week ahead! (Y)

Happy Birthday to my cousin! :) Got her a surprise cake and went for dinner, nothing magnificent but something significant. Life did get better with her around :)

Gonna be a busy week ahead with work! Jiayou jiayou~

Anywhere but home.

I'm so busy now till I go to other places more often than my own house -_-" First my workplace, and now my church, lol.

So tempted to have my own car after hanging out with Audrey and with her driving me around, hahaha. But need to know how to drive first (zzzzz) and $$$$$. COE just turns everyone off. Hope there'd be some economic crisis during the period when I wanna get one, haha!

April Resolutions:

1. Get a printer

2. Get a haircut

3. Complete important work

4. Cell worship

5. CC lesson

6. Cousin's birthday

7. Prepare for year 3!