I'm sorry I really can't take it anymore. This is really too weiqu. Why am I deserving and experiencing all these...why is it that all I'm giving are in exchange for all these emotional pain. This is too much for me to bear...I'm just here all alone by myself controlling and suppressing in silence. Who is there to comfort me. You have no idea what kind of state am I in right now. My heart cannot take this...I'm at the lowest peak of emotion...really.