its sickening when you get to check your bloody tie and attire whole day.
had bio test today. everyone fell asleep after doing, ha funny.
i passed my physics class test man! :D
12/20. LOL not very good la, cos of the bloody conversions.
i suck at that lor. but im proud of my moments! hahah.
and so i made a promise to myself for physics.
im gonna memorise everything i can.
1cm = 10mm
1m = 100cm ; 1m = 1000mm
so 1m cube = (1000) cube mm
which is = 1 000 000 000 mm cube
okay cool. shall read that once a day before i sleep. lol.
so like, had 2 periods of english plus eng remedial after school.
i dont really like it, cos its seriously killing.
but well, the jokes exception. hurhur.
theres chinese test tmr. damn, i dont think im gonna study for it.
i studied last week, and i dun have the mood to study again.
if i happen to forget then too bad. lol.
theres alot to study for geog test on wed, so i'll start today, sian.

im so gonna dread mid year. zzz sucks.

okay. i think my voice suck. lol.
so there was cell and everything as usual.
so me phyllis huijun and anthea were buying curry puffs from cheers,
since its $4.70 for 4. LOL. okay whatever.
service was funny and all. have faith! yes thats the summary.
so went home together with huijun.
yes. so i was struggling with the damn chem workbook,
but in the end not gonna do it anymore. lol.
so went to revise for bio. i actually went to revise alright!
haaaa, but never complete revising it lah.
but anyway, good luck to me for the test tmr! im not gonna fail(:
and wayne has became so intellectual.
lol one sentence he said that made me appreciated his words.
ha, very pro meh. being anonymous is no big deal either =P
aiyah but hes living his life in blissfulness lah, so who cares. lol.
my master is proud to have a disciple like me ! xD hahaha thats damn great.
okay he must top one of his subjects.
cos he promised he will treat me to kfc+mac+mosburger if he ever does.
YES! please top man. lol i'll pray hard for that to happen :D
and im gonna buy the latest dark choco m&m's .
im a lover of it. so im never gonna miss it. (:

alright. woke up damn late cos slept damn late last night. lol.
so was once again busy chionging hw.
im always busy somehow for dunno what stupid reasons. zzz.
so didnt had lunch today. 0_o
so another busy saturday. sighhh.
its not gonna stop until mid year ends man.

and i find myself helping other ppl always,
but just not helping myself.
im trying to understand others but not myself.
lol, oh well whatever.
siti's blog is very inspiring too.
it can help to realise that doubt in your heart. hahaha.

ive suddenly become the great secret keeper.
hahaha not bad sia. xD
lol i still couldnt stop smiling over ysd's thing.
its something so interesting, yet something so lame and stupid.
its nice how we could ever talked so far and over some funny things.
hahahas...

im letting go. and im moving on.
when i say it ended, means its seriously the end.
i dun care and wun bother and will not give any damn anymore.
whatever that is will be. it makes no difference.
at this very moment, my heart stopped beating for you.
i lead my life and you live yours.

and life still goes on! :)

melvin broke the visualizer's screen. LOL.
how true can it be. well its totally so true.
the whole thing came off, hahaha. so we used it to flash on the whiteboard.
its cool anyway, and it looks much more clearer and all. so its not a bad thing afterall.
early in the morning the whole class of girls are being sent out.
so there was this councillor who told ma nai that our girls are not conforming,
bcos our skirts are too short. and ms nai got so mad and started lecturing us,
den made us kneel infront of her for check,
yes so was kinda pathetic, cheryl and cecilia were the main victims.
so uh, some things happened and yeah.
and that damn councillor turned out to be ferania. damn her luh.
stupid bitch. whats her bloody problem man. nth better to do go fly kite lah.
but afterall, what she wants was just her face right.
she scold us just for her sake, bcos shes not pleased being corrected by someone of lower authority. think about it, man.
so had napfa 5 items after school.
i tell you how much it suck sia. lol.
cos im getting older, and im getting lousier in everything -.-
i didnt jump very far, and i didnt reach very far either.
sit ups and shuttle were still okay.
pull up sucks a whole lot !!!!!!!!!!!!
reason being i cant do that damn thing since like, forever,
and so the passing mark is 3, and i DID 3. fullstop end of story.
whatever. i dont have so high expectations that i must get As for everything,
and eventually get a gold for it. whats the use right.
im having a hard time thinking of songs to sing for cell on sunday. zzzz.
alright im so happy its weekend.
somehow time is passing so slowly. oh man.

you made me feel like ending it all.
so if it really happens, its seriously gonna be the end.
i wont have a second time like how i used to anymore. that's it.

there was 4 periods of maths today.
plus my 1 and a half maths tuition.
can totally freak me out.
yes. thats all i wana say about today.
cos my energy level has dropped to 1% currently.
no english lessons for two days. that was very nice man. lol.
and i screwed my physics test paper.
haa. i suck totally at densities.
tmr napfa 5 items. zzz.
im so gonna dread the stupid pull up.
and finally approx. 24 more hours to weekend! :D

and i wonder. i really do.


you made me not wanting to give a damn anymore.

so the barber teacher came to observe us during maths lesson.
everyone's damn hell scared of her can.
then went to com lab to do the graph thingy.
and had the presidential vote thing. lol damn funny lah.
our class like no one's really serious in it.
some even drew pics in the boxes. haa.
and today the bio test postponed !!!
i studied for it and it was postponed ?!?! WTH.
yesterday was chinese test, today bio. -.-
so theres gonna be physics test tmr.
i bet it will never be postponed man.
and i have no energy to study tonight liao,
but at least i read through and understand it lah. (:
and so after school went home and got changed for napfa 2.4.
met eun, jul, ruby and mandy to go punggol park.
and we're late. lol. all thanks to the two girls. haa.
so was running 2 rounds. yeah and i felt like dying after 1 and half round.
lol... i dont have much perseverance in running man i tell you.
but still not bad la, didnt disappoint myself though xD
okay but still. it sucks. lol! theres still 5 items on friday. zzzz.
so after that i look so shiny, cos im like sweating the most among all the people.
ha, den went home with mandy, while others went somewhere else.
we went to eat abit before we go home.
so today was feeling even more tired than yesterday.
well its gonna be sad if ruby cant go to aus trip. =(
okay, good luck to me for physics test tmr.


i think smiles are always the best thing in life, isnt it ? =)

its weird why a vice principle will want to sit infront of the class,
instead of sitting behind to observe us, like what other teachers do.
trying to be special ?
then if ever the principle comes in, she'll sit in the middle of the class alr -.-
im still the same height ok. but i gained weight. zzz.
during chem everyone was making a big fuss,
cos of the chemical formula.
okay seriously i think it kinda suck lah. lol
but i still manage to understand la, not very bad.
walao chinese teacher nvr give the stupid chinese test,
wasted my time yesterday sia. like wth.
but instead he gave a surprise spelling. !@#$%^
and he says spelling no need to be told one. lol what logic.
alright. so theres gonna be bio test tmr.
surprisingly i stayed in my room for 2 hrs studying bio,
haaaa. and my mom still nag at me. wth, just be quiet and im happy.
and theres napfa 2.4. argh im so gonna dread it.
tmr will be a day you'll see me half dying after 2 rounds in punggol park.
martin asked me to join wilson's fan club. LOL.
shall see first lah. i support him, but im not really into fan thingy.
and tmr's the voting for president of sch's council.
i dunno who to vote lah, maybe not voting i think.
after school niko joined me and ruby to mac.
okay lah, its good she nvr went hypo active. lol.
and she sent me home wor. how nice can. hahahaha.
okay, so and so. im damn tired today.


i dun wana be bothered anymore. yeah really.

im SO inspired by what JULIA posted on her blog.
its very motivating, and it really can screw your mind.
wow im so so overwhelmed. nice one.
i shall promote her sayings, at the same time spreading her words.

"stop regretting over nothing,
cause every action has a reaction.
so what if the reaction is bad?
you can only blame yourself.
stop reapproaching yourself,
what's done is done,
no point thinking back.
if you keep looking back,
you'll never get to the front.
stop being guilty for your acts,
so what if you made a mistake?
you are still a human,
and humans do make mistakes
so just accept it and move on.
the world won't change for you,
and it's time you change for the world.
lastly, you don't and won't get my sympathy,
so just be optimistic and lead a happy life. "

the best way to commit suicide is to eat fishballs! xD
lol. cos during bio she said if food got choke in the windpipe,
you can die within one minute. hahaha! okay crap.
den after school went to bugis with my two friends.
yeap, nothing much lah, just had some crappy stuffs and went home.
was studying for chinese test tmr but found out he nvr give chpt 7.
SEVEN leh wth. hope he postpone it or sth. hurhur.
and jul said looks like im the only one who studied it.
lol not really studied, but at least get a feeling that i know sth lah,
cos i dun wan to feel so rotten when doing it.
jerome scored damn well for his test, and he thank me for it!
hahaha :D okay i should be honoured. VERY.
cat high won peicai in the semi-finals softball! blahh.
hausan said its a long-term enemy. lol. hes another joker lah. always say lame things.
i told my dad to buy a green pen for me.
and he came back with a pen, stated "black-green pen".
and it doesnt look like green to me, neither is it black to me -.-
he bought a green pen that is not green. alright nothing to say. lol.
eugene asked me sucha a good question that i dont know how to answer.
so like, wow. actually theres a reason for it, but yet not totally. uh, contradicted. whatever.
and i actually forgot what is sublimes. HAHAHA.
but i'll forever rmb it now. cos fick had became a part of my science study. hahahaha.
theory : bcos fick is cold, so i'll burn him, and he will be sublimed.
LOL from solid into gas ? HAHAHA thats so cool can.
and i promise IF I EVER ace my chem paper im gonna treat him. yesyes.
and whenever i do practical on it or see that on my papers,
i'll think of fick! ha yes. it'd be sucha unforgettable moment if i ever get ace. lol xD
its nice talking to him. he can make me laugh man.
i dont know how but, he seems to be nicer anyway. hes a nice devil. lol.
okay and theres a ben and jerry's free cone day tmr.
although i would love it, but i dun think i'll go ard sg just to get one after sch -_-

" i want to ctrl alt delete you! and then end process. xD "

lol from a display pic can make so many of my friends so interested.
its cool lor. yeap.
but stupid liyuan say its noob -.-
go die lah you. xP
he tried to scare me but ha, FAILED.
lol alt shift esc. hahahaa.

had a fight with mom. yeah, voice fight you can call it.
dont provoke me. never.
maybe i bottled up too much of my emotions inside,
until i vent it up when i cant take it anymore.
so sorry mom for screaming at you, but you really make me angry what.
but i lost anyway, cos i stop the fight by being quiet. lol.
okay whatever.
i finished all the homework! :D so glad.
haaa, but i dunno how to do amaths exercise 4.5 lahs.

well...time flies. 18 days to mid year.
time to concentrate and work hard.
i promise myself im not gonna be affected by anything until midyear is over.
and i never break my promises.


maybe things will happen as it is when time goes by.
let it go, let it go.
maybe its soon gonna be the time to move on.
perhaps, you'll be the last thing that i tried to hold on ;

i dont know how the hell people can cheer you up and encourage you.
maybe what i do is meaningless. or perhaps you dont give a damn lah.
i wana be the one there for you sometimes, but you just dun see it.
you dun see my presence. and thats why im always remaining silent.
and youre willing to stop sth just bcos of a normal someone.
well, that's that.
love kills.

when you think that no one cares, you never realise i've always cared.
i care, i care for you more than anyone else.

sometimes i know you too well, but yet sometimes i feel like i dont understand you at all.

can someone stop the time for me,
cos i can hardly catch my breath now already.

okay well. time to go for church.

caught flu. wth.
today morning from 10am ive been doing homework nonstop till4pm.
minus away 1/2 hour lunch and 1/2 hour bath,
ohmygod, 5 hours! ive broke record man! wow.
i spent alot of time doing maths lah, and damned exercise 4.5 i dunno how to do at all.
den did chinese and english article thingy.
so left with bio workbook and english compre and summary.
intended to have a break of one hour, but somehow... aiyah lidat lor.
so next time i shall chiong all first before i on my com.
will try to finish everything by tonight. hopefully.
my mom's going for a wedding dinner tonight,
and she said she dunno anyone there except for the groom and his mother.
LOL but his bride was my tuition teacher last time lah.
like so funny loh, if im her rather dun go, alone there, she only gets to eat lah.
today's sucha boring day. i spent my precious saturday doing homework.

and wilson got into 20 ! wow wow. (:

i feel like asking you. but well, nvm about it.

hey you! dont feel down or whatsoever.
but know that im always here for you. =]

you got me speechless.
im so touched.
you still have the little things that i gave.
and you actually think baq of the memories in the past,
but maybe just for once.
and i realised how much my drawing suck one and a half years ago.
you made me miss everything so much. ever so much.

we were so young and innocent, but now have changed.
and the places we went to, they still remain.
the words we used to say, they're forever so sweet.
the things that you and i have, are now left with memories.
the video clip you made, and the two letters you typed.

it has been so long huh.

the fire that used to be burning in me.
but now, the love no longer burn, cos you have blown off the flame.

1. How do you go to school?
walk lor.
2. What time do you usually arrive in school?
7.15am. lol
3. What school do you go to?
pcss
4. Do you live near or far from your school?
quite near lah.
5. How much is your tuition fee?
dunno leh. $136 ?
6. How much is your monthly allowance?
$100+ nia.
7. Favorite subject/s:
chinese! lol. most slack one.
8. Favorite teacher:
mr lim changwei! :D
9. Favorite classmates?:
ruby loh. xD
10. Favorite sport in school?
er. none
11. Favorite hang-out after school?
mac
12. Favorite event held in school?
teacher's day ? LOL
14.Where do you usually eat in school?
canteen lah where else.
15. You eat alone or with friends?
with friends.
16. What do you do during breaks?
nothing?
17. Are you engaged in any sport in your school?
nah.
18. What time do you usually go home?
4pm reach home.
19. Do you go home alone?
nah, with mandy and ruby (:
20. You think schooling is easy?
never -.-
21. Do you like your uniform?
no.
22. What makes your school beautiful?
the people who always make me smile :D
23. Are you happy in school?
ok-ok lah.

today's friday thirteen. lol.
saw the presidential votes on walls today.
hahaa, dunno wana vote for who also.
die, now since celest is either the vice or the head,
i must be guai infront of her liao. zzz.
damn sian today lah.
had boring english lessons, den had physics practical.
chem test was funny lah, cos the test is do the workbook -.-
but also good lah, cos for once i really concentrate to do it. lol.
and i feel so paiseh in class today -___-
everytime when julia calls me i cannot hear one. 0_o
and cheryl also i think.
not that im deaf okay! lol soonling call me i can hear loh. lol.
okay well. anchal said im MATURE. hahahaha. true true :D
after school everyone got to stay back for extra lessons.
1.30 - 3.30pm. and it extended awhile also.
so its like, 3 hours of maths today plus two periods in curriculum time.
so went to mac and grab a bite den went home.
theres tons of hw to be done before monday. hais. alot lor.
and next week's gonna be damn busy. got alot of things going on. sian!
arghhh sickening.
how i wish ive got no sense of urgency.


you have the power to make me feel weak inside.

was writing note to ruby in class today during first period.
i told her to do a test on your personality.
cos i heard from the radio last night, and thought it might be interesting enough.
LOL its damn funny lah, so tat was some kinda entertainment we had lah. haha.
i must learn not to blog about teachers now.
and i think im doing quite well in that also =\
well. during PE played badminton. lol its been long since i was so active again. haa.
chinese lesson listened to some old songs.
and i think its quite nice actually. lyrics got alot of meaning.
and i realised im good at making ppl happy, as well as sad. LOL.
physics lesson's fun :D
although i didnt really bother to work out the answers, but its good lah.
my grp got a choco coin from mr lim. haha (:
the group names are so funny lah. jx named ours "shinalingaling" -.-
lol.. but i think trevor's group one most funny but most insulting lah.
i hope mr lim wun tell him, if not she'll probably hate us.
after school, there was some very interesting things tat i noticed,
yeap. and I DONT LOOK SAD at all ! lol.
okay la, maybe to you i looked sad. haha, but in any case, im not!
can say im emo, but im not sad. nooooo.
went home, den got moody, den went for tuition.
teacher somemore ask why my face so black. hurhur.
but after tuition i got my mood back, cos during tuition i knew how to do ALL the questions.
lol once in a lifetime thing man. only some qns i see wrong question,
den it freaked my teacher out. hahaha but quite glad la :D
but still, school's maths hw damn difficult loh -___-
okay whatever. i need sleep i need sleep and i need sleep!

*chem test tmr, journal entry,amaths hw, emaths, march hols hw maths.

just came back from school. zzz.
today morning stomach pain again.
wah sian, two days liao leh. dunno wad the hell is wrong.
but luckily went to school alr fine.
lessons are very dry and heavy today lah.
ms sae praised me sia! LOL. so unexpected.
she said im the only one who did the graph and the questions behind in the wb for hw.
hahahaha, so funny. i dunno why i did also, maybe tat day im not in gd mood bah.
den after school went out to eat at void deck.
den i saw roy around there. den i msg him and said that i saw him.
LOL he looked everywhere but didnt see anyone.
hahaha so funny right.
den had cca, today's very slack also.
only did some script writing while ruby was entertaining me at the same time.
lol if only our entertainment happens, then my life will rock man.
okay unrealistic. 0_o
and take care mandy! youve been so suay lately. lol.
alright then went home.
last night was talking to jerome about chem, cos he got test today mah.
den i told him some dumb theories, and i anyhow said an example.
and it really came out today in his paper! hahahahas.
how true can that be man. lol im so honoured :D
i can his lucky star liao. lol!
okay anyway, im going to have a super damn busy week later on and on.
alot of tests are coming up next week, and alot of hw have to be done by this week.
running against time seriously suck.
and how i wish wad ruby said and the cards will happen.



why didnt you did what you said to me in the past;
while you said that you'll do it just for her now.
its every little thing that makes me think of you.

i bought the iweekly mag just to let ruby see his "idol" =\
yeaah. some sort of surprising girl i am hurr.
okay well. after running 12 rounds in pe i was having a stomachache.
and a really bad one, until i got no energy to talk much also.
and during chem melvin kept irritating me -.-
threaten me somemore. like i care ? i told him wadever, and he was freaked out.
hahaha!
luckily he never do anything ar, if not im gonna be so dead anyhow.
andy bought a very cute dog for ferania.
haha so sweet loh, but he damn shy also lah.
chinese lesson mr hou was making fun of it, and also about the aeroplane tat clarence was playing with.
and i laughed most at the "mary had a little dog" song sang by him. lol!
amaths test was a disaster lah.
i dunno how the hell to do almost all the questions.
im gonna be so stressed out again.
and how on earth am i gonna get a 2 for maths.
stupid target set by teachers. its very tensed, but still, i must get it somehow, before my 0s.
after school went to mac, and had a little "game" with ruby.
although not very realistic, but still....yeah.
it should end tmr lah anyway.
midyear is coming and i havent been studying.
ohhh no. sianed.


the one and only one that creates a special feeling in my heart.

almost late for school.
the sky seem so bright in the morning,
made me like chiong all the way to school,
end up me wearing the wrong socks.
i wore one side new and one side old -_-
after school went to kovan.
ate pizza hut, and saw jasmin and her boyfriend.
den later on was having a slight headache,
so i went home and slept.
yeap, nothing much today lah. mondays are always like that.
and my mom out of a sudden gave me 2bucks. 0_O
uhhh. she said is bcos i seemed guai today.
*speechless*.

im gonna buy the book "tuesdays with morrie" !
under the recommendation of fick :D
its damn interesting.
maybe after reading i'll get a life.

happy easter day! lol.
no church today.
mom gave me drink some kinda tonic stuffs. x_x
she says if its okay for me she'll buy that for me during midyear.
and that thing is to help have more energy. im lacking that anw -.-
uhh okay whatever. but seriously its not nice at all man.
i went to sleep after my lunch.
i wonder what effect has that thing got,
cos i drank that after my lunch, and instead i went to sleep 0_o
well, i was doing the maths revision thingy for the whole damn day.
got three qns dunno how to do. gonna ask ppl tmr.
hopefully i'll pass my amaths test on tues lah. xD
since eunice said zen v always hang,
maybe i'll save for zen neeon 2.
lol both are same price lah, see how lor.
either zen v or neeon2.
sigh. so many things to buy. i guess it'll take a long time.
if only money drops from above. =\

and i realised this year passed very fast.

no need to say sorry lah eunice.
lol although it really made me so shocked and all,
but i didnt cry mah. lol so its okay lah. relax (:
went out with my mom today.
we went to toa payoh cos she wanted to eat the thing.
then in the end they nvr open the stall. lol.
den we were quarreling over wad to eat.
cos i insisted on eating pizza you see.
so in the end she no choice but to follow me la.
ha. ate pastamania. den when the pizza came,
its burnt at the sides -.-
so my mom go complain. LOL.
den they say they will give us another one.
which made us waited for another 10 mins. =\
okay then we went to somerset.
cos my mom asked wana go orchard, somerset or dohby ghaut.
den i dunno where to go, and since somerset sounds nicer i chose there.
lol nothing much also lah, intended to go shopping but didnt buy anything.
den she went to church and i went home.
wanted to ask some people out, but in the end changed my mind.
so on the way i went to ps walk around den go home.
at the b2 mrt escalator i saw jerome!
i was going down, he was going up.
den i saw him, i looked at him. den he looked at me.
den we were like staring at each other while he goes up and i go down.
LOL so dumb lah. we're like smiling instead of saying hi.
haaa. i just saw him on thursday, and now i see him again.
what a small world. lol.
yeap. and rainy days are so.... make ppl feel so emo.
dont you think so ? ha.
i havent finish any of my homeworks! man im dead.
anyway i feel like buying creative zen v.
but the price is killing me.

i kept having dreams every night -.-
and i actually forgot every single one of them.
well, but i rmb last night's one, just the last portion.
ha, its nice lah, its nice.
woke up damn early today also, just to go to church for good friday with mom.
after that my mom wanted to go outram park one,
den i say i dun wan go. lol.
so i went to meet ruby, vivian and jiani at serangoon to waste time.
they wanted to play bball and badminton.
after they borrowed their ball i went home.
den on the way mandy called and ask whether am i free,
cos her dad wana treat all of us go movie. wow?
yeah, so i went home and wrote a note for my mom in case she went home and found out im not home.
we went to ps, wanted to watch bean, but full liao. ugh.
so in the end we me and mandy act smart chose meet the robinsons.
den found out that its actually a cartoon movie. lol! so dumb lah.
but it not bad lah. haa. talked about time machine and turning back time and looking into the future.
i liked the songs, gonna find them out.
den we went to arcade, but very stupid lah, didnt get wad we wanted. lol.
den had swensens :D their dad is funny also. hahaha.
must really thank him alot for the treats. thanks uncle! :D
so paiseh laa >_< sorry junlong, couldnt go vivo. lol cos i think i dunno your other friends also. ha and its late also. next time lah huh. yeap, so and so. very tired lah. i wana go bookstore! lol. its been ages since i read any books. and i need to save up money buy stuffs. and im really gonna do it (:


你知道吗，我的心一直只有你。

yoyo. smile :D ah yes. actually the both of them are taller than me. and the lights are brrright!

lol i know its lame, but come on man, its a treat wor :D

okay, im really going to australia fieldtrip.
anything, i dont really care.
jiaxin so damn funny lah.
she threw the ____ to me in the middle of the class,
LOL like wth? den ltr niko threw one to ruby also.
stupid sia. we were laughing over it during maths lesson somemore.
i was very tired today lah, almost fell asleep in class.
after school i went home early cos got tuition.
slept for like only 45 mins.
cos my mom kept calling me up every now and then.
den we were discussing what to eat for dinner.
den in the end i rushing for time, i told her eat maggie mee. LOL.
having headache, cos the aircon too cold.
ya thats about it. tmr's good friday (:
going church, den maybe going out, still yet to plan for weekends.
im going broke soon. oh noooo.
mid year starts on 4th may. so damn fast. must start mugging now.
must do better than ct1. man, life sucks now. so empty.
i miss you.
i know im dumb to love you.
but sorry, i cant help it.
sometimes i really hate myself for being so stupid.

homework : english worksheet, chinese two passages, cme proj, maths revision.(for self studying for test)

lol today's julia's day. 4th april.
hahaha den mine will be 7th july :D
well anyway, today i very blur lah.
i took the wrong books from locker,
i forgot to take ruby's geog book and my physics wb -_-
after school went for infocomm. kinda sian la.
one sec one guy call leroy said i looked like happy tree friends -.-
den halfway through me and ruby went out to slack a while.
supposedly to be doing the stupid video thats yet to be filmed.
den for some reasons i dunno what i was feeling abit emo. LOL.
so ruby had this stupid thing that can make me smile somehow:



lol?
if only it happens. if only.

joke of the day :
*jiaxin standing at my table away from the bin*
*throws paper into the dustbin*
*paper got into the bin*
"YEA!(to herself)"
nice joke of the day :
((ZONE-D)) [ JJ ][Baby] D4 ACCELERATE l l [D extra miles] l l God's 300 says:
"i plan smt fun for u la!"
"since u got nth to do.."
"go out with me n seah la"
"LOL you PLAN my day for ME ? HAHA im laughing"
"AIYA! I BOOK U ON TAT DAY LA!"
hahaha how nice of him huh.
worse joke of the day :
at the bball court...
*weiqin running to celestine*
*stands infront of her*
*celestine drops ball immediately*
she must be so scared of her. lol.
worst joke of the day :
" eh clarence you going or not ? "
" no lah i see julia face dun wan go alr. know why? "
" later the pilot say passengers please fasten your seat belts."
" then julia will HUHHHHHHHHH ? "
HAHAHAHA. i cant believe im still laughing at this.

Happy Birthday cousin :D
i hope you've received my card already! lol.
well well. i think i should be going Australia.
yeaaa. unless some things changed my mind.
should be lah, should be. lol.
i forgot to bring home maths book.
den cannot do homework. damn it.
tmr shall go transfer answers into the book.
saw jerome on the way home.
he looked at me. i stare at him.
den i walk away. den he looked away.
lol dao dao! den saw melvin and roy.
melvin gave a sarcastic smile. den i walked the other way.
den saw trevor clarence they all.
i looked at them. they looked at me.
den i turned, and they turned.
LOL today is funny man.
den ruby and niko crapped on msn with me.
hello? leehom, westlife and tony rocks okay.
stupid bian tai. lol.
and dont anyhow write things on your pm. esp ____.
i love him ? maybe yes? maybe no? ha.

whateverr.
im too used to things that are always happening.
the things that dont change since like forever?
and if you didnt notice, i dont really care about it anymore.
although i still feel for ya, but seriously, its nothing to you at all.

today passed damn fast lah.
bio damn funny, cos everyone was thinking of wad to eat after school instead of listening in class.
lol had a hard time thinking of where to go and all.
den in the end also lidat la. went to j8.
nothing much lah. ate and went back.
lol i saw westlife's single album!
wondering if i should buy. haas.
aww. and precious moments pillow is so sweeeeet.
i think i suddenly had alot of things to buy. lol shopping craze 0_o
cos its been long ever since i went out shopping or walk around.
especially orchard! man, i really miss going out.
i wanna go catch a movie too. anyone interested? lol blah.
and cos of tat stupid melvin's fone, he asked me to repay him by doing maths.
and i dunno how the hell to do la, for crying out loud 0.o
so since his fone is confiscated i cant call him, den his hse fone not in use -.-
so i think tmr hes gonna die, bcos of me again.
i think im so bad lah. but i really dunno how to do mah. lol.
and im so freaking confused over whether to go Australia fieldtrip or not.
my mom and dad want me to go, ruby dun wan me to go.
den if i go, ruby will be like forced by me.
den if i dun go, my whole family(including msia's family) will say me stupid lah.
cos they want me to go for this kinda rare opportunity. =\
i wana go, but then 7 days, like damn long, somemore i still going back msia also.
but if i dun go like abit wasted also. but if i really go i'll like cant really bear to leave.
sian lah. helppppppp!
i realised usually the start of the month nothing ever goes well.

report slip. hahaha. xD

end product. lol

how nice to tear up a report slip.
laughs.

happy April fool's day! (:
ruby's the first one to wish me.
cos she say its my day. LOL.
okay whatever.
happy birthday queenie! (:
in order not to pangseh huijun i went for cell today.
damn tired can. i havent had enough sleep.
so in the end i didnt go for service.
so i went to buy my cousin's birthday card.
damn it precious moments things damn expensive can.
and i stood there for like 30 mins just to pick a sweeet card.
LOL like wth. no one to ask also. im still indecisive anyway. sheesh.
so now im trying to get a stamp for oversea one.
yeaa and my mom's gonna help me. cool.
so went to sleep, then my mom kept waking me up ask me do hw.
i dragged the time for like 2 hours, den i finally woke up.
ha. okay whatever.
april's resolutions:
` shall not pon cca
` shall lose weight and make sure i dont exceed 160cm
` start studying cos mid year starts in early may
` avoid being stressed :)
` must know how to differentiate whos ms komati and ms david
` get my bedsheet changed! my current one sucks
` not to be late for church and cell
` save money for memory stick
` stop thinking so much about you
` try not to be emo!

happy April everyone!
i was fooled by clarence and wayne! SO DUMB lah. lol.

im finally back from camp! (:
camp was serious rather than fun -.-
yeah, so for the whole two days all we did was just to plan.
you know, plan and plan and plan =\
he taught us the skills on how a leader should plan and all.
we had this little stuffs on planning and all.
my grp got julia, eunice, si wen, siti, yanyee, andy,chengran and suzanne.
all very nice to work with :D hahaa.
had quite a nice time lah, together with our facilitator jinfa.
i talked quite alot during the camp, dunno why. ha.
we need to stay up late to plan for our plan last night.
we stayed up to 1.30am in the morning ? den 6am woke up.
so was dead tired today loh, when i came home at around 7pm.
alot of things happened lah, also got happy moments together. lol.
yeaa, so had a very nice two days with friends la :D

sorry melvin and chengmeng.
we didnt mean it. i'll apologise to you in school on mon.
ms ming wont change her mind one. who ask you act smart lah -.-
however, i dont know chengmeng though. lol.
so... sorry melvin! i feel bad too.

after days youre still not okay.
i wish i could do something. but yet i know i cant do anything.
but i hope you'll know at least theres someone who cares for you.
thats me.

i love the test given during the camp! :D
its a test to tell you what your personality is when youre working as a group with people.
yeah. its so cool. theres D, I, S, and C .
im the S one. a PURE S (:
it says im a stable person, and i'll struggle when changes takes place.
which is very true. if sudden changes happen i might not take it or sth.
and then they nvr say further more liao -.-
but still, its cool. wahahaa.
this kinda things are sooooo interesting can.

alright. no point being so emo.
im gonna be fine tmr. (:

today shall be my last day blogging and going online,
until saturday after i come back from my camp alr.
aww how sad.
i'll miss my computer lah, although only like 2 days.
i thought no more camps already loh.
how sickening.
hopefully fone will not be confiscated =\
blahh. okay till then.

misses!

35 more days to midyear exam.
holy crap. thats like so fast, and changwei went to count it.
today had like 3 periods of lessons free.
pretty good, and was very slack the whole day also.
just that i was feeling very restless.
after school went home and slept.
den woke up went for tuition.
damn it today sucked. all the questions i dunno how to do.
was very discouraged though, the others know at least 2 qns -.-
okay whatever.
tmr's school speech day. uhh. how boring can it be.
and the stupid leadership CAMP stars TMR.
and i havent pack a thing.
feel so unwilling to go. hais.

smiles (:














the left one is mine :D
aww. how sweeeet.
you and me; 7eleven! <3

happy birthday jiangjun :D
its kinda sad cos im not the first to wish you !
lol so early sia. so surprised 0.o
but anyway, stay happy man! (:
also, happy day to mandy.
lol cos its JJ's birthday -.-
no wonder my day so bad =x
haa just joking. but seriously, today im not in a very good mood also.
too long nvr exercise today pe almost wana die liao. zzz.
7 rounds. ha nice number.
jia xin told me that ms tan's skirt wore wrongly.
cos the zip should be at the side. LOL.
and she tried cutting ppl's hair with the scissors.
lol shes so darn funny man.
then faridah kept nag at me for talking too much during chem.
ha-ha-ha. first time huh. broke record.
all thanks to my counselling to ruby lah. lolol.
then geog was dead boring lah.
i thought i spoilt dinali's watch when its actually no batt liao. lol.
after school went to mac slack awhile.
and today i kept saying "dont know, dont care."
lol and that freaked ruby out. HA.
so can kinda know how moody i am.
sian. so many things havent do.
not intending to do english, maths dunno how to do,
infocomm research doing later.
bio tys havent do. phy workbook dunno how to do.
lol im so lack of motivation.

ohhh my god.
im leading worship on 22nd April.
YEAH ? and im not kidding.
boo. someone shoot me. x.x
imagine me leading singing in my cell group in church?
lol what a joke man.
but luckily everyone also must do it laa.
so not much of a problem, since im not the first one :D
yeap. then service. so and so.
then at dohby ghaut mrt there was this guy who thought i am jennifer.
-.- like wth. since when did i change my name.
and for god's sake i dun even know him.
den he asked how old am i and then said " ohhh. have a nice day then."
dots. whatever. nowadays people are like going out of their minds.
then saw rowell at serangoon mrt.
at first i didnt see her lah, den she suddenly waved at me,
i thought it was some kinda crazy people.
but ha, she stood in front of me so i knew it was her. lol.
she was with her friend, and i thought it was her boyfriend,
cos i saw too many young couples at the mrt. hahaa. =x
theres this message i received from my dear friend.
and its really crappy.
" last night i dream about U. this morning i keep thinking about U. my mind is full of U. i think i miss U. tommorow i will try to think about V,W,X,Y,Z..."
and i cant believe i actually smiled at such a dumb joke.

this song rocks man.
im starting to love it (:

Nick Lachey- What's Left Of Me
Watch my life
Pass me by
In the rear view mirror
Pictures frozen in time
Are becoming clearer
I don’t wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes
Yeah

Cause I want you And I feel you
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger like a burning
To find a place I’ve never been
Now I’m broken and I’m fading
I’m half the man I thought I would be
But you can have what’s left of me
I’ve been dying inside
Little by little
No where to go but going out of my mind
In endless circles
Running from myself until
You gave me a reason for standing still

And I want you and I feel you
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger like a burning
To find a place I’ve never been
Now I’m broken and I’m fading
I’m half the man I thought I would be
But you can have what’s left of me

Falling faster
Barely breathing
Give me something to believe in
Tell me it’s not all in my head
Take what’s left of this man
Make me whole once again

today was a very busy day.
spent most of my time on my com,
cos it just got reformatted :D
yeah, didnt lose my songs though, ha. cos its in my D drive.
yeap. so and so.
but my monitor stuffs looked damn small lah. 0_O
whatever.
went to have lunch with mom and cousin at marina.
we had changing appetite. (:
the drink was like so big and large sia.
but it was really cool and the ice cream rocks man. haha.
had pasta,pork rib and onion rings.
we shared lah, then in the end all of us damn full.
and i went home after that, while my mom goes to church and my cousin go meet her friend.
there was this 7-eleven i saw that sells clothes. LOL.
cos me and my mom were on the bus, then we somehow saw it,
den my mom ask "7-eleven got sell clothes one meh?"
lol then i said that one special laas.
on the way back home i thought of lots of things.
sometimes i just cannot be alone outside one. sure go emo. lol.
maybe i shouldnt anymore. i dont know. i miss you.
so much have changed, down memory lane.

things to be done by tmr :
- english homework.
- maths tuition hw.
- infocomm research.
- social studies homework.

today chem lesson soon ling got scolded cos of me. LOL.
so sorry leh. cos mdm faridah scold ppl tat time very funny mah.
den ruby and me were laughing.
den weiqin and soon ling were sitting behind me.
then they see me laugh they also laugh.
den faridah went "wads so funny soon ling ? am i that funny?!"
HAHAHA then i laughed even harder.
damn funny laas. my laughter can actually spread. ha not bad sia.
chinese lesson everyone come ask me how to write the compo -.-
cos im the only one who handed in. lol guai hurr. xD
then they supposed to stay baq after school to finish.
but i guess he didnt know what time school ends lah.
so around after 15 mins of school dismissal, i walk pass the staff's room den see him coming out.
"EH! quan bu dou pao le ar !"
"haha ya. xian zai dou xia ke hen jiu le la."
"na mei yi ge dou pao la ?!"
"shi lor. dou pao diao liao."
"....." *walks back into staff room. LOL hes funny somehow.
after school no time practice so went out :D
we went to j8, then went to eat kfc.
theres this grp of malay+chinese ppl who asked us to lend them out poker.
then later theres this uncle who gave us three whipped potato.
he said is new flavour. 0_O ??? whatever.
ruby made me and mandy laughed till siao lah,
just bcos of a story she invented of me and _____, mandy and _____.
den we go add ruby and _____ in also.
pastor, marriage and proposal. LOL! okay we're lame. but come on, its entertainment.
hahaa. tmr meeting cousin and mom for lunch.
actually dont feel like going cos i need time to like do hw and all,
but since shes treating den go loh, after tat my mom also going church,
while i go home after that, supposedly. =\

ohhh my god.
the teacher's name is ray see. lolololol.
well whatever. my mom asked me go tuition center,
so i went luh. stupid shit.
then got there saw all zhonghua guys -.-
and one girl lah. but eventually he only tutored me.
cos the other two didnt come.
yeah, so.. he concluded his observations after 1.5 hours.
"youre not stupid, just that you dont do enough practice."
" youre a fast learner, but sometimes just too "block" lah. "
" what you need is motivation, cos you lose hope when you dunno how to do."
" and lastly, youre just lazy."
and you know what he said at the beginning before he said all these ?
" peicai students are all lazy from what i see."
oh well.

sian sian sian.
going got tuition later.
you know its like no big deal, but yet...arghs.
i wonder how am i gonna struggle there for like one and a half hours.
cos i went home early today to do amaths homework.
and guess what. i dunno how to do all lah.
LOL. so depressed.
got back english paper. zzz not really good also.
ever since kodi marked my results havent got better. lol wth.
and dumb spelling she gave.
i spelled definitely as definately. zzz.
i swear im gonna rmb this word forever. -__-
good thing of the day : my com is gonna be repaired soon :D

the leadership camp will suck lah.
all the cca leaders i dunno one loh.
i only know meyi, jane and yiling.
and melvin lah -.-
then the rest all either psl or councillors.
dont even feel like going man.
like how nice can it be. sighs.
english paper will be returned tmr. lol.
kodi say until make everyone so worried.
and she said about the lung thing was me lor.
damn it. amusing meh. its like so touching can.
haa, aiya shall wait till tmr.
i felt almost dead during bio cos its seriously dead boring,
and i was really very tired.
maybe bcos after three periods of maths bah. 0_o
and changwei's my "dad" !! LOL <3 :D
hahahaas he'll be a great dad if hes got a child man. :D
he rocks okay. hahaha.
two periods of chinese damn stupid lah.
he was talking about getting involve in pre-marital sex,
and eventually his aim is to want us to write a compo. wth -.-
alright so and so. then went to grab a bite and go for infocomm.
the two other sec one guys whos in our grp go be smart chose to do the history of the school.
~!@#$%^&*( its kinda hard loh, somemore not interesting also.
ugh. no choice luh, stupid crap. then we went to interview some teachers.
then mdm goh damn _____! i swear i wont want to talk to her for no reasons alr.
but didnt found out much lah, shall do research and go library get information.
and got like so many homework to chiong ! oh nooo. suckkks sia.
well but anyway, tmr will be my first day going tuition.
ohmygod. oh well good luck to me.
patience, patience.

you affected my mood seriously.
haisss.
alright nevermind. i understand.
dont blame you.



but you know what.
its amazing how you can make me smile again without words.


how your mood is affected is how you affect me.

happy birthday junlong (:
hey friend. you're sixteen now.
stay happy and dont be so emo anymore yeah.

glad that i didnt put on weight. lol.
but its idiotic that i grew shorter by one cm -.-
must be damn wrong lah.
not only me, others also. francis must be so blind man.
i got kinda fed up of the protons electrons thingy.
holy crap. so confusing =\
and that stupid kodi cheat us one.
say what hand in storyline will return us english papers.
go die lah. in the end she dunno disappear until where.
alright maybe tmr will get back.
i scored a combined score of 65 for geog and ss.
not that good, but okay lah, still can accept.
and my mom's seriously making me go for tuition for amaths.
on every thursday. and will start on like the day after tmr.
ohhh my god. oh amaths, im becoming friends with you x.x
but still got to go. i have to be a lil more hardworking now. xD
ha, suprising eh? no choice lah.
and today's the last day of my slacking day.
cos tmr onwards homework will start coming.



you make me smile in every little way.
even with the slightest words, even with just a picture.
you're like my sunshine ya know.

aww. today's not a good day.
i think ms tan's gonna teach us very soon,
dunno where will ms nai go liao.
so disappointed lah. i flunk my bio paper by two marks :(
didnt expected sia. like wth.
but nvm lah, since its combined with chem, so i still passed.
was feeling damn tired today laa.
assembly time i could just possibly fall asleep loh!
ms ming was talking about human brains,
then used computers as an example to apply.
like how sad lah, cos reminds me of my com.
still havent got repaired yet. didnt have the time to do so. sigh.
and i flunked my amaths beautifully. :(
luckily i passed my emaths ar, if not i'll feel so down.
but just passed only lah. lol.
shall make a list of my results when all papers are returned.
still left with geog and ss, and english. 0_o
my sec 3 results suck la. no wonder teachers say results will drop this year.
so my day's like so tired and moody.
and ive got a stupid leadership training camp next friday and saturday.
dumb shit. that ms tong lah. ask me be wad cca president.
zzz. waste my time leh. dun feel like going lor, but gotta pay 100bucks.
damn it lah. then like eunice also go with me la, but still feel very sian.
first day of term two already so many dumb stuffs.
and good heavens that my mom did not went red.
she just signed my science papers, and i told her my maths results also.
she looked kind of neutral, so i guess its alright.
hopefully the rest of the papers can at least get B lah, den no worries that she'll get mad at me liao.
and today last episode of hana kimi ! lol no shows to catch anymore. haa.

still wasnt feeling very well.
dun tell me im falling sick. 0_o
oh noooooo.
tmr school reopen liao. sian.
hopefully i wont fail any of my papers.
but amaths exception. lol.
if borderline passes also die lah. sighh.
being a student very tough huh.
esp when your parents are like so demanding.
talking about that, my mom today dunno whats with her sia.
morning until now give me attitude one -.-
and her black face becomes blacker for dunno what reason.
i also never offend her. sometimes moodswings can be so scary.
and dunno why alot of peicaians joined campus this year. -.-
its not like as if our school is a high school or whatever.
and come on, renfred won bcos hes rich, many ppl dun like him lor.
eventually like so many people got disqualified.
what has our school become. idol-dreams school ?
haiya i also dun give a damn to this lah.
although last year i thought it was quite interesting.
hahaha.

just came back from church.
man, i woke up with a headache lah.
cos i think lack of sleep or something.
feeling sooo tired.
den i was late also. lol.
and today's cell lesson got like two worksheets,
and somemore quite chim also. 0.o
then i think i was looking very dead lah,
den she called me to read out the whole chunk of paragraph out.
omg. what luck.
then went for service worse still. wasnt listening to the sermon.
only know we must have needs, and can pray abt anything bcos its our needs.
ha? "dear God, i need his love." this is so irrelevant please.
crap lah. but at least, i did listen la, just that was like half dead.
blah, i dont know why am i talking about my day at church. -_-
maybe cos i havent been going for like weeks. hurhur.
and i havent finish my geog, amaths and social studies.
zzz. whatever lah. i need some sleep first.

went out with mandy today (:
we went to sengkang, mandy went to buy presents.
then went to eat. and then we went to play the dumb game,
whereby you have to control the thing and catch the soft toy in it.
i wanted to get a pooh so can give to charlene or queenie as bdae present.
but damn it lah, couldnt get it in sengkang.
so then we went to hougang's arcade and play that thing again. ha.
we tried alot of times cos mandy wanted to get the pink monkey, cos she found it cute.
LOL ? yeah so we wasted like damn lots of one dollar coins for that.
ha, but eventually she got it la :D so happy loh. but still, no poohs. x.x
actually wanted to go vivo one, but will take damn long to reach,
so instead we alighted at plaza sing. and we went to eat swensens :D
yeap, and we shared the topless 5 together. so sweeeeet laas. hahaas.
after that we went to arcade again. ha,we're like so insisting to get the damn thing lah.
we tried getting the pooh for queenie/charlene quite a few times,
it was grabbed at first and THEN the damn HEAD hit the glass and it fell back.
STUPID SHIT. damn idiotic lah, so we went off. cos no money liao. lol
but went to the mrt arcade again. LOL.
this time i was trying to get either the tigger or pooh. for the last time luh.
and its not the grab one, its another one. must hit the correct number.
and the damn plate is spinning damn fast lah, so cant really get it.
in the end i left abit more then can get the tiger liao leh !
wad the hell loh. its meant for junlong one actually, as his bdae present.
tried many times lah, but still fail, so didnt get it. cos we're both seriously broke. LOL.
but was feeling kinda upset luh, cos didnt manage to get the pooh/tigger when we were like spending our money on these games the WHOLE DAY in different arcades trying to get bdae presents instead of buying them.
hahah, well... and thats our day. :D

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

You Are a Chocolate Cake

Fun, comforting, and friendly. You are a true classic, and while you're not super cutting edge, you're high quality. People love your company - and have even been known to get addicted to you.

What Kind of Cake Are You?

You Are Sunshine

Soothing and calm You are often held up by others as the ideal But too much of you, and they'll get burned You are best known for: your warmth Your dominant state: connecting

What Type of Weather Are You?

changed blogskin.
this is like damn plain lah, but doesnt matter anyway. (:
cos ive like been wanting to change but cant find nice ones.
so i used my whole day to find but efforts sort of wasted.
so die die must change by today, so can feel satisfaction. lol!
yeap. junlong asked me out, but didnt go.
cos didnt feel like going lah. sorry yeah.
and thus i rotted at home, doing nothing. haa.
i intended to do social studies, but turned out dunno why not doing.
lazy! and i heard the radio last night saying laziness kills. laughs.
mandy told me social studies need to do all three questions?
wtf ?! haiya dont intend to do already lah.
gotta finish up amaths and journal by tmr.
2 more days to school reopen.
man, it feels like hell. cos results are coming out.
boo.

zzz. so lack of sleep.
feeling very tired and moody today =\
i left like amaths hw, journal.
not intending to do geog cos i dunno how to do.
waiting for andre to give me answers for amaths =x
guess i'll be sleeping for today. lol.
dunno whether wana go out tmr or not.
sian, will see about it luh.


things have changed.
seriously.


i really miss the past.
maybe...i shouldnt anymore.

while waiting for ruby,
guy : ......................ya so hope you can donate some money.
me : oh. er.
guy : can you like give 10 bucks ?
me : (wtf ?!) i dun have so much money. (bluff one la)
guy : oh. 8 bucks ?
me : (...) er hurhur.
guy : okok 6 bucks ?
me : i havent eat leh ( lol!)
guy : okay lah. 2 enough.
me : uh okay -_- *gives $2*
guy : 4 can ?
me : ...!!!!! 2 la.
guy : okay.

went to marina for arcade. kinda dumb lah.
and i think im like wasting money playing -.-
then went to eat, then went to clarke quay.
the weather's damn hot la, but still walked like no one's business. lol.
ruby was saying alot of things but i didnt really listen.
ha cos was thinking about sth else, and listening to songs also.
yea, and we went to the new shopping mall. central.
kinda cool lah actually. cos i love clarke quay alot. yeah.
and ms kodi will hate that place cos theres alot of small size escalators.
and i seriously think she will have difficulty standing properly on it =x
and somehow we were lost in the staircase 0_o
its like damn hot inside, and we were walking and walking dunno for how long,
then finally found a way out. lol sorry lah, didnt know anything mah.
we went to the kopitiam, and the scenery from there is so nice loh.
den while she was eating i was talking about things la,
then somehow the atmosphere there became kinda quiet.
uh, den ruby started saying some impossible things that she think is so sweet -_-
yea. somehow for some reasons went to peninsular and funan =\
and was like, dunno why. and they were so dao can.
but whatever la. i felt so stupid. and i cant believe it.

lol. its kinda dumb isnt it.
but actually ive thought about it.
its normal for one to feel down,
and since i knew everything was gonna be i-know-what,
so what for being so moody right. nothing's gonna change anyway.
ha. okays tmr im going out.
ive got to get my mood back :]

and i think nike should change their motto.
impossible is nothing.
it should be "impossible is something."

actually intended to go out today one.
but no mood go out, so in the end my parents stayed at home also.
was doing homework today, but didnt do much.
cos i was like xin bu zai yan lah, then felt so pathetic,
only did a little after so many hours. lol =\
and seems like my mom's serious about getting me to go for tuition for my maths. zzz.
oh well. the last time i went tuition was like 3 years ago when i was having my psle year.
my mom lost my ____, and its like. wth.
and she dun feel bad, next time when her things get lost den she know -.-
today morning my dad was like,
" i thought your com spoil? why still using?"
" dunno. "
" your exam over alr huh. why nvr go study "
" over liao. now is holidays. i nvr go school wad."
" ...... then stop turning the volume so loud !"
hes good at changing topics. lol.

i miss malaysia ): feel like going back so much lah.
at least theres no sadness there.

my mood got better now, at least, a little.
i think ive achieved a little of so called being 'stronger inside'.
maybe la huh.
its okay if you dun really care,
cause i only hope that you wont feel awkward over it,
and forget about it loh.

how i wish nothing happened at all =\
so totally blanked out.
i shouldnt say it when i know what will happen.
someone tell me why am i so stupid.
this feeling sucks so much. the heart aches.
then again, would anyone possibly care.
oh whatever. im feeling so sad.

are u tired.??
not really.
how many enemies do u have.??
none
wad is one thing u hate ppl doing to u.??
misunderstand me
who do u miss.?
dun feel like answering.
wad u gonna do after this.??
homework
are u a virgin.??
.....duh
Do you prefer to sleep or talk to a friend when it gets boring in class?
none.
Do you wave hi with a smile or a serious face?
hi with a smile lah.
One thing that you like about your house?
my room?
The last time you cried, is it because of someone?
yeah. it was just yesterday.
Chocolate ice cream or chocolate bar?
bar.
What's the good thing about schooling?
can get to know friends.
Last song you downloaded?
sorry seems to be the hardest word.
Which part of your body is itchy and aching now?
none.
Worms or cockroaches?
none -.-
Yawn with your eyes open or closed?
dunno.
If you can have a choice, would you prefer to be friends or attached with someone you love now?
confirm thing that will happen is friends lah.
In one word, describe your day:
sad.
what websites do you have open:
friendster ?
You listen to music when you are..
everywhere.
The latest news you've received?
parents are going on a holiday without me. lol
Last clothing item you bought?
bag.

wad are u doing now??
doing this.
r u waiting for anything.??
yeah.
mind telling.?
mind.
r u sweating.??
no.
wads ur latest indulgements.?
nothing particularly.
wad is the colour of ur toe nails.??
colourless.
wads on tmr.??
nothing.
after that appointment.??
still staying at home i guess.
do u have anything which u haven started yet.?
homework.
do u have any bestfriends.??
of course.
whowho.??
best friends only got ruby and mandy. rest are good friends.
wad are u craving for now.??
nothing.
wad do you DONT eat.??
when i dun feel like eating.
when was the last time u took neoprints.??
last two weeks i think.
with who.?? wld u take it agians.??
charlene charmaine and mandy. dunno.
wads one word you say alot.??
lol
wad song is on now.??
not playing any
wad other windows do u have opened.??
windows live messenger
are u feeling well today.??
no but i am still alive.
wad time isit.??
1.07pm.

What can't you live without?
alot of things la.
Who can't you live without?
does it matters actually ?
What do people think when they first meet you?
dao ? LOL
What color is your hair?
black.
Natural/dyed?
natural.
Do you like answering surveys?
yeaaa :D
Last thing you did?
ate lunch
Two things that people don't know about you?
1. when im quiet it doesnt mean i am QUIET.
2. i dun smile doesnt mean ive gone emo -.-
Are you a frequent user of Friendster?
nah.
what u want to do now?
trying to finish my english homework.
what you do in school everyday at 11am?
eat =\
who are you close to in school (opposite sex)
er. eric and maybe clarence bah.
who spent most of the time with you in school?
ruby
what did you do in the past 5 mins?
this thing
what will you do if your loved one cry infront of you?
go ask what happened loh.
what are you wearin now?
clothes luh.
what is your fav colour?
black and white
do you like quarreling with your loved ones?
no.
name a friend you think are flirts.
melvin and qingyang
name friends that you think that can be trusted.
dunno.
who you hate most?
no one.
what make you feel stress in this month?
maths!!! lol
who you wish to spent your life with?
the one i love lor.
friends or stead important?
both equally.
single now?
yeah.
when is the 1st time you fall in love?
p5 ? but i think its just crush.
what your hp model?
k610im
slack with friends or stead better?
friends
do your loved one know what you think everyday?
i dun have a loved one. lol
how is the food in school?
so-so.
wish for anything tomorrow?
my mood to be better.

my 100th post today. lol.
i didnt go to church for some reasons lah. =\
so in the end later went out with my mom.
we went to suntec, cos she and my dad wanna go korea,
den wana go there and book the tickets.
its damn tiring cos, my mom asked alot of questions,
and she went to all the different kinds of tours there -.-
got IT fair there lor, but didnt go.
i still want to buy my keyboard and mouse one leh.
den went to eat pastamania with her.
and she looked so interested in carl's jr. hahaha?
alright wadever. then its like we went almost to the whole suntec,
and eventually she go baq to the first place that we went to book. -_-
they go loh, so bad. left me here alone. not the first time lah anyway.
still rmbed ruby came my house to stay over. LOL.
den went to marina, den went to bugis.
ha. its weird cos im going shopping with my mom for some reasons. 0_o
den junlong called and asked whr's the nlb.
den i told him, and then the next moment i saw him with his god-sis.
hes opposite me lah ,across the road and we're walking in opposite direction also.
but he didnt see me. wahahahas.
den went to buy bag. and the guy there talked alot with me lah.
and my mom got so fed up tat she went to the toilet. lol.
cos i couldnt decide mah, den he was telling me all sorts of things,
den i was asking him alot of things also. and most funny thing was,
he was trying to joke wif my mom but my mom didnt laugh.
LOL. so coldddddd =x
den ltr went to chop for clothes. didnt buy lah, cos quite expensive,plus dun have my desired colour also.
so went home loh. and went to meet mandy at the interchange to pass her ring git money in exchange of sing dollars.
bon voyage girl ! :D
aww. i still havent got my com repaired yet. zzz!

i was bored to death this morning till afternoon.
damn sian loh.
my com is getting more and more spoil lah,
make me feel so depressed. hope i can faster go get repaired.
lost everything also worth it. (songs exception) lol.
den was feeling a bit emo also.
so i was finding things to do, then asked ruby whether shes free or not.
in the end i went to meet at 4, den we went to plaza.
actually the main point of asking her out is just to go arcade vent abit lah.
so we spend most of out time there lahs.
lol. and we happened to be wearing white shirts together. haa.
yeah. den went to buy my dinner.
i saw snoopy's vcd there leh ! LOL.
so surprised lah. hahaha.
yeah. at least going out a while can let me get some fresh air. =\
and went to my house's nearby playground to slack a while,
since theres no vacant void decks available.
so actually my mood was back after going out. haha.

some surprises are really surprising.
but some questions really cant be answered.
i will answer and tell. someday.

last day of school ! :D
lol dunno why so happy also.
but whatever. 9.40am ended school.
den went home a while, and went out with mandy.
we went to kovan, den walk around.
i was thinking of wad to buy for my friend lah,
but dunno what suits him. =\
sometimes its so hard to understand what guys want.
den went to eat, actually there were three guys there at kfc also.
den i was trying to eat faster than them so that when they go off we can follow them,
cos we didnt know how to go to hougang stadium. lol.
but in the end they went to take the mrt -.-
sucha watse of time loh. den forget it, we went to look at the board ourselves.
we're smart people okay. lol den on the bus saw alot of ppl lah,
so need not worry. hougang stadium is so hot loh, i prefer serangoon's one.
den our class went to take care of the spastic children =\
i cut short everything lah, summary is that girl held my hand and kissed my hand 0_o
ha. okay, actually i do look very lovable huh. (HAHAHA)
julia also kana lah, cos she was beside me. ruby very pathetic, she didnt play with her. LOL.
oh well, but congrats to anchal for getting the individual runner :D
but red house got the fourth this year =\ bad loh. who cares lah hur,
although im a runner in primary school. laugh-out-loud.
yeah. and today's the last day of term one.
things that happened :
- everyday like nothing good happen one.
- com went nuts and need repair.
- chosen to be president of cca -.-
- horrible pe lessons
- end of ms nai's teaching :(
- the ''maths-stress'' thing everyday =\
- friendship problem, but i think its okay liao.
- beginning to sympathize mr hou
- starting to feel that mr koh is quite an amazing guy
- common test over.
- have been eating too much junk food x.x

and i realised none of the above is a good thing.

finally common test is over ! =]
can get a big rest liao. haha.
and im sucha idiot in bball, cos for the whole period,
i only manage to shoot in 2 balls -.-
how pathetic right. weiqin was so pro la, three pointer also went in.
tmr's sports day. dunno how to go hougang stadium also. 0.o
wadever lah. just follow the others. lol.
so sian lah.
last year was damn fun la, cos renfred was sitting infront of me,
den me and ruby down there gossiping about him. lol!
after school waited for mandy damn long lah.
cos sh need to stay baq for the fieldtrip thingy.
den i went home wana sleep one.
den the both of them purposely call me and say goodnight -.-
and i got msgs coming in la, so cant really slp.
in the end im like having headache now -_-"
today's ms nai last day teaching us already.
its a very sad thing loh. i would miss her craps and all.
haha but still, shes a nice teacher lah. (:
yeap. and i feel so damn lazy to do letter writing.
exam over to me is like relaxation man.
still got wad stupid homework. so extra one. =\
i really wonder whats gonna happen tmr.
spastic children are going to meet our class and play an activity somemore.
oh-man. 0_o

finally its over. xD
okay. but well, im prepared to fail.
haa. out of 9 questions got like 3 nvr complete, around 5 qns dunno.
so dead. x.x
but im quite lucky though.
i passed my physics ! :D
quite alot fail leh, kinda sad.
and i got 25/50. LOL ?!?!?
ha. just my luck.
but its really difficult loh. wth =\
and i got an a2 for chinese :D
but kinda disappointed cos one more mark to a1. -.-
so dumb lah, everytime lidat one. 74 is always the number i got.
ha, but kinda happy also lah. (:
ruby finally passed her higher chinese.
and she passed it cos of me. lol?
yeah. i should feel damn glad lah. hahas!
tmr still got last paper, bio. so sian can?

oh well, but after school went to j8.
just to eat lunch. LOL. kinda stupid lah, but we're sick of mac liao. yeap.
ate long john.
and guess what. the arcade there's so cool man.
call what virtual land ar. nice. lol.
and went home after that. its very pro of us to go there and eat and walk within one hour.
hahaha. and thats bcos we pon infocomm =x
its like no one going loh, and tmr got exam, so can make tat as an excuse lah.
lol. and two more days to holidays. :D

mom : how was ur paper ?
me : *silence*
mom : gone case.
me : yeah, tmr will be worse.
mom : why ?
me : cos tmr's amaths paper.
mom : ?!?! then how ?
me : fail lor.
mom : ....
(maybe now she doesnt flare up, when the results out its worse than volcano eruption)

yeah. its kinda hard for me to relax.
cos 1). i dont understand, so means i wont know how to do.
2). mom will have another war with me
3). ms nai's gonna scold again and make me feel so discouraged.
4). dad's gonna make me go tuition
5). im gonna feel so depressed

my day's bad.
and tmr's gonna be worse. =\
i basically anyhow did the physics paper lah,
cos i really cant understand what the heck is it. lol.
and, maths paper i can prepare to fail also.
like wtf. that one question i really dunno how to do the formula mah,
so no choice use completing square one.
den ms nai go announce whole class,
" i told you so many times to avoid using that formula, and yet one very brave soul go do that. its not that i want to say if you got it right. you got the whole bloody question wrong."
walao. but she nvr say my name lah.
so sad leh. i didnt do it on purpose one laaaa !!!!
haiyerr. spoilt my mood alr, tmr amaths paper can fail la. wth.
yeah. and i saw half of my chinese marks, cos he havent mark finish.
36/60. how on earth am i gonna get A huh. pathetic.
need like 14 to pass, 34 to get A. ha, might as well go bang wall. lols.
yeah. and seriously im not in the mood to study maths. =\
i'll be prepared to flunk it. sighhh.
half screwed today, will be totally screwed tmr.
3 more papers to go. man, this is like hell.
who says sec 3 dont suck ? bullshit 0.o

good luck to me tmr.
oh God, if you're good, help me pass my math papers.
pleaseeeeee.

1. if you could change a fairytale, which would you change and how?
Cinderella. that she will not turn back after the clock struck 12. lol
2. if you are stuck in an island with brain-eating monkeys, what will u do?
jump into the water and die -.-
3. if possible, what would you do to the person you hate the most?
get him/her out of my life, and never want to know him/her.
4. if you could invent something, what would it be?
time machine. (:
5. if you were person on earth and surrounded by people of the opposite gender, what would you do?
as long as theres no mental ppl im fine. 0_o
6. if you could manipulate with a moment in time, what will you change?
i would change the moment of time and make it that way so it'll not end.
7. if you could eat a medicine that cure all problems, what would you be cured of?
heartbreak.
8. if you won 10million dollars in toto, what will you do to it?
get all the things i want :D
9. if you could talk to God, what will you say to Him?
i can always talk to Him :D
10. if you could be best friends with anybody, who would it be?
ha. i dont know lahs.


maybe ive got more confidence now in doing my maths and phy paper today. =\

think i screwed up my paper.
haa. geog map reading i think i got nearly mostly wrong.
maybe 8 marks gone ? lol.
oh whatever lah. its over alr anyway. =\
ruby bought me the adidas bottle :D
haha kinda shock loh. but thanks lah.

nothing much today though.
just that everyone looked very stress.
lol. after exam we went to the hall.
den we all go count the money fund for the spastic children.
sian loh, friday sports day gotta play the activity we organized.
like how dumb la. why must our class do it -.-
i was intending to go there eat and slack on sports day.
lol looks like cannot liao. zzz.
but some people quite bad lor, all make fun of them one. =\
and i still have no idea on how to get to hougang stadium. 0_o

uh. tmr's maths and physics.
sian ar. cannot fail. if i fail ruby's gonna kill me man.
and i musnt feel stressed, bcos if i really do,
den amaths paper i can go super tensed up liao.
yeah, i need alot of luck for maths. lol.
and i must pass. must must must.
shall pray extra hard today.

its not only you who feels it that way.
me too.
if you think that its ridiculous,
den for me its worse than that.

think about it,
its long.
but then again, you dont know.

happy birthday eric :D
i'll forever rmb your crapness.
oh. and stop meh-ing ! lols.

oh. and today's leehom's last concert.
hahas. in KL. kinda miss his concert though.
yea. and i didnt go to church today.
and i realise i had alot of free time. haa.
well, but still. i was mugging for common test la.
hopefully i wont forgot wad i studied loh 0_o
AND.
stupid yikai TRICKED me that hes karwoon. -.-
for like so many days. lol stupid.
but in the end i manage to trick him baq also.
hahaha. how fun xD
my com went a lil nuts, so cant open my file in hotmail.
physics notes loh, sian. forget it then. =\
and why does the wrong person always gets what i meant? -.-

"beauty lies in the eyes of a beholder."
not chim meh? how come i dont understand this sentence ?!




dont you get abit of wad im trying to say?
do you see a lil hint i gave ?

错过就难以从来，失去就难以回头吗？


and i ask myself again,
why am i so dumb,
when i know its not gonna happen.

i woke up damn late, cos i dreamt of many things last night.
lol, was quite scary, but later on was quite sweet. haa ?
yeah, and i spent my day studying.
oh, how guai huh. hahahaa.
although i took damn long to digest la,
cos i dun have the mood to like study 100% attentively to my book.
my mom said i study like enjoying life lidat,
a while cut nail, a while comb hair, a while eat ice cream while reading the book.
LOL, my own style of studying. =x
then i went to bugis to buy my j-star magazine.
quite stupid loh, went all the way to there just to buy a book -.-
cos i scared no more by next week. so no choice.
then i went to buy my stationaries. made me end up so broke. sian.
in the end gotta eat maggie noodles for dinner.
wads more it kinda suck. zzz.
well nevermind. i have to mug today and tmr.
cos i got a feeling monday i wont have enough time to study.
tmr wont be going church, cos my mom asked me not to.
and shes like having steamboat tmr 0.o
last day of chinese new year she cook steamboat.
lol so funny la. but suits her lo.
bear for another 5 days and it'll be holidays! :D

celestine sat behind me, and ruby was right beside me.
LOL. during exam cannot turn right, if not sure will laugh one. haa.
so different loh, every year sure will sit first row last one,
this year second row last second 0_o
but wadever la. the main problem is sitting behind i cant really see much words.
LOL, gotta bring my specs next week.
today two papers quite okay loh.
just tat chinese the zao ju freak me out la.
lol didnt learn the meaning so anyhow liao. idiotic.
oh. i must buy some pen refills and long ruler and eraser.
if not im gonna die terribly next week.

but the worst thing that can ever happen to was,
i think my com can get repaired on monday or later.
sian lor! hope my com can last till monday.
cos seriously i dun wan it to like break down halfway,
if not my mood will be so down until cannot study. lol
been raining these days. so cold lor. zzz.
and i realised ive been eating quite alot of ice creams.
damn, gotta stop. if not my weight will go up 0.o

ive gotta get into the mood of studying this week.
mug mug mug !



i know, someday i will tell you.

this is damn strange laah.
suddenly eugene wuhong talk to me.
saying the same thing, answering the same thing, asking the same thing.
somemore exact answers sia.
what the hell is going on de ?!
but theyre at the same place, so... -.-
maybe la. i dont know.
den one guy call wad kar woon added me ar.
another same thing same words. somemore spastic . lol ?
and i bet they three are dunno pranking me ar.
dunno la. so dumb loh.
so coincidentally said the same thing one.
SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT IS GOING ON LEH.
WEI ?!?!

okay whatever.
tmr's common test already.
ah ! so sian.
oh well, but anyway, good luck people ! :D

woot. another month passed.
today's the first day of march. (:
time flies huh. =\

March Resolutions.

` pass each paper for common test.
` buy march j-star mag.
` get com repaired before march hols.
` get more sleep.
` lose weight.
` stay happy
` stop thinking too much of you
` change a blogskin soon(but actually i dun feel like changing)

sian. dun understand why i hate running so much.
zzz damn tiring loh. -__-
maybe i should stop blogging about kodi anymore.
lol. or maybe just short short one luh. =x
"im utterly disgusted with this class."
ha, her true feelings towards us. what fate is this man.
alright. and today had infocomm -.-
and that teacher go appoint me as the president of infocomm.
like what the HELL ?! damn it luh.
and we're like standing there, trying to like stand up for myself.
zzz holy shit. but no matter what, she still appoint me.
so no matter how stubborn i am also cant be help.
another dumb responsibility again. wtf.
what exactly is so wrong with me huh -.-
and eunice's the vice. hahaa, at least its someone i can work if.
if not gonna suffer like shit.
and perhaps cant even pon alr. so sry mandy and ruby.
lol but if really necessary i will pon la. who cares. =x

common test starts on friday and i havent even studied.
how dead can i be. two subjects in one day somemore.
sighhhh. gotta like chiong tmr.
how i wish theres 30hours a day =\
oh yeah. and im so lack of sleeeeep ! zzz !