read between my lines

im so happy today is friday.
cos its the weekends tmr. finally rest! but not exactly lah.
im still the same height as ever, and still the same weight as before.
either i lost 1kg or remained. ahaha.
okay i hope i stay this way through the year. lol.
but i'll probably lose due to study stress. oh well.
physics was horrible terrible whatever it may be.
mr lim was not here, so we did test paper.
oh my god, like nearly most of the questions i dunno how to do.
and its like, me and andre down there discussing, with ruby also.
two periods we finished 19 questions. lol how pathetic?
and my brain cells are almost all dead plus no more energy alr.
i was glad i didnt have any headaches cos it was the last period of the day.
thank goodness headaches havent come to find me.
i was pretty prone to headaches in term4 last year.
after school went to nyp. i tell you its so not very nice.
the people there were not very friendly, in a sense that theyre kinda dao.
and what irritated me was they were walking like everywhere around the school,
then when walk halfway suddenly tell us turn back walk the other way.
its like what the hell? somemore not once.
me and my bag is like so heavy, and they still gave a bag with dunno wad inside,
and i was hugging it like some idiot for the whole time.
i cant rmb what exactly i saw in there, but whatever, i just rmb they poked my finger.
lol theres a test for diabetes thingy. so i went to do lor.
they poked me with that small scary thing.
and i realised my blood was actually quite dark.
junhao said i got so much blood -.- lol of cos la, im so warm-hearted.
haha! oh well, and his apology was like so sincere that i find it so....lol.
junhao: oh im sorry shereen. im really sorry.
shereen : *shakes my head*
junhao : i dont mean it.
shereen : o.o nevermind its okay.
lol he sounded so apologetic when he just stepped on a shoe. lol.
so after the whole thing actually wanted to meet mandy but cant contact her.
i think yali heard what i said on the phone.
sorry if you feel offended but i was kinda urgent in looking for mandy.
but in the end you also never lose anything.
i was the one who said nevermind and forget about it. lol.
so bus home with julia, and we chatted on the way lar.

i can't feel alive when im feeling dead.
i dont know how dead im gonna be next week.

i always mean what i say.
if not i wont even say.
you're never useless. be positive.
stop your negative thinkings, cos i care.
believe in what youre thinking, and do it.
you won't regret. unless you choose to think it that way.
be that miracle.